Tuesday, December 21, 2010

To see you but not to keep you

If one day I see you
And you happen to look my way
I´ll run to your arms
Surrender to your embrace
I´ll give you my heart
And the love I saved for you
Inside my broken heart
That longs for loving you
You are right to move on
In your search for security
I’m a child of the sun
A rainbow, a fading beauty
Disappearing in twilight
I was born to kiss the clouds
Washing over me
Carrying your scent away
Giving me rain to dance in
I’m here to feel heaven´s touch
But not to claim its light
To feel the brush of the wind
But not to trap its breeze
To ride the ocean waves
To respect it
Never to master it
I’m a smile, contagious
A fire burning in the desert
I’m water to quench but not to cure
Like a stream meeting a sea
A sweet and sour merge
Your love carries me distances
To see you for a quick instance
Loving you, touching you
Until we break apart
You bring me to light
And back to darkness
Until I see you again


Unjust World

Only God to bring justice
To such an unjust world
A place ruled by the ego
They don´t care where you come from
How much you suffered
Who you are at the core
The person beneath the material
Lie asleep corrupted by the fantasy
The reality is sad, robots fill the streets
The people move selfishly
The ones smiling are so few
But enough to lighten this dark theatre
To cleanse my spirit of the sorrow
Inflicted by my sins
My mistakes
Aggravation hangs heavy on my head
We all have our battles
But you don’t have to fight alone
Compassion is imperative
For the sake of this world
Some rather talk
I rather write
To open my soul and dissect what´s inside
To splay my heart open
Examine the hurt
Some choose to withhold
I prefer to bare all
Put it out in the open
To see it, to feel it
To know who I am
In a world found by war
I inspire love
I encourage it, flourish it
Fill my world with it
I live to love, for love, with love
To God, for God, with God
For only he can bring justice
To such an unjust world


Quick Thoughts

It´s a beautiful life if we want it,
If we allow ourselves the pleasure
To enjoy each experience with love and patience.
There is nothing we cannot heal within ourselves
And overcome outside ourselves.
We are the masters of our lives or the victims of ourselves.
Don’t concern yourself with what is lost,
Go out and attain new things.
What is lost will reveal itself in time
And with experience you´ll decide whether you still want it or not.
We are what we worked on developing along our life,
The product of the wisdom we used to deal with each experience
Plus the lessons we´ve learned.
How we deal with each situation determines our success as a human being.
The hurt and misunderstood display anger and offense,
It is up to those awake to step in and show them compassion and understanding.
It´s a beautiful life if we want it,
If we allow ourselves the pleasure
To enjoy each experience with love and patience.



She brings the sun´s radiance in her eyes
Her star guides souls to a world of joy
She lifts you to heaven with a glance
Her compassion has saved lives, made lives
She is here but is not from here
Her presence enchants men and women
She is beside me, inside me and far from me
Her presence is everywhere beauty lives
Many rejoice in her love
She is my mother but is beauty first
Her eyes will never see this
But her heart has already felt my words



Nature feeds my soul
The ocean washes my spirit
The scent of flowers perfumes my essence
The sun brings me to life
Awakens, revives all that´s rotten inside
It radiates, stimulates, invigorates
My cell growth
Motivates my mind
My soul
Each breath of air purifies me
My lungs, my organs
Renew with each breath stroke
The birds inspire me to fly
To reach high
To build
To try
To reach for the sky
The people inspire me to live
To endure
To fight
To believe in a cure
In a reason, a purpose
To love and be loved
To serve
Nature’s plan strengthens my faith
To live, to work


Like Rain

You punched a hole in my chest
That only your presence can fill
You came down on me like rain
Suddenly my blue sky turned gray
You came down on me like rain
Drenched my soul, drowned my mind
Wetted my faith with sweet despair
Pouring throughout my body
You inspired my dreams and desires
I patiently wait for your soul to enfold me
To fill my heart with love, my soul with light
Enrich my mind with desire, set my body on fire
Once again


Met to say goodbye

We were always different
And we always knew
Still we tried
To hurt and cry
To say goodbye
Again and again
Until our lips were silent
Words could not hold
The grief and mistrust
Love wasn´t enough
We were forsaken by lust
We said no more
For we always knew
Love wasn´t for us
Still we tried anew
To say goodbye
Again and again
Regret and tears
Hold contempt
For loving
Is a mistake
We love to make


Ever Falling

I fell for his eyes
Soared his blue sky
Lost reason
Gained soul sight

I fell for his lips
Rejoiced in his kiss
Licked finger tips
Carried his skin
On my skin

I fell for his tenderness
Immersed in ecstasy
I lost inhibition
I found my pleasure
Pleasing him

I fell for beauty
Attempted to trap form
And was left holding nothing
But ashes alone

I feel for desire
Tasted sweet deception
Suffered lovers revenge
Drunk from lust
I drowned in bliss

I fell for fantasies
Found emptiness
Gained misery
Saw him fighting demons
Lost in sorrow
He said no to this

I fell for grief
Worshiped shadows
Sacrificed divinity
Swam alone
In a sea of lovers
In my mistake
He found me again

I fell for his mind
And completely lost mine
I fell for his strength
And found compassion
I fell for his weakness
And learned forgiveness
I fell for his conviction
And grew faithfulness
I fell for his heart
And broke mine to pieces
I fell for his soul
And gave him my own

I fell for goodbyes
To find he was growing inside
I fell in love over and over
With the same person
And for the rest of my life
I´ll continue to fall
For to fall is to know
My heart has a home
A man helping me grow
A heart inspiring my prose
A soul connected with mine
Sharing this life


Thursday, December 16, 2010

Dwelling in heaven's hell

Dwelling in heaven's hell
Soaring in soul
And grounded in body

Impassionate to fly
But bounded by gravity

Freed in love
And imprisoned in lust

Holding the facts
And searching for theories;

Conscious intuition
Of an unconscious sixth sense

-All breathing one Passion-
Free will-
Conveying healing pleasure
Poisonous rapture

For will without compassion can be illusive happiness
As selfless devotion can lead to self destruction

Truth lies in willful Compassion
In the heart of the noble Samaritan
-In Love shared freely
With no expectancy of reward
Or recognition

All know
Most ignore
Many accept
And few embrace and grow their essence-
Reaching potential
Achieving awareness
Becoming one
In love
In truth
In nature

And when darkness falls and their bodies retire
initiated souls unite in love
All hearts as one-
reaching and inciting sleeping hearts
Of awakened minds-
Who kneel in repentance
And pray to darkness

Conveying through Angels of love-
Heaven's Truth prevails
over hell's will


Dwelling in heaven's hell

Dwelling in heaven's hell
Soaring in soul
And grounded in body

Impassionate to fly
But bounded by gravity

Freed in love
And imprisoned in lust

Holding the facts
And searching for theories;

Conscious intuition
Of an unconscious sixth sense

-All breathing one Passion-
Free will-
Conveying healing pleasure
Poisonous rapture

For will without compassion can be illusive happiness
As selfless devotion can lead to self destruction

Truth lies in willful Compassion
In the heart of the noble Samaritan
-In Love shared freely
With no expectancy of reward
Or recognition

All know
Most ignore
Many accept
And few embrace and grow their essence-
Reaching potential
Achieving awareness
Becoming one
In love
In truth
In nature

And when darkness falls and their bodies retire
initiated souls unite in love
All hearts as one-
reaching and inciting sleeping hearts
Of awakened minds-
Who kneel in repentance
And pray to darkness

Conveying through Angels of love-
Heaven's Truth prevails
over hell's will


Friday, December 3, 2010

Divine Mentor

Love is a heavenly seed shared throughout nature
He's revolutionary!
And when accepted and cultivated by our heart
He can change our soul

He grows as one with our heart, mind and spirit
He gives our mind a virtuous heart
And our heart a righteous conscience

Love is selfless!
Contented to flourish and enlighten
He exists alone
Magnificent in quantity and strength

He owns no heart
And as it is your will to accept and cultivate him
So is your choice to flourish, impair
Or eliminate his growth

Love isn't personal greed, but universal peace!
His seeds and blossoms stretch infinitely
He conveys through tenderness affection and brotherly compassion
Emotions which shine bright in those who encourage him

Love is like a purifying volcano that never sleeps
He erupts a world of enchanting emotions in our soul
And utilizes them to illuminate our spirit
Renew our wounded heart

Love inspires!
He enables us to reach for our dreams and desires
His holy lava melts ego pride and stubborn dignity
And molds them into courage
Love embraces fruitless hearts and nurtures them into wholeness
He teaches virtue, faith, wisdom, purpose

Love is the divine mentor that compliment men's destiny


Saturday, November 20, 2010


Peace through Love
Passion through compassion-
Tend to the ones deprived of opportunities-

Many paths taken
And mistakes made
Though we don't always feel-
Love follows our soul always

And when we grow in faith-
Acknowledge and embrace-
Light overwhelms our heart
And Love becomes our consciousness

Universal Freedom
Unattached self
United-l share our interactions
With all who accept it

Simple and short
What makes you of your time here?

Share your heart with the world
And your love will forever coexist
Long after you've embarked

Positive energy Lives on,
As negative procreates
Lets ascend in harmony and rise in existence
Elevate our spirits to the highest power
And connect the equations

No Label-Just Be
Separates, Alienates, humiliates-
Arouses Hate and War Creates

Labels chases Love away

Act in sync with your wishes
And speak of wisdom experienced
Lock insights learned from others
And all recorded knowledge
Inside your theories locker

Glory feeds evil
Free your self-tormenting-ego
Share, but shield, pride and greed
For Love and Truth knows no evil

Thank you-
To the heavens Above
And the angels below
Thank you my creator
For Mother Earth

Hold onto your faith
For we need your embrace

Awakened Angels,


Wednesday, November 10, 2010


My love is selfless-
Pure Freedom-
Without logical reason

You have a beautiful heart
Don't allow a scarred logic limit your potential
Love with your heart
For to love with your mind
Is to retrospect your heart's past memories-
To feel your love's past-
Passion, pain and anger

The mind records and reproduces-
Images and feelings
But only the heart creates-
Passionate emotions

Skin will wrinkle
Objects will deteriorate
But the beauty of truth will forever prevail

Success isn't guided by will alone
One needs purpose; passion; truth
To bloom in full potential

Live now
Before and after
Are biased perceptions of the mind

Seek beauty in truth
And truth in life
For you are life
And you are truth

True beauty and true love
All lie in one
In you
For you
And all to savor and attain joy

Feed your desires truth
And your soul will flourish
And blossom in beauty

Just a thought…


Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Claim Me

My Lord Claim Me
I am yours to take
I cannot escape
I bow to you
With my hands and feet bound
I am ready
I was frightened, foolish
But I am here now, imprisoned in you
You've won me, now claim me
There are others, vultures
They surround me
Come claim me my Lord
I am yours
Take me home, I'll love you and serve you
Lay me down beside you if you only wish to invade me
Once or often I am yours to take
You have chosen me, I am bound to you
Come claim me my Lord
I am yours

House of Memories

I keep them locked in a house of memories
Loved and lonely, sad and satisfied
I feed them hope and a little love
I give enough to keep them comfortable
In my hearts prison

I rarely visit, I send messages
Words serve my affection
Together, unaware, in love, they endure
Always gentle, ever caring and accepting
In my hearts prison

They dreamingly await my return
I do ill to keep them
But I haven’t learned to let go
I hid the keys to their souls
In my hearts prison

Many windows and no doors
They wave at me from single balconies
All dressed in white, ready to make the sacrifice
Selfish, vain, I refrain from choosing
In my hearts prison

Deprived, anxious, lusting success
Ignoring the unchanging reality
One day I’ll grow, evolve and change
Move to a new plane and live with saints
Free from my hearts prison



No, I´m not ready
But I´m getting there
Solitude is my only friend
Always present
Through the good and the bad
Aloneness has followed me
One day I´ll be there
And you´ll be here
And we´ll meet in the heart of love
And I´ll be forever yours
Till then I wait alone
So many thoughts of you
Good thoughts, simple beauty
Blooming within my soul
So delicate are my desires
The wild ecstasy is dormant now
In distant dreams of our youth
Now my fantasies are richer
Something from out of heaven
My desires are gentle
To touch your face, to see you smile
To love you kindly, slowly
To taste your worry
Seize your stress
I don´t know where to start
In the beginning
When the pain was new
The agony simple, sweet
We were kids, running wild
Proud, shallow, irresponsible
Still I loved you wholehearted
I was there when you called
You were mine if I asked right
I cherish the times we danced
Kissed, touched, held hands
Walked together for a short while
I melted in your arms
Now the seasons have swallowed us
You´re in your own primavera
With your plans and your reasons
I´m in a world anew
Filled with hope and possibilities
Waiting to do, dreaming to build
A world for these children
To get them off the streets
Into a harbor of peace
And you are there
Giving of yourself everyday
Teaching, reading, learning
Shaping your life, writing your story
Giving of your soul for their welfare
I pray you´re healthy and happy everyday
That you´re loved and taken cared of
My young love, always in my thoughts
Forever in my heart, stirring in my spirit
For you I shed a tear
Of compassion, unconditional love
That´s what I hold for you
Your friend,

Sunday, October 24, 2010

Love Until It Hurts

The more I love the more I hurt
Pain and pleasure go hand in hand
The more I lose the more I gain
The more I want to give
I push it to the limit, gamble everything
Give more than I get
Take more than I am given
Sometimes all I do is wait
They push back, reach and resist
But you must go all the way
To feel it all, the bad, the good
The joy, the agony, the bliss
All must be accepted, taken in
You must feel with soul
Spread your wings, raise your sword
You must confront your emotions
Ruminate your feelings
Lose yourself to find the other
You must undress your mind
Empty all knowledge
Take off your blind fold
Go back on what you believe
Lose perspective to find purpose
Take love in as a meal
Savor it, allow it to nourish you
Feed it to your spirit
Love becomes a part of you
Your conscience, your heart
Let it flow through your limbs
Fill your veins, muscles and bones
Accept it, multiply it, share it
Make it infinite, soul food
Free your emotions
Let it out, let it go
Love until it hurts


Friday, October 22, 2010

Eternal Love

What I feel comes from a pure spring
Untouched by hate and hurt
Nothing can taint this love I feel
This passion that burns inside of me
Incinerating every fear, every fault
Nothing can put out the love I have for you
This passion that flows throughout me
The peace of knowing your beauty
The simplicity that is to touch you
The spirit of Venus connecting us
With ease and happiness are my thoughts of you
The completeness I feel when I see you
This love I hold for you will endure
I’ve lost and found you many times before
A feeling so strong it can wipe out towns
An emotion so powerful it can build worlds
Our own dimension made by us
By desires, fantasies, creative touch
A love unbound by distance and trails
A passion I feel through the stars and the moon
A love that breaks every law of this world
Surpassing the ego, the sickness
Healing the human condition
My love reaches beyond this atmosphere
A feeling I carry with me everywhere
Transpiring through my every word
They see us, they know us
In my eyes, in my heart
It’s clear why we struggle to see
This feeling is bigger than you and me
You gave it names, you gave it logic
But what I feel is unknown to reason
It is light, untamed, it is freedom
Purity, my soul’s richness
The divine love living in me
The sweetness in my words
The wisdom in my modest prose
Forever, from an unknown source
An eternity of faithful feeling
You’re the love I fight for
The man worth my heart and soul
Owner of my composing spirit
I love you beyond words
Past actions and errors
Soon I will bloom in full
Into the woman you dream of
God save my love
You are my past, present and future
The eternal love living in me


Amor Eterno

O que sinto vem de uma fonte tão pura
Intocável pelo ódio e a mágoa
Nada pode manchar esse amor que eu sinto
Essa paixão que queima dentro de mim
Incinerando todo medo, toda culpa
Nada pode apagar esse amor que habita en mim
Essa paixão que flui em todo meu ser
A paz de conhecer sua beleza
A simplicidade que é te tocar
O espírito de Vênus nos conectou
Com facilidade e felicidade são os meus pensamentos de você
A completude que sinto quando vejo você
Este amor que tenho por ti vai durar
Muitas vidas penao en busca de um amor assim
Eu ti perdi e ti encontrei inúmeras vezes
Um sentimento tão forte que pode destruir cidades
Uma emoção tão poderosa que pode construir mundos
Nossa própria dimensão feita por nós
Por desejos, fantasias, toque criativo
Um amor desvinculado pela distância e trilhas da vida
Uma paixão que eu sinto através das estrelas e da lua
Um amor que quebra todas as leis deste mundo
Superando o ego, a doença
A cura da condição humana
Meu amor vai além desta atmosfera
Um sentimento que eu carrego comigo em todos os lugares
Que transpira através de cada palavra minha
Eles nos vêem, eles conhecem-nos
Nos meus olhos, no meu coração, em minha poesia
É claro que nós lutamos para ver
Um sentimento maior que você e eu
Você deu nomes, que lhe deu a lógica
Mas o que eu sinto é desconhecida a razão
Sua luz, selvagem, é a liberdade
A pureza, a riqueza de minha alma
O amor divino que vive em mim
A doçura em minhas palavras
A sabedoria na minha modesta prosa
Para sempre, de uma fonte desconhecida
Um sentimento fiel a eternidade
Você é o amor que eu luto para manter
O homem que merece meu coração
Dono do meu espírito compositor
Eu te amo além das palavras
Em breve vou florescer em pleno
Na mulher que você sonha
Deus salve o meu amor
Você é o meu passado, presente e futuro
Meu amor eterno


Monday, October 11, 2010


There is something kind and beautiful
The aura of the Carioca people
Some are working slave jobs
Exploited by the upper class
Oppressed, earning unjust wages
Struggling to support their children
They work their fingers to the bone
Without recognition or reward
No benefits, no insurance, no promotion
Monday to Monday the poor are taken advantage
Still nothing stops them from smiling
Their spirits seem to be singing

It’s hard to explain what drives this city
What keeps them going, attempting to rise above it
Above their circumstances, corrupt government
Lack of opportunities, equality, freedom
Favored minorities rule the state
Status and class determines success
They seem so happy under sad circumstances
The parties are endless, every day is a celebration

The beautiful beaches, faces, bodies
Conceal the poverty
The wild forests, the Indians, the culture
The rich vegetation, the exotic animals
The statue of Christ embracing the city with open arms
The samba steps born in the feet of the people
The food, the music, the arts are for everybody
Misery fuels the running, nothing is taken for granted
Pleasure is casual, gold coins for the soul
Everybody dances, young and old, in sheer joy
Simple but nonetheless amazing cultural displays of art

The people are modest, shame on the elitist mind
Everybody hits on everybody, life is a big party
There are no rules, only guide lines to live by
To protect the people but never to injure the fun
Entertainment is imperative in a hot blooded town
Protected events, nobody pulls out guns

Organized crime takes place inside the Favelas
There’s an understanding
Between the law and the criminals
The bandits pay tax to the cops
For the freedom of trafficking drugs
The police sell weapons and intel to the villains
In the slums
Discretion is demanded from the community
Instead of toys and book bags
You’re likely to see teenagers carrying weapons
In the project streets
Gang members parade around with machine guns
This form of intimidation instills fear
And maintains the peace in the trafficking neighborhoods
But the fun never stops, gang lords throw parties every weekend
Filled with musicians, dancers, fireworks and beautiful people
Church members walk around handing out flyers to the addicts
Its another world, to live here you must understand and cope

Politicians manipulate the poor, take from their welfare
The justice system is as bad as the criminals, robbing everyone blind
You can get away with anything if you pay the toll of silence
We don’t know who the good guys are, so we trust nobody

So poor in a country rich with natural resources
I try to understand what motivates the underprivileged
These amazing human beings, hospitable, heart warming
Hard working, enduring prejudice, racism
Black skin, brown skin, yellow skin, white skin
All suffer equally
Everything seems harder to achieve in this city
Things Americans take for granted
Are oftentimes impossible for many
For some, a house, a car, a career, a vacation
Is only a distant dream
Here sacrifice is a major part of life
Flushing dreams down the toilet daily

The hard workers ride crowded buses
Struggle to fill their bellies
Minimum wage isn’t enough
To afford the basic needs of a society
But somehow millions of families make it every day
Here everything is a sacrifice
So the food tastes that much better
I feel so modest among the people
No one cares where you went to college
It’s about morals, virtues, substance
Who you are as a person
Here the streets never sleep
The people never rest
Always awake, always ready
To battle this war they call life
In Rio


My Enemy, Time

My enemy, time
Continues to oppress my life
We cannot rely on our wits
Our foolish ego plays tricks
Happiness is a fleeting experience
Our bodies enslave us
To break free from flesh desires
To know our soul, we must free the senses

A partner, as wonderful as they might be
Will not change who we are meant to be
To fill your heart with one love
To drink from one cup
To eat the same plate everyday
Not enough to sustain
A ritual bound to break us
A faulty contract, a martyr system

Reality is the only constant
Change is an illusion
You must be one with your spirit
To be a realized human being
Life’s tasks are never finished
Many will never ripen and cultivate nothing
Few build and many take
Be giving in moderation, selfish in moderation

Compassion is imperative to your minds wellness
Following your interests and neglecting society
Your duty to your brother, your lover
Will make you sick hearted
Good and evil are attracted opposites
Different but the same
Rational and emotional want each other
Impulsive and patient crave the other

Thirty-three will be my peak
Forty-two, your demise
Bear your soul to God
Fill your heart with friendship, forgiveness
Cherish your family, honor your parents
Fight with no one, think before you offend
These things I learned the hard way

True knowledge of self brings freedom
Of attachments to the world
Nothing is permanent
Happiness is a fading glimpse
Every deed reaps with time
Your evil words hurt your soul
But does not injure mine

Love transcends time and space
My heart extends beyond this planet
Death is a break between flesh and spirit
The in between mortal and eternal
Jealousy is stupidity hiding behind passion
My patience will serve me well
My dreams are attracted to me
While time, my only enemy, plots against me


Saturday, August 14, 2010

You are Music

Words pour out of my soul
To compliment the man in you
The sweet symphony playing
The sound of my spirit singing
Bach, Mozart, Beethoven
Your love in every piece of music
You take every form, every instrument
You’re the sweet piano, the dreamy flute
You’re the confident scream of the violin
Your face marks every concerto and serenade
You’re in every lyric, in every word and song note
In my favorite music, in my dearest artists
You resonate through my body
Awakening every pleasure possible
Tempting, inviting, your rhythm carries me
To warm nights beside you
Your taste, your skin, your eyes
Calling my body, telling my mind
You want but you wont
You wont but you want
This music keeps me here
The fantasies we conceived
Love unrealized, feelings tortured
To follow my desires and see you
To deceive the hand that feeds me
To ignore the love of my life
Clouding memory, makes my heart die
Without nourishment, you give nothing
Before we were alone together
Now I am alone, alone
You’re a simple being, content with knowing
Is this when I lose you forever?
This music, this horror, this reminiscence
I’ve mourned you countless times
It’s harder every time we say goodbye
This melody won’t let me sleep
Your presence in every thought I think
Your love in every gesture, at every glance
Your voice, your words, your reasons
Conflicting music, different genres dancing
Intervening spirits making new music
Clouding your memory, keeping you distant
I‘m silent in your heart, screaming in your soul
A reminder of true love, a symphony playing
Music for the spirit


Wednesday, August 11, 2010

Random Thoughts

It is your absence that inspires
My love in each farewell
Parting from you is giving birth to art
Every action is a poem
My feelings in every dirty deed
I blush at your beauty
Admire the laborer, the jewel in your heart
Compliment the success in the man
Your resolution, through my eyes
A face I love but cannot define
So I praise the man you became
And strive to be the woman in your future
All the adornment, the beautiful dresses
The fashion and diamonds won’t replace
Adventure is my consolation, helping me fight this battle
My cowardice, my heroism, hunting for love in a world of war
Adversity brings isolation, comforts the grief of your loss
I’m patient with your memory, never losing or forgetting
No pity should be felt for any life
Poverty doesn’t mean sorrow and wealth isn’t happiness
I don’t give advice, I write letters to myself
Does it truly matter how old I am when meeting death?
Some beings live dying for lifetimes
Six feet under is only the beginning
Respect every form of life, don’t contribute to your demise
Truth in nature never changes

In hot nights of warm seasons the wind brings miracles
Your ambition can earn you fame, praise, fortune
Angels will collaborate, spirits congregate to deliver wishes
Anger isn’t passion and passion isn’t reason
Rage and contempt get you nothing
A man dog would be the best , man’s best friend
Or maybe a mouse to steal me some cheese
Or an Ox to do as I say, carry the blame
And maybe a sheep to keep me warm and say nothing
A sweet deer or a plotting wolf, none fit you
Your apparition, an Angel
A ghost in my divine hallucination
Hunting spirit taunting me
Visions of your face in lips I kiss
The man the woman in me loves
The foolish boy, the stubborn spirit, the body I argue to touch
Converse with your soul, join your oratory
The gentlemen, the mannered man, the nobility, the architect
The musician I love to listen to
The sounds of nature through your fingers
Led Zepplin, The Doors, Queen on your guitar
The classic paintings I visit, Monet, Picasso, Renoir
The poets I love, Robert, Coleridge, Baudelaire
Aspiring faith to those awake, art, my everything

God isn’t hope, it isn’t prayer or religion
He is authority, power, royalty
A being to be praised, thanked, complimented
How dare you critic your maker’s actions
You must listen, read, pick up a book, choose a teacher
Grown babies, children in adult bodies
Delusional men and women
Dishonoring mothers, disrespectful children
A battle without morals is a lost thing
The eagle on your shoulder doesn’t make you brave
The falcon in your heart is springing war
You’re hunting in forbidden waters
Your hawk like eyes see my every mistake
Humming-bird, keeping me awake
A mocking-bird, a nightingale, a sound taking every form
An owl watching me sleep, hunting my dreams
The shallow summer calls me to you
Like a swan, I spread my feathers and float towards you

Love, my blessing, my god, my gratitude
I blush at the face of Venus, infatuated kisses
I sail in these waters, embark in lost ships
In dark rivers and lakes, with nameless books
Critic in a instructive way, polish my diamond
I care like a boy, indifferent in many ways
I couldn’t be a mother, I’m a single being
I thrive in the school of youth
Content through adverse times, merriment my talent earns
Chance and fate play together in my house
Fortune is a small token to fill my need for joy
I’m discontent when I’m not dreaming
Fate, Future, Fortune, Charity, Duty
My boy childhood, raised in good poverty
Without a mother a girl’s youth comes late
School doesn’t teach you to be great
I’ve been to so many churches, stayed away from the clergy
Ecclesiasticism kills my need for religion
The preaching clouds their judgment
Wonder if life was ever like this in Atlantis
I’ve dated London, Manhattan, Boston
I’ve seen Georgia, Florida, Washington
Slept in Rio, Buzios, Regiao dos Lagos
I want to lay with Italy, tour Rome
Ride around Paris, experience every country, each city

How many of you look for the moon in the day
And only acknowledge the rain when your clothes are drenched
The seasons, the stars, the talent that has come and gone
Marilyn, Morrison, Heath, Jordan
A woman’s pride and conceit, foolish vanities, may hide her need
Ornaments tells the conscience to be content
Buy your remorse, retribution for your sin’s to God
Find consolation in friendship, a piece of heaven
I resigned from solitude for my health’s wellness
But the sorrow of being surrounded is ruining me
The constant fidelity scares me, when will it break?
My inconsistency scares me the most
Virtues cannot feed a mouth
Contentment does not pay the bills
Happiness does not feed bellies, or does it?
The discontentment will end when I change
These are my conversations, my arguments with my Dad
In my oratory, praying for a silenced society

My coquetry has seduced many
Men, women, Americans and English man
Asian, Italian, Puerto Rican, Dominican
Jamaican, Nigerian, Indian, Colombian
Brazilian, Russian, German, African
My love is a symbol of courage
A universal emotion, pure, compassionate
In the adventurer, the student in me
The warrior, the lover, the hero, nature given
You take no shame in stealing my heart
Tempted, driven towards perfection, I reach for you
My satire won’t change your fashion
Your illness, your immortality in my world
The devil’s deceit, taking my love away from me
No sincerity without hypocrisy in matters of the heart
Mountains of regret and grief dragged through the streets
I sigh at the wives of men with immoral minds
No progress in thought, no time can restore lost virtues
To be a wife, in matrimony, would bring illness upon me
The pain, the melancholy, mourning my soul, mercy me

Random Thoughts


Friday, August 6, 2010

Forever Lost

My guardian angel
Spirit guiding the fallen
Your candles' flame burns low
For the world, for their souls
This life isn’t mine anymore
These houses, these people
The hating, the sickness
Get me out
Get me out of here

Why should I rejoice when they’re dying?
What am I still doing here?
Watching them sleep
Dead, used, abused beings
Handicapped men and women
Get me out
Get me out of here

It’s hard being alone
When you know where you belong
When a heart’s been broken
So many times over
The pieces come apart
Turn to dust
Parts of me forever lost

You get older
The game gets serious
More pleasure, more choices
You do what you want
Take what you can get
Please your mind, body
Attempt to mend your heart again
But time takes its toll, the organ numbs
Parts of you forever lost

Embrace their illness
Believe in your presence
Making their lives better
Enfold the pain, befriend the sorrow
Kiss the tears, love the disease
It feeds on your fears
Shed your needs, seek to please
Unmask the side you only show the mirror
Don’t close the door to your desires
Unveil the fantasies you crave to try
Be patient with the beloved
We are at war with life
Parts of us forever lost


Saturday, July 31, 2010

In a Dream

The stars that I discovered in your eyes
Will guide me to your heart
I’d do anything not to lose you like this
But the day comes and I let you go!

My heart floats without direction
Flying just to fly
Not knowing where to go
Dreaming of finding you!

In our island of forbidden pleasures
With the sound of the ocean
Living in wonder, in awe of your touch
Born to smell you, taste you, feel you!

Remember the kiss you gave me
It’s marked on my skin
The pleasure is greater than the shame
In desires, of lips, I never tasted so sweet!

When night comes I go crazy
To have you in my dreams
Reciting love secrets in my ear
I lose myself under my blanket!

Your eyes, your naked body
It’s an invitation to dance
In the rhythm of love
Taste it, feel it, fall in rapture!

Outside, in the darkness of night
Time will change our perception
You’ll grow to hate me or love me more
I hope you stay for the end of this story!

The rain will wash away the pain
When you decide you want love
My eyes, my naked body
It’s an invitation to dance!

In the rhythm of love
Taste it, feel it, fall in rapture!
Today I know,I loved you in the wind of a storm
But went further, beyond thunder

If I didn’t love you so much
Maybe I wouldn’t see flowers around my way
If I didn’t love you so much
Maybe I would lose my dreams inside me and live in darkness

The stars that I discovered in your eyes
Will guide me to your heart
I’d do anything not to lose you like this
But the day comes and I let you go


Thursday, July 29, 2010

Blissful Doom

Blissful Doom

I endeared cupid's magic from a cloud
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings


I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit

Saturday, July 24, 2010

The F Word

Frankly, you’re not Frank at all
Fragile, Frail, at Fault
Ferocious, Firm, Freaked
Futile, Futureless, you Flunked us
Fierce, Fruitful, I lifted us
My Fallible Friend, relationship
Flooding my heart with False hope
Folly to be Fond of Fairies
Flaming my soul with Fast words
Fondling my senses with vast knowledge
Frolicking with every part of my body
I Fell for a Fictional picture
Filled your ego with Flattery
Made believe a Flawless love
False hope, Faltered senses
In a Feud, Forced to Feel for me and you
Fevered body, Flaring mind
Frazzled by the Fray our lives became
Fey, Feeble, Fibbing to stay
Frightened to know your kind
Give me a Flash memory to Force delete your Failed memory
Maybe I’ll dip you in my heart like Fondue
And you can taste my Frustration
Freed from our Fantastic Farce
You are the thread and I’m the weaver of this Fable
Love is the Fabulous Façade of this story
Fabricating a happy ending
If I knew the fount of your love I’d live under it
You are my Fetish, Frantic animal
Fucking me without touching
Raw within me, Fulfilling my Fantasy
Fraternizing with my demons
Fornicating to Forsaken
Fallacious relationships
Fill their minds with Filth
Flirt with their pure hearts
Breaking Flowering spirits
Fulfilling your Fatal instinct
My dreams Fuzzy and Far
Fanatic, Famished for a Family
My Fancied reality Further from me
Your Fangs Finally sting
The Finale is here, relationship
You Failed me Fidelity
And Frank is a Fool
A Falcon without vision
A Fool in disguise, in wise man’s scriptures
Part of my past, Fount of my wisdom
Whole of my Future, But I’m Futuristic
Fate guides my relationships


Wednesday, July 21, 2010

A Song With No Name

How can I risk myself without giving ears
Your instinct always desires my well being
I see in the hours what is not seen
I get lost outside thinking
Forgive me, accept me in your world
Give me back all that was good
One day I’ll learn and change my way
But for now, I’ll love you

If the wind blows without direction
The stars can guide me
If I don’t have you here
When I dream I can find you
Time passes and with it goes the pain
All things pass, even love fades
Now I know, the sun always returns
And the darkness of night will clear announcing a new love

Liberty has always traveled with me
In the corners of everywhere I’ve been
But my place is with you
If I get lost I find myself in you
Doesn’t matter if I’m alone
There’s no way to forget you
Wondering the streets without destiny
One day I’ll learn and change my way

All that matters is what I bring in my poem
Your smile, a word, your voice in my heart
I see in the hours what is not seen
I get lost outside thinking
Time passes and with it goes the pain
All things pass, even love fades
Now I know, the sun always returns
And the darkness of night will clear announcing a new love


Saturday, July 17, 2010

What keeps Us

What brought us to this party
Naught love, naught lust
Curiosity, perhaps generosity and friendship of course
I’m not sure what it was but it keeps me alert
Divine interaction, within lies the answers
In our gut, the power to take over
I major in the language of your limbic
I study you, everyday I read you
The scent you release pollutes
Beautifies my surrounding, makes me mute
The sorrow you breed breaks me
My imagination, your spontaneity
What brought me here keeps me wishing
A spark in your eyes, telling the world to smile
Lusting, looking down my blouse...
It’s not perfection, it hasn’t direction
Yet it keeps us here, hoping for more
It’s what makes me overcome, grow
Believe in complementary souls
It is purpose, stronger than want, mightier than fear
This feeling keeps me here
Watching the clock, counting the minutes
Guiding together our spirits
Inciting my heart to embrace us
This hunger that eats us, feeds on our instincts
Teaching me to live, accept forgiveness
It is your heart , my mentor, the bully
Educating my thoughts, carrying me over
Filling my being with sweet emotion
Into a world that accepts us, makes us, supports us
Our world, where I hold your hand and you smile
Out beyond prejudice and social roles
Where you love my poetry because it’s us
Acting, reacting to these thoughts I’m dreaming
Making us, romancing in the fantasies I’m weaving
My heart flutters in your blue sky, my soul sighs
I daydream in your eyes, It’s what keeps me here
The dazzle, the smirk, the way you look before you touch
The man behind the gentleman
Your energy merges with mine and keeps me here
Chaste, locked away, in our special place
Where we don’t always show up for the party
Because we’re tired, we’ve stopped trying, forgotten
What brought me here keeps me coming back
Allows me to understand what’s keeping you
What brought us to this party
Over and over, what keeps us, to teach us
True love



Friday, July 16, 2010

This Love

This love is poisonous
Passion’s last breath
I plead for a cure
Love’s insatiable lust
Some beauties must be seen
They travel far to be looked at
And when they reach their destination
Adoration and appreciation
They lose sight of themselves
Begin to live for others
Wearing their colors
Sorrow is the interval between two happiness’s
Living the irony, to ignore those who adore us
And adoring those who ignore us
Loving those who hurt us
And hurting those who love us
The foolish human instinct
Not everything is a challenge
There is peace in happiness
No need for chaotic interaction
False excitement in erotic
A pleased man does not raise hands
Tongue taste curiosity
A tool within a tool
Using both me and you
In the land of my body you are king
Here you reign with your star smile
The radiance of pleiades stars in your eyes
Here you reign, here you shine
In our constellation of bodies



Thursday, July 15, 2010

I wish...

I could look in your soul tonight
Be dazzled by the brilliant shimmer in your eyes
Swim in your translucent ocean
Ride your wild blue waves
Fall trapped in your seductive current
Immerse in ecstasy!

I wonder who looks into your eyes tonight
Who you Charm
Who you dazzle
Who replaces my marrow
And swims in your cold crystal waters
Who rides your toxic waves
And drowns in your deadly current

I wish I could soar with you tonight
Rise high above the clouds
Let your keen vision lead me
Follow beside your graceful wings

Fly far to find a place just ours
Alight to rest on mount Everest
Make you a nest at its peak
Hunt for you and preen your feathers
Feed you love through my beak
Stay for days enfolded in your dear wings

I wonder who flies with you tonight
Who glides by you Or hides behind
Do you lead or do you follow, I wonder
Are they majestic and clever?
Do they fly with grace and confront the wind?
Could they keep up with me?
But crucially, where do they rest?
In our nest, I wonder

Do you fly there tonight?
Do they replace?
Who enfolds you now?
Whose doomed soul do I envy?


All or Nothing Measures Even

Dwelling in a glorious kingdom
Where sharing grants glory
And spreads happiness as riches
All or nothing measures even

Ever wealthy, showered in peace
Abundant Patience
To calm and heal, senseless impulses
Perception, rich with doubts and fear
Perspective, biased, limited vision
All or nothing measures even

Lead by Freedom
My guide, to light and mentor reason
Guardian Parent and strict teacher
Watching each step without interference
All or nothing measures even

Wisdom felt, lived
Witnessed experiences
Earned through sea trenches
Maliciously depicted
All or nothing measures even

Gazing at a diamond and seeing poverty
Stripped mountains
Mother earth unbalanced
Enslaved bodies through steep ditches
Calloused hands and broken spirits
Digging, crawling, draining
Making a living
Providing luxury in exchange for existence
All or nothing measures even

Suppressed screams
Endured torture
Nameless corpses
Misleading media
Distorted revelations
Worlds hidden
All or nothing measures even

Split Concepts
Unheard, Unread, Unspoken
Knowledge indescribably known
Now ,Passed, Shared and Given
Lethal Risks embraced as missions
Unasked Sacrifices offered by selfless souls
Unmasked faces fighting for the unknown
All or nothing measures even

Life, mundane to the fallen
A blessing torment to a seer
And a Garden Forever in bloom
When seen through haloed eyes
All or nothing measures even

Faith in Truth,
Feeling, seeing, learning steadfastly
Forsaken obsolete knowledge
Give life to imagination
Truth in nature Never changes
All or nothing measures even

Flying high and reaching freedom
Freefalling home with wisdom
The little things are everything
We say we want
We say we need
To Live forever in peace
Yet, some do not strive to achieve
All or nothing measures even

Sharing one's heart
Beloved Pleasure in this experience
Gather, pile all gifts received
And compare it to the mountain you've given
All or nothing measures even

Pain and Sorrow, leaders of existence
Hurt and Happiness, coexistent
Escape Traditions
All or Nothing measures even

Amanda Miranda

Wednesday, July 14, 2010


It is not given to every man to take a bath of multitude; enjoying a crowd is an art; and only he can relish a debauch of vitality at the expense of the human species, on whom, in his cradle, a fairy has bestowed the love of masks and masquerading, the hate of home, and the passion for roaming.

Multitude, solitude: identical terms, and interchangeable by the active and fertile poet. The man who is unable to people his solitude is equally unable to be alone in a bustling crowd.

The poet enjoys the incomparable privilege of being able to be himself of someone else, as he chooses. Like those wandering souls who go looking for a body, he enters as he likes into each man's personality. For him alone everything is vacant; and if certain places seem closed to him, it is only because in his eyes they are not worth visiting.

The solitary and thoughtful stroller finds a singular intoxication in this universal communion. The man who loves to lose himself in a crowd enjoys feverish delights that the egoist locked up in himself as in a box, and the slothful man like a mollusk in his shell, will be eternally deprived of. He adopts as his own all the occupations, all the joys and all the sorrows that chance offers.

What men call love is a very small, restricted, feeble thing compared with this ineffable orgy, this divine prostitution of the soul giving itself entire, all it poetry and all its charity, to the unexpected as it comes along, to the stranger as he passes.

It is a good thing sometimes to teach the fortunate of this world, if only to humble for an instant their foolish pride, that there are higher joys than theirs, finer and more uncircumscribed. The founders of colonies, shepherds of peoples, missionary priests exiled to the ends of the earth, doubtlessly know something of this mysterious drunkenness; and in the midst of the vast family created by their genius, they must often laugh at those who pity them because of their troubled fortunes and chaste lives.

Charles Baudelaire


Life made me frail and dying
Scarce divinely
Though I stumble
Love made my armor eternal

My shield reflects
Madness to hell

Can you see
Understand me
Temporal life
Honest and corrupted
Compassionate and selfish
Innocent and malicious
Certain death

Our love inhumane
Trapped minds shall never understand
"All is fair in love and war"
Foolish wisdom men bestows

And if Love is to live and die as kings
Then kill all before born
Undisclosed majestic potential
Beauty our flesh will never show

Happy to feel and understand
Honor and glory are not Divine
Sad to see and feel
The flesh's foolish desires
Destructive to our spiritual being

Surreal minds can feel with heart
But never with soul
This is not my home
I will never settle
My soul will forever stir heaven
Within flesh's infernal



The Poet

The Poet
He is a link between this and the coming world.
He is
A pure spring from which all thirsty souls may drink.

He is a tree watered by the River of Beauty, bearing
Fruit which the hungry heart craves;
He is a nightingale, soothing the depressed
Spirit with his beautiful melodies;
He is a white cloud appearing over the horizon,
Ascending and growing until it fills the face of the sky.
Then it falls on the flows in the field of Life,
Opening their petals to admit the light.
He is an angel, send by the goddess to
Preach the Deity's gospel;
He is a brilliant lamp, unconquered by darkness
And inextinguishable by the wind. It is filled with
Oil by Istar of Love, and lighted by Apollon of Music.

He is a solitary figure, robed in simplicity and
Kindness; He sits upon the lap of Nature to draw his
Inspiration, and stays up in the silence of the night,
Awaiting the descending of the spirit.

He is a sower who sows the seeds of his heart in the
Prairies of affection, and humanity reaps the
Harvest for her nourishment.

This is the poet -- whom the people ignore in this life,
And who is recognized only when he bids the earthly
World farewell and returns to his arbor in heaven.

This is the poet -- who asks naught of
Humanity but a smile.
This is the poet -- whose spirit ascends and
Fills the firmament with beautiful sayings;
Yet the people deny themselves his radiance.

Until when shall the people remain asleep?
Until when shall they continue to glorify those
Who attain greatness by moments of advantage?
How long shall they ignore those who enable
Them to see the beauty of their spirit,
Symbol of peace and love?
Until when shall human beings honor the dead
And forget the living, who spend their lives
Encircled in misery, and who consume themselves
Like burning candles to illuminate the way
For the ignorant and lead them into the path of light?

Poet, you are the life of this life, and you have
Triumphed over the ages of despite their severity.

Poet, you will one day rule the hearts, and
Therefore, your kingdom has no ending.

Poet, examine your crown of thorns; you will
Find concealed in it a budding wreath of laurel.

Gibran Khalil

Monday, July 12, 2010

A Muse's Blessing

Where rests my muse...
Erato, write this poem,
For Calliope and Polyhymnia, for Thalia and Clio.
The goddess of muses, telling your tales to lovers.
Describing the senselessness of the relentless mind,
Depicting the sorrow that preys on our hearts.
Drawing the pleasures that sins our skin,
Desiring happiness in an alter reality.
Euterpe, compose a song our hearts can sing,
Let your verses flow through me,
Make my spirit sing.
Terpsichore, write a dance for us,
Make it special, make it long.
Aphrodite, bless us with beauty,
With gentleness and compassion,
With the vision to see within us,
True beauty, God’s features.
Venus, bless us with true love,
Shower our souls with joy,
With peace and lovers rejoice.



Friday, July 9, 2010

Rise Above

This is not the average brain, Do I have your support?
Bear with me as I explore, How can I make it literal...
Maybe if this poem was eatable, I could feed my thoughts to you.
I can paint it but you got to see, I can show it but you must interpret.
So when you look and do not see don’t blame me for your inability.
Perhaps your lacking effort, don’t want to dream big cause you’re broken, battered.
Ineffably exhausted in your God given body, running from life, sustaining the ego with lies.
Abusing your substance, neglecting your intellect, you’ve stopped thinking for yourself.
Feeding your body trash, destroying your health for moments of wealth.
Pills will fix your illness and worsen your symptoms.
You must work hard for the cure, bear with the burden.
Search your body for your remedy, what you need is within.
In your soul, in your brain, the power to create.
The knowledge to construct, weave your dreams into reality.
Don’t accept insults, fight back with no words.
Their beliefs can make you sick, shape the world you live in.
Search your own path, be your sole truth.
What’s real changes with every thought you think,
So think me beautiful, so I can reach you.
When you imagine, I am with you.
Think me waiting in a field of white lilies, on my knees pleading, get me out of limbo.
So perfect from a far, I barely see your broken heart.
How painful does it get? Some days all I feel is rain.
Black clouds invade, moving the pretty ones away.
Wind gusts through me, quivering my being.
The branches on the trees sway gently,
Telling the roots to cling to the earth, prepare for the worst.
But then the leafs settle, the branches calm,
The trees hold hands, waiting for the rain to come.
Ready to get wet, to embrace nature’s blessing.
A light shower to quench the earth or a hurricane storm to mold it.
A slight breeze to cool the forest or a tornado to pull them from their roots.
Let it pour, dance for the lord.
Put your life in faith’s hand and free your essence.
And if you were delayed then connect now to the world you wish to live in.
Reach for what you want, don’t grab it, let it come.
Life is happening now, whether you live it or sleep through it.
To Live, experience, to allow feeling.
To stand together like the trees and endure, to believe in your roots, to plant you.
To grow stronger with each challenge, to be consistent and persistent as nature.
To fight the maker and live through anything, because you’re strong, because we can.
Solve your puzzle, in your own time, stay true to yourself and let them lie.
Just a thought,

Thursday, July 8, 2010

My Muse

High in altitude
I contemplate my solitude
From my window seat open air fills the view
In the midst of clouds I dance with you
Floating on air, there’s our silhouette!

I am praying for a miracle
Unreal would be to have you
If God grants me a wish I’ll use it to be near you
So sick of missing you
This is what you choose?
Everything but me and you
I respect you, so I leave you!

To me, you’re not new, you're lazy!
To feel, to forgive, to love
I know, It‘s hard, I am here too
I know your soul, look at me, let me touch our love
Embrace us, free me from this sentence

Can’t help but wonder if you’re happy
You block me out completely
But you live inside of me
I stand beside you, this is where I choose to be
I should believe, want to believe, you’re better off without me
But that's not how I feel, these dreams are real

Our essence tied, the world could never know
I feel it in my heart, stirring in my soul
A life, together, not mere moments
I can wait, our lives intertwined
You're mine!

You hold our tender moments, smile at my remarks
It‘s ok to love me, I feel your calling
God can fix anything, so I continue to pray for my everything
To grow old, enrich my soul with
To learn, arise from ashes, Live!

We’ve already won, It's just us
If not in this life then maybe on the next
So I hope to live forever
And If granted eternal life
I will spend it searching, loving, seeking
You’re the reason I fight, fly
Struggle to sow my talent into a prosperous life

As a poet I breath you, my love, inspiration, source
As a woman I accept you, understand and forgive you
As a spoiled child I pout, Need, desire, seek you

Why must I see us dancing on clouds If you are ever so far?
You’re here, I see us out there
Together, ever growing, ever near
From my view all is possible
So I look out and pray to God
Give me everything!



Wednesday, July 7, 2010

Am I wrong

Am I wrong to desire perfection
To search your body in every direction
To want you shivering mad
Desiring my every breath

Am I wrong to dream
To smell the scent of your skin
The taste of your lips
To feel the sway of hips
The pain in your grip

Am I wrong to dig
To seize your fears
Exasperate feelings
Breaking down to rebuild
To be the heroine in this story

Am I wrong to endure
When I’m in your eyes happiness is sure
Daring to dream, believing in feeling
Surpassing the reality we live in
Giving without resisting

Am I wrong to believe
You’ve tasted sweeter moments than these
Traveling far to feed the ego
To rule their hearts and be king
Each step is a mistake, our dream farther away

Am I wrong to wait
They want what you couldn’t take
Giving naught in return, not a heart, not a soul
Keeping it has been tough but being broken is worse

Am I wrong to pray
When I’m lost God shows me the way
There is no meant to be, just you turning around and meeting me
Hold on to faith, God guides us safe.

Am I wrong to understand
Pleasure and pain, intertwined polarities
To accept one and deny the other
Going where it feels better
You treat them like lepers, but you’re the one infected

Am I wrong to restrain
To never obey, to do it my way
Hurting their expectations
The life they drew for me
I’ve grown out of it
Drinking, to kill the man you portray
Cheating, to lose everything
Be the bigger man

Am I wrong to leave
To wish you farewell
That’s all that’s left now
No hand to hold, no heart, no soul
You foolishly love
So I leave you alone
Am I wrong



Sunday, July 4, 2010

Running After You

Running After You

The ones who knew you
Wept more than they laughed
They worried and never relaxed
I hated your power
I swore never to walk your tight rope

I ran away from you
I ran towards amorality and shallowness
I feared your fierce passion
So I choose a seasonless world

I ran into a world of cowards and passionless desires
A world in denial, replete with lies
Where everything isn't enough
And cravings are never contained

There the wells are filled with thirst
And the crops harvest hunger
The oceans are deserts overflowing with quicksand

A world filled with treats that never satisfy
Like a tasteless fruit that is always in season
A world of shadows and night crawlers
where abuse and over indulgence are glorified

Like a deep sleep
Filled with nightmares and passionless dreams
I expected lies and welcomed deceit
An endless marathon, a race against truth
A destructive lifestyle and a sad eternity

I don't remember when but you caught up with me
You couldn't stop me from running
So you shined your light on me
Your holy light quenched my thirst
And satiated my hunger
And for that instant I felt full
Full Of laughter
Full of warmth,
Full of meaning
Full of purpose
Full of You

And that's when I stopped running from you
And began to run after you, LOVE

Saturday, July 3, 2010

Embargoed Embarking


In a crisp fall night the sun brought back summer
His spotlight, a halo around us
You were a dragon, in famine, cold, frozen

Your lungs cracked as your skin melted
A fog of smoke surrounded us
As my radiance melted your iceberg
That night, you set out to find a spark
A little light to start your lungs
Dissolve your frozen tongue

Before the desperate hunt could begin
The fool you didn't want
The one you never hoped to find
In the agonizing night
Found you


A flaming spirit with qualities of an eternal
Her eyes sparkled innocence and she smiled luminous peace
Like the eyes of a child, she filled the air with vigor
Perfectly contoured, you knew she was not for your touch
So dear and clear, so pure and true, truth, too bright for you

Her eyes gave birth to a new universe
One of compassionate beauty,
Fathered by love and peace
A place of kindness, no room for men's greed for diamonds
A new world, God's private space
She made galaxies proudly orbit around you
Mistake, God, not meant to be seen by dead tides

You shone dim that night, hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
You suppressed wild currents and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then I saw, my eyes freed your currents

The lure of your blue, above all seas, fantasy waves drowned me
Dark and deep, gray stones surrounded your beach
I saw you but I didn't see
Bold and conceited, too assured to fear the weak

I made a request I knew you wouldn't refuse
More of your sound, more time, mere minutes
I took you, to have by, I took you
Took you home


You believed a woman's fire could kill
And refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You wrapped your hands around my waste
Swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise
Each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync
Together we formed the perfect symphony

In your embrace I was a harp
And you made me sound divine
Sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument
The passion, the devils divine perfection
Together, we created the sweetest sound
You span me round and round
Enfolded in your cold wings I was your dragon's heart
A doll, so light, so perfect


You took heat from their flesh
Just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence
And made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your blue sky
I gave you my light!

Darkness followed me home that night
It knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling


Dumb doll
Uncontrollable claws of fire
Tearing through her flesh
Dragon frost kept me alive
Turned off the light in me
Freezing insides
Your touch, hotter than the moon's spot light
Sun dove in
Kisses, tight but slowly
Tongues licked off my innocent
Yours gave it back
The holy sensation of evil
You brought it back
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me

Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
Flaming stones of ice
Bright, burning black frost
The laughs
The faces we ripped
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks-


I am not Immortal
But I am human enough to be unforgettable
Try, understand the waves of despair
My eyes generate through your mind
Believe in the spark of my touch
Igniting all that is rotten in your body

I stayed for the flames
For the fire you insist on putting out
All is possible when we touch
I am sure if we tried it in open air
We would float
Unusual, uncontrollable
Apologies are familiar
You feel it but you can't distinguish
I am your creation, a particle of your imagination
Made by magical fairies you hold at your command
I would mutate to survive in your world
With You is the only place I would escape to
Give up my celebrated solitude and grow horns with you
I remember what you stole from me that night
More than a kiss -a soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- you made your own
keep the peace you stole from me
So that I'll always feel your misery


In a feud
It's been years
Since we've been running towards
And fighting against this demon
We can't understand it
So we give it to others
We can't control our passion
so we refuse it, refute it, prostitute it
We can't talk, so we kiss
We can't kiss, so we quietly leave
Silence seems to be our ally
And Love our Trojan horse
You fear it as if it were leper
And I embrace it as if it were my cross and I, Jesus

Months of silence
And minutes of total alliance
Without any pretense that we parted
Making plans to feel each other
In our world of make believe
In text all is possible between you and me
We simply do not acknowledge the grief
We are silly kids
Proud and empty
Wasting gifts we cannot replace
Exasperating feelings
Playing down the inevitable

Love has a pull on you and me
We feel
But only one sees
We want to touch
But our strings won't let us reach.


It’s not what you told me

It’s not what you told me
It’s what I told myself
I’m the only one who sees
They stand against you and me
What is it that enchants me
Transcends me
Eludes my limbic
Defeats reason
I want what I envision
What is it that I do not see
A beauty that could blind me
With you is where I’ll be
I’m reaching, you’re smiling
Standing still or hiding
Pull me up or let me go
To free fall in love
To live
To grow
It’s not what you asked
It’s what I’ve given
Untamed passion
Romantic expression
Unveiled purpose
Helpless, held
I can’t see myself
Forgotten behind bars
What a waste of heart
It’s not what you told me
It’s what I dreamed
That hunts my spirit
Memories float through my mind
From morning to night
I need you right now
For better or worse
To forgive and forget
Embrace your sickness
Be your everything
Who I thought you’d be
What you couldn’t believe
Who you ‘re not makes me
Completes me
If not forever than for a moment
I remember what you told me
But it’s what I told myself that hurts me



Tuesday, June 29, 2010

The Rain Comes

The rain comes
Sometimes death reaps at home
I stroll through the disaster
Squint my eyes to see lesser
Think aloud to top their voices
Describing the horror
Taunted by lives taken
Hunted by tragedy before it happens
I remember the bodies
Laying by the side of the road
Stored in my memory
Crime scene photos
And even after
The misery lingers
Thickens the air
Pity poisons my every breath
Pain corrodes my stomach
I remember not eating
Barely sleeping
Waking and wishing
I dreamed all the evil
That my friends were alive
All well, no catastrophe
But disaster happens
In me and around me
Polluting the ocean and killing wildlife
Tearing down homes
No rooms, no walls
No balls
All taken away in moments
Nature’s fury
Man’s only security
Hate placed in shots fired
Lingers long after
Revenge is pain
Accept what’s happening
The rain comes
Tears down your foundation
Takes your home
Kills your relatives
And you keep moving
Clear of the bastards shooting
In a storm but attempting to stay dry
Because you want the rain to come
Because you need life
You continue to fight for you
As they stack bodies
You remain while they cave
Tsunami waves and earth wakes
Makes us question our authority
Humans think they control
God’s laughing
Asking only that you are faithful
When building your temples
Before the rain comes



Monday, June 28, 2010

When We Two Parted

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well: -
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met -
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee? -
With silence and tears.

Lord Byron

Sunday, June 20, 2010

Far from Future

So far but right in front of me
Is it ill that for anguish unfelt I choose distance
For future pandemonium I retreat
Not wanting to touch
Not wanting to feel
You see, I met a lady named love
She showed me a world of miracles
A place we unite
Same energy, same body
For me, always a challenge
I read emotion
What you feel and what you don’t
If you could borrow my eyes you would understand
What I see and don’t know
If I might speak for your heart to hear
Could I touch your body
Allow you to feel me
Decipher my being
For the trouble one would not
Take more than one can give
To consume what you cannot bear
I won’t die a liar
I tell myself the truth
Don’t be a fool
For love unrequited is a dwelling tragedy
I desire naught
Take my time
Play in nature
And when they are done taking I need recharging
A refreshing of the spirit
Aware of what I want
In tune with what I feel
Conscious that I wish you here



Inspired by F.S.Jr.

Wednesday, June 16, 2010

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

You are beyond a love within-
An extension of my soul
Your beauty exults my heart
Feeds me purpose
You spread joy throughout my body
And glistens through my pores

Our past consumes our love
Stirs up hate in our blood
Fear feeds on old wounds
And inflicts on the new

But my wounds no longer hurt
And where they lay I cannot see
For your love overwhelms
Heals all that is impure
Erases past misfortunes
And fills my vacant holes

Fallen Angel

In screaming silence
Behind your blinding beauty
A dimming spirit drowns
I see beyond your vacant stare
Your soul exclaims grief
And calls upon me

When lightning strikes your heart
And awakens your sorrow
Put on your wings and fight your demons
Raise your sword
And my love will strengthen your might
Confront the wind
And my light will guide you through the storm

With an open heart and a beaming smile
I'll be waiting in our cloud
We'll dance around in silence
And let our hearts speak in thought

I'll embrace you in my wings
And the warmth in my smile
Will silently reassure you-
I understand your sorrow

Fallen Angel

Drink from my faith
And quench your purpose
Feast on my love
And satiate your spirit

Come to me
When you're sad
Lonely and even mad
I'll hug you tight and kiss your eye
Tickle your frown upside down

I'll impersonate your favorite comic
Deviate you from your worries
I'll reenact our favorite nights
And add a little spice

I'll take you in
When you're cold
Battered and hopeless
I'll alleviate your burden
Embrace your loss as my misfortune

I'll wash your pain with my tears
Absorb all your stress and fear

And if you don't want to talk
We can take a silent walk
I'll embrace your broken heart
Without ever asking cause

Fallen Angel

Your eyes of reason
Showed me essential horrors
Our Love
Gave life to my art
Dimmed my blinding halo

Revealed a depriving consciousness
Ignited poetic passion
Harmonized my righteous seclusion
Showed me darkness illusion
Heightened my sympathy--
A cruel world in disbelief
Sharpened my logic--
Suppress resistance- free impulses
Sculpted my poet's soul
United pain and love

Fallen Angel

Our splendor thrives
The proof is in our eyes

My passion and peace
Your devotion and loyalty
My eloquence, your reason
Still Intrigues us

Humorous chemistry
Infatuation everlasting
Unleashed passion
Freeing ecstasy
Divine release!

Our beauty combined is our antidote
It heals our sorrow and frees our soul
United, my Love and your honor
Is our golden ticket to Heaven


Saturday, June 12, 2010

Moving Slow

We move slow
And we think everything is far
Separated by time and space
Parted by light
Illusive distance
Get over here, stop wasting
Some people are so basic
They need to upgrade the cable in their heads
The universe conspired to join us
If you’re “Madly in love” than you’re probably MAD!
Doing, saying, writing, the same thing
Expecting a different result, insane
These are our daily missions
You win some and you lose some
Move on, on to the next one
There is nothing else on my mind
Once you enter
Maybe it’s unfair
To want you so badly
To love madly
Lose all clarity
We are not truly happy
Until we embrace the present
Give thanks for all we have
And attempt to give as much back as we are given
But we move very slow
And we think everything is far
I march at my own pace
Going fast or slow
Depending on how far
How much you’ve given
Can you match me
Raise me
Share your everything
That’s my offer
But you move very slowly
And think everything is far
Until it hits you and you wake up



Buy You

I sense you around
You are here
Laying beside me
Your smell , our chemistry
No regrets, I get it now
I longed to touch
Now I love without desire
I hear your voice, painfully clear
Your shadow follows me everywhere
You are skeptical, It ‘s ok
My love is unconditional
That’s the beauty of it
If I own it- it’s a property
This is a gift, you’re my blessing
Chance is “hopeless” against love’s will
Brave hearts are bound to find each other
In a sea of devotion and loyalty
Where love is the star- there are no limits
Throughout every dimension
My love sees all
Another day goes by
Night Falls upon us
I express our love
My heart finds you and we dream
I kiss you and you fall asleep
Awake in my fantasies
Creating, preparing
When I step into the light it will be blinding
You will be beside me
When I read our letters
For the beauty appreciated in our union
What I planted will bloom
Eternal love for me and you



Tuesday, June 8, 2010

To love you

To Love you
To know how to speak from the heart
Express my point of view
My side of the story
To listen to your heart
To know what you want through the gesture in your eyes
To love you
A duty, a gift, a blessing
To have you, please you, give to you
To know the language your body speaks
To love you
A reason to write, to want, dream, desire
To love you
To know your soul, to feel your spirit
To understand your virtues, accept your principles
Share your ideals, to be one in love
To belong
To love you is to need you
To know you
To let go and understand we’re just passing
Like clouds in the sky we float round
Going where the wind takes us
To love you is to know there is no certainty in love
It’s to care for you with all the love in my heart
To hear you, forgive you
Be with you, to keep you
To love you



Monday, May 31, 2010


Echoes of past dialogue
Shadowed by a past lover
Your presence continues to follow my emotions
Memories of the past won’t let me enjoy the present
How can it be any different

I get what I want but It’s never enough
So I chase you around through my life’s playground
And you seem to be calm but inside you are raging
Bottled emotions, unsatisfied lust
Unfulfilled fantasies stuck in traffic

You had me, don’t need me
long to deceive me
So the past becomes the present
And the present the past
Even in my shower you hunt me\
Pouring throughout me

And why kiss lips if not the most perfect
And why hold hands if not the warmest
Why go through life without letting you know
Our past consumes our love
I need not be near to understand
I get what you don’t want me to know

And when they hold me I feel your grip
Where they loved me I’ve only been once or twice
Don’t really care for attention if not that of your eyes

So If you don’t care than I’m not flaunting
No need for a spotlight if you’re not looking
Can our love make it through
The affairs, the abuse
Then let the dreams we conceived breath
You’re killing me
In dreams of the past in present disguise

I reach for your hands
Cling to your smile
And wish for a present with you in my sight



Friday, May 28, 2010

Blissful Doom

I endeared cupid's magic from a cloud
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings


I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit

Every Part of You

Just as the everlasting attraction
between the sun and the moon-
You play with my oceans tide
Your desire for me raises and falls
You want me now then you dont want me at all

A part of you stretches out to pull me near
and another tries its hardest to forget
A part of you has given me love
and another does not know me
A part of you sees me as a fleeting ship
disappearing into the mist
While another holds on to my anchor and embraces our love

My heart is lost waiting for these parts of you
How can I appear distant and blurry-
when I am anchored to your heart
In the midst of your yes's and your no's
I hang on and insist in the seconds
that you want me for an instant
in those moments- you are my God and my religion
My all
heart and soul
God's sacred feast-
what i live for

Who knows when
someday, somehow,
one kiss, one moment-
might awaken a desire
and the part of this love that is missing

l want you so

Every part of you



You're Always With Me

You're Always With Me

You bring light to my day and awaken my horizons

As the sun's warmth enters through my window and kisses my cheeks
I picture your sweet lips caressing me

I see you throughout my day
And in all of the places we've laid
Your shadow still remains

I see you when I shower,
There you are the water pouring down my body

You're with me when I am driving,
Sitting beside me, holding my hand and smiling

You're with me as darkness falls
We lay back and count stars

You're with me in my dreams
There you are mine and I can do to you as I wish

But then the sun rises again
Lighting my day and caressing my cheeks
Awakening me to another day with only your memories


Tuesday, May 25, 2010

Loving On The Run

Loving on the run

It was long ago but I remember
I had love, a heart to call my own
There were fights, struggles
But at the end of the day, in his embrace there was peace
with the knowledge that someone out there believed in me blindly
No matter how insecure I become I knew I could count on my beloved to save me,
strengthen me, comfort me, defend, protect me
Somewhere down the road I decided to give that up
No more safety blanket, no more secure heart
I lean on me, break my own fall
I get my loving on the run, when I get some
I want to grow in heart, my ability to care, love, understand
Support the ones I love without expectations
I want a clear vision
I’ve loved the wrong people and the wrong people have loved me
My reason for allowing a commitment were insufficient
And my obsession with getting them to love me has brought me much pain and suffering
I’ve hurt and confused, as much as I been hurt and confused
From now on, I want to live without strings
To give, to love, without labels
To selflessly care for those who need me
To be a strong link, able to love and care for those in need of blind compassion
Without the need of ego gratification
with the simple desire to be a part of something bigger than me
I don’t want to live alone
Love alone , conquer fears alone
Attain my desires alone
I want to live and share my heart with everyone
My body is a tool I’ll use to accomplish my soul’s desires
A healthy heart will allow me to walk the path to my dreams
A fit body will carry my heart through the paths that my mind chooses
So I must keep a healthy mind, clear of negative thoughts for a bright future
For darkness brings not light but blindness
The things I want are in the future
They are new and made of something I never had
Therefore I cannot expect to attain these things If I insist on bringing dreams of the past with me
For the dreams of the past have already been carried out, If not by you then by others
We cannot carry the past into the future, change or recreate it as it once was
I must create new dreams and realize them
I do not carry my mistakes into my future , I carry an understanding of the result of my past actions
I allow myself to change direction, To grow in new ways, To desire new things, new shapes
I allow myself to want more and need less, To care and be cared for, To love and expect nothing in return
I want a clearer vision of the world, An honest view of my heart and my part in life
Real feelings without superficial reason, Passion without ulterior motives
I want to feel everything with love, with the understanding that I am in control of my feelings,
my heart, my emotions
I do not need to recreate happy moments
I want to experience happy actions and reactions
I want to learn the art of feeling good
The art of making life good
I don’t want to feel as good as before but better
For it can be limiting to wish a past condition or a new version of it
Just a thought

While I Wait

While I wait

I wonder, how you heal
How does your heart feel
Are you at ease with your logic’s decision
Can you sense my affliction
I wonder if you get impatient
For my days are shadowed with doubt
My heart is heavy, my breath is weak
I am out in the light but my skin is cold as ice
Sunlight does not penetrate my eyes
I’ve come a long way to be near you
Now I am close in body and far in thought
Far from your heart’s desire
You do not write or call
Leaving it up to chance if we should meet again
I don’t understand a love so passive
You see, for me the urge is constant
I see your face when I awake
Desire your touch throughout the day
I want to look into your eyes and feel your heart’s warmth
I need to wrap my arms around you and feel you close
It’s the only way I know




If love is the desire to share your best
experience the best of everything with the one you want
Then I love
There is no logic in our union
There is no sense in love
Accepting or rejecting doesn’t change reality
Denying love doesn’t stop its growth
Ego illusions may elude the senses
Make believe an ideal love
But love isn’t conceived of reason
It’s a reaction of souls
Awareness shows us what is, what isn’t and what can be
Give up the struggle, let nature take its course
Resistance impairs growth
Accept the love given to you
Respect every compassionate gesture
Don’t deny those who love you
They are there for a reason
You need their love as much as they need to give it
Compassion fuels the souls journey
For when we seek love and understanding we find awareness
Caring for others is caring for yourself
Acceptance is living
Pride impairs reason
Awareness knows no ego
Detached from self we are infinite
Experiencing life in synch with reality
Conscious of a interdependent existence



Each Day

Each day...
I dive into a sea of remembrance
Bittersweet memories awakens my body
Fantasy waves revive me
The desire to have you, my ecstasy reality
Pain, love, tenderness, touch…
Reliving our experience is electrifying
My heart floats away from me, my soul laughs and giggles
Divine energy fills my veins…righteous ideas…
Oh, Fairy tales of love

Each day…
To look into your eyes, pure fantasy
Oh, the desire you stir within me
Your body… mine, touch filled with curiosity
I get lost in this dream of you, play make believe with you
Oh the light inside you, the good I see within you
My heart plays, laughs with you...And I dream

Each day...
This feeling moves me
Transforms me, builds me--continues to fool me
I see you not with eyes but my soul’s vision
And now--knowing you--knowing the joy
Of another heart lighting up mine
It's a feeling I want in my life
I want you in my life
However, whenever, wherever
I want you in my life
Each day



Know that everything you do has purpose
There is a reason why you're doing what you're doing
You decide your path and life uses you along the way
Until you get to where you want to be and succeed
Stay the path, don’t follow off, love yourself , your choices
On your way there, stop and breath
Appreciate the going and the going gets easy
For where I am headed all I need is my heart
"So I’m there writing this, and getting caught in my "choices"
I do my best, for me that’s enough
I don’t judge, I don’t mean harm nor wished it be done
The basics, remember?
You must love the music
You must want life
You have to want to hear it
That’s the way to God - “Speech”
Have a voice and God will help you
Have a say and God will protect you
Don’t let them tell you how to live your life
Love yourself, take care of you and you’ll take care of everything
The universe will work with your thoughts and deliver your present
We’re connected, through God, to God
Lets get on the same path, success!
Do our best together, team Earth
Do it for your future, for your kid’s future
Be compassionate, share understannding
Grow, ascend, care for each other
We're all on the same path, "Life"!