Random Thoughts

It is your absence that inspires
My love in each farewell
Parting from you is giving birth to art
Every action is a poem
My feelings in every dirty deed
I blush at your beauty
Admire the laborer, the jewel in your heart
Compliment the success in the man
Your resolution, through my eyes
A face I love but cannot define
So I praise the man you became
And strive to be the woman in your future
All the adornment, the beautiful dresses
The fashion and diamonds won’t replace
Adventure is my consolation, helping me fight this battle
My cowardice, my heroism, hunting for love in a world of war
Adversity brings isolation, comforts the grief of your loss
I’m patient with your memory, never losing or forgetting
No pity should be felt for any life
Poverty doesn’t mean sorrow and wealth isn’t happiness
I don’t give advice, I write letters to myself
Does it truly matter how old I am when meeting death?
Some beings live dying for lifetimes
Six feet under is only the beginning
Respect every form of life, don’t contribute to your demise
Truth in nature never changes

In hot nights of warm seasons the wind brings miracles
Your ambition can earn you fame, praise, fortune
Angels will collaborate, spirits congregate to deliver wishes
Anger isn’t passion and passion isn’t reason
Rage and contempt get you nothing
A man dog would be the best , man’s best friend
Or maybe a mouse to steal me some cheese
Or an Ox to do as I say, carry the blame
And maybe a sheep to keep me warm and say nothing
A sweet deer or a plotting wolf, none fit you
Your apparition, an Angel
A ghost in my divine hallucination
Hunting spirit taunting me
Visions of your face in lips I kiss
The man the woman in me loves
The foolish boy, the stubborn spirit, the body I argue to touch
Converse with your soul, join your oratory
The gentlemen, the mannered man, the nobility, the architect
The musician I love to listen to
The sounds of nature through your fingers
Led Zepplin, The Doors, Queen on your guitar
The classic paintings I visit, Monet, Picasso, Renoir
The poets I love, Robert, Coleridge, Baudelaire
Aspiring faith to those awake, art, my everything

God isn’t hope, it isn’t prayer or religion
He is authority, power, royalty
A being to be praised, thanked, complimented
How dare you critic your maker’s actions
You must listen, read, pick up a book, choose a teacher
Grown babies, children in adult bodies
Delusional men and women
Dishonoring mothers, disrespectful children
A battle without morals is a lost thing
The eagle on your shoulder doesn’t make you brave
The falcon in your heart is springing war
You’re hunting in forbidden waters
Your hawk like eyes see my every mistake
Humming-bird, keeping me awake
A mocking-bird, a nightingale, a sound taking every form
An owl watching me sleep, hunting my dreams
The shallow summer calls me to you
Like a swan, I spread my feathers and float towards you

Love, my blessing, my god, my gratitude
I blush at the face of Venus, infatuated kisses
I sail in these waters, embark in lost ships
In dark rivers and lakes, with nameless books
Critic in a instructive way, polish my diamond
I care like a boy, indifferent in many ways
I couldn’t be a mother, I’m a single being
I thrive in the school of youth
Content through adverse times, merriment my talent earns
Chance and fate play together in my house
Fortune is a small token to fill my need for joy
I’m discontent when I’m not dreaming
Fate, Future, Fortune, Charity, Duty
My boy childhood, raised in good poverty
Without a mother a girl’s youth comes late
School doesn’t teach you to be great
I’ve been to so many churches, stayed away from the clergy
Ecclesiasticism kills my need for religion
The preaching clouds their judgment
Wonder if life was ever like this in Atlantis
I’ve dated London, Manhattan, Boston
I’ve seen Georgia, Florida, Washington
Slept in Rio, Buzios, Regiao dos Lagos
I want to lay with Italy, tour Rome
Ride around Paris, experience every country, each city


How many of you look for the moon in the day
And only acknowledge the rain when your clothes are drenched
The seasons, the stars, the talent that has come and gone
Marilyn, Morrison, Heath, Jordan
A woman’s pride and conceit, foolish vanities, may hide her need
Ornaments tells the conscience to be content
Buy your remorse, retribution for your sin’s to God
Find consolation in friendship, a piece of heaven
I resigned from solitude for my health’s wellness
But the sorrow of being surrounded is ruining me
The constant fidelity scares me, when will it break?
My inconsistency scares me the most
Virtues cannot feed a mouth
Contentment does not pay the bills
Happiness does not feed bellies, or does it?
The discontentment will end when I change
These are my conversations, my arguments with my Dad
In my oratory, praying for a silenced society

My coquetry has seduced many
Men, women, Americans and English man
Asian, Italian, Puerto Rican, Dominican
Jamaican, Nigerian, Indian, Colombian
Brazilian, Russian, German, African
My love is a symbol of courage
A universal emotion, pure, compassionate
In the adventurer, the student in me
The warrior, the lover, the hero, nature given
You take no shame in stealing my heart
Tempted, driven towards perfection, I reach for you
My satire won’t change your fashion
Your illness, your immortality in my world
The devil’s deceit, taking my love away from me
No sincerity without hypocrisy in matters of the heart
Mountains of regret and grief dragged through the streets
I sigh at the wives of men with immoral minds
No progress in thought, no time can restore lost virtues
To be a wife, in matrimony, would bring illness upon me
The pain, the melancholy, mourning my soul, mercy me

Random Thoughts

A.M

Forever Lost

My guardian angel
Spirit guiding the fallen
Your candles' flame burns low
For the world, for their souls
This life isn’t mine anymore
These houses, these people
The hating, the sickness
Get me out
Get me out of here

Why should I rejoice when they’re dying?
What am I still doing here?
Watching them sleep
Dead, used, abused beings
Handicapped men and women
Get me out
Get me out of here

It’s hard being alone
When you know where you belong
When a heart’s been broken
So many times over
The pieces come apart
Turn to dust
Parts of me forever lost

You get older
The game gets serious
More pleasure, more choices
You do what you want
Take what you can get
Please your mind, body
Attempt to mend your heart again
But time takes its toll, the organ numbs
Parts of you forever lost

Embrace their illness
Believe in your presence
Making their lives better
Enfold the pain, befriend the sorrow
Kiss the tears, love the disease
It feeds on your fears
Shed your needs, seek to please
Unmask the side you only show the mirror
Don’t close the door to your desires
Unveil the fantasies you crave to try
Be patient with the beloved
We are at war with life
Parts of us forever lost

A.M

In a Dream

The stars that I discovered in your eyes
Will guide me to your heart
I’d do anything not to lose you like this
But the day comes and I let you go!

My heart floats without direction
Flying just to fly
Not knowing where to go
Dreaming of finding you!

In our island of forbidden pleasures
With the sound of the ocean
Living in wonder, in awe of your touch
Born to smell you, taste you, feel you!

Remember the kiss you gave me
It’s marked on my skin
The pleasure is greater than the shame
In desires, of lips, I never tasted so sweet!

When night comes I go crazy
To have you in my dreams
Reciting love secrets in my ear
I lose myself under my blanket!

Your eyes, your naked body
It’s an invitation to dance
In the rhythm of love
Taste it, feel it, fall in rapture!

Outside, in the darkness of night
Time will change our perception
You’ll grow to hate me or love me more
I hope you stay for the end of this story!

The rain will wash away the pain
When you decide you want love
My eyes, my naked body
It’s an invitation to dance!

In the rhythm of love
Taste it, feel it, fall in rapture!
Today I know,I loved you in the wind of a storm
But went further, beyond thunder

If I didn’t love you so much
Maybe I wouldn’t see flowers around my way
If I didn’t love you so much
Maybe I would lose my dreams inside me and live in darkness

The stars that I discovered in your eyes
Will guide me to your heart
I’d do anything not to lose you like this
But the day comes and I let you go

A.M

Blissful Doom

Blissful Doom

I endeared cupid's magic from a cloud
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
(Mystified)
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings

II

I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit
A.M

The F Word

Frankly, you’re not Frank at all
Fragile, Frail, at Fault
Ferocious, Firm, Freaked
Futile, Futureless, you Flunked us
Fierce, Fruitful, I lifted us
My Fallible Friend, relationship
Flooding my heart with False hope
Folly to be Fond of Fairies
Flaming my soul with Fast words
Fondling my senses with vast knowledge
Frolicking with every part of my body
I Fell for a Fictional picture
Filled your ego with Flattery
Made believe a Flawless love
False hope, Faltered senses
In a Feud, Forced to Feel for me and you
Fevered body, Flaring mind
Frazzled by the Fray our lives became
Fey, Feeble, Fibbing to stay
Frightened to know your kind
Give me a Flash memory to Force delete your Failed memory
Maybe I’ll dip you in my heart like Fondue
And you can taste my Frustration
Freed from our Fantastic Farce
You are the thread and I’m the weaver of this Fable
Love is the Fabulous Façade of this story
Fabricating a happy ending
If I knew the fount of your love I’d live under it
You are my Fetish, Frantic animal
Fucking me without touching
Raw within me, Fulfilling my Fantasy
Fraternizing with my demons
Fornicating to Forsaken
Fallacious relationships
Fill their minds with Filth
Flirt with their pure hearts
Breaking Flowering spirits
Fulfilling your Fatal instinct
My dreams Fuzzy and Far
Fanatic, Famished for a Family
My Fancied reality Further from me
Your Fangs Finally sting
The Finale is here, relationship
You Failed me Fidelity
And Frank is a Fool
A Falcon without vision
A Fool in disguise, in wise man’s scriptures
Part of my past, Fount of my wisdom
Whole of my Future, But I’m Futuristic
Fate guides my relationships


A.M

A Song With No Name

How can I risk myself without giving ears
Your instinct always desires my well being
I see in the hours what is not seen
I get lost outside thinking
Forgive me, accept me in your world
Give me back all that was good
One day I’ll learn and change my way
But for now, I’ll love you

If the wind blows without direction
The stars can guide me
If I don’t have you here
When I dream I can find you
Time passes and with it goes the pain
All things pass, even love fades
Now I know, the sun always returns
And the darkness of night will clear announcing a new love

Liberty has always traveled with me
In the corners of everywhere I’ve been
But my place is with you
If I get lost I find myself in you
Doesn’t matter if I’m alone
There’s no way to forget you
Wondering the streets without destiny
One day I’ll learn and change my way

All that matters is what I bring in my poem
Your smile, a word, your voice in my heart
I see in the hours what is not seen
I get lost outside thinking
Time passes and with it goes the pain
All things pass, even love fades
Now I know, the sun always returns
And the darkness of night will clear announcing a new love

A.M

What keeps Us

What brought us to this party
Naught love, naught lust
Curiosity, perhaps generosity and friendship of course
I’m not sure what it was but it keeps me alert
Divine interaction, within lies the answers
In our gut, the power to take over
I major in the language of your limbic
I study you, everyday I read you
The scent you release pollutes
Beautifies my surrounding, makes me mute
The sorrow you breed breaks me
My imagination, your spontaneity
What brought me here keeps me wishing
A spark in your eyes, telling the world to smile
Lusting, looking down my blouse...
It’s not perfection, it hasn’t direction
Yet it keeps us here, hoping for more
It’s what makes me overcome, grow
Believe in complementary souls
It is purpose, stronger than want, mightier than fear
This feeling keeps me here
Watching the clock, counting the minutes
Guiding together our spirits
Inciting my heart to embrace us
This hunger that eats us, feeds on our instincts
Teaching me to live, accept forgiveness
It is your heart , my mentor, the bully
Educating my thoughts, carrying me over
Filling my being with sweet emotion
Into a world that accepts us, makes us, supports us
Our world, where I hold your hand and you smile
Out beyond prejudice and social roles
Where you love my poetry because it’s us
Acting, reacting to these thoughts I’m dreaming
Making us, romancing in the fantasies I’m weaving
My heart flutters in your blue sky, my soul sighs
I daydream in your eyes, It’s what keeps me here
The dazzle, the smirk, the way you look before you touch
The man behind the gentleman
Your energy merges with mine and keeps me here
Chaste, locked away, in our special place
Where we don’t always show up for the party
Because we’re tired, we’ve stopped trying, forgotten
What brought me here keeps me coming back
Allows me to understand what’s keeping you
What brought us to this party
Over and over, what keeps us, to teach us
True love

A.M

07/17/10

This Love

This love is poisonous
Passion’s last breath
I plead for a cure
Love’s insatiable lust
Some beauties must be seen
They travel far to be looked at
And when they reach their destination
Adoration and appreciation
They lose sight of themselves
Begin to live for others
Wearing their colors
Sorrow is the interval between two happiness’s
Living the irony, to ignore those who adore us
And adoring those who ignore us
Loving those who hurt us
And hurting those who love us
The foolish human instinct
Not everything is a challenge
There is peace in happiness
No need for chaotic interaction
False excitement in erotic
A pleased man does not raise hands
Tongue taste curiosity
A tool within a tool
Using both me and you
In the land of my body you are king
Here you reign with your star smile
The radiance of pleiades stars in your eyes
Here you reign, here you shine
In our constellation of bodies

A.M

7/16/10

I wish...

I could look in your soul tonight
Be dazzled by the brilliant shimmer in your eyes
Swim in your translucent ocean
Ride your wild blue waves
Fall trapped in your seductive current
Immerse in ecstasy!

I wonder who looks into your eyes tonight
Who you Charm
Who you dazzle
Who replaces my marrow
And swims in your cold crystal waters
Who rides your toxic waves
And drowns in your deadly current

I wish I could soar with you tonight
Rise high above the clouds
Let your keen vision lead me
Follow beside your graceful wings

Fly far to find a place just ours
Alight to rest on mount Everest
Make you a nest at its peak
Hunt for you and preen your feathers
Feed you love through my beak
Stay for days enfolded in your dear wings

I wonder who flies with you tonight
Who glides by you Or hides behind
Do you lead or do you follow, I wonder
Are they majestic and clever?
Do they fly with grace and confront the wind?
Could they keep up with me?
But crucially, where do they rest?
In our nest, I wonder

Do you fly there tonight?
Do they replace?
Who enfolds you now?
Whose doomed soul do I envy?


A.M

All or Nothing Measures Even

Dwelling in a glorious kingdom
Where sharing grants glory
And spreads happiness as riches
All or nothing measures even

Ever wealthy, showered in peace
Abundant Patience
To calm and heal, senseless impulses
Perception, rich with doubts and fear
Perspective, biased, limited vision
All or nothing measures even

Lead by Freedom
My guide, to light and mentor reason
Guardian Parent and strict teacher
Watching each step without interference
All or nothing measures even

Wisdom felt, lived
Witnessed experiences
Earned through sea trenches
Maliciously depicted
All or nothing measures even

Understanding
Gazing at a diamond and seeing poverty
Stripped mountains
Mother earth unbalanced
Enslaved bodies through steep ditches
Calloused hands and broken spirits
Digging, crawling, draining
Making a living
Providing luxury in exchange for existence
All or nothing measures even

Suppressed screams
Endured torture
Nameless corpses
Misleading media
Distorted revelations
Worlds hidden
All or nothing measures even

Split Concepts
Unheard, Unread, Unspoken
Knowledge indescribably known
Now ,Passed, Shared and Given
Lethal Risks embraced as missions
Unasked Sacrifices offered by selfless souls
Unmasked faces fighting for the unknown
All or nothing measures even

Life, mundane to the fallen
A blessing torment to a seer
And a Garden Forever in bloom
When seen through haloed eyes
All or nothing measures even

Faith in Truth,
Feeling, seeing, learning steadfastly
Forsaken obsolete knowledge
Give life to imagination
Truth in nature Never changes
All or nothing measures even

Flying high and reaching freedom
Freefalling home with wisdom
The little things are everything
We say we want
We say we need
To Live forever in peace
Yet, some do not strive to achieve
All or nothing measures even

Sharing one's heart
Beloved Pleasure in this experience
Gather, pile all gifts received
And compare it to the mountain you've given
All or nothing measures even

Pain and Sorrow, leaders of existence
Hurt and Happiness, coexistent
Escape Traditions
All or Nothing measures even


Amanda Miranda

Crowds

It is not given to every man to take a bath of multitude; enjoying a crowd is an art; and only he can relish a debauch of vitality at the expense of the human species, on whom, in his cradle, a fairy has bestowed the love of masks and masquerading, the hate of home, and the passion for roaming.

Multitude, solitude: identical terms, and interchangeable by the active and fertile poet. The man who is unable to people his solitude is equally unable to be alone in a bustling crowd.

The poet enjoys the incomparable privilege of being able to be himself of someone else, as he chooses. Like those wandering souls who go looking for a body, he enters as he likes into each man's personality. For him alone everything is vacant; and if certain places seem closed to him, it is only because in his eyes they are not worth visiting.

The solitary and thoughtful stroller finds a singular intoxication in this universal communion. The man who loves to lose himself in a crowd enjoys feverish delights that the egoist locked up in himself as in a box, and the slothful man like a mollusk in his shell, will be eternally deprived of. He adopts as his own all the occupations, all the joys and all the sorrows that chance offers.

What men call love is a very small, restricted, feeble thing compared with this ineffable orgy, this divine prostitution of the soul giving itself entire, all it poetry and all its charity, to the unexpected as it comes along, to the stranger as he passes.

It is a good thing sometimes to teach the fortunate of this world, if only to humble for an instant their foolish pride, that there are higher joys than theirs, finer and more uncircumscribed. The founders of colonies, shepherds of peoples, missionary priests exiled to the ends of the earth, doubtlessly know something of this mysterious drunkenness; and in the midst of the vast family created by their genius, they must often laugh at those who pity them because of their troubled fortunes and chaste lives.

Charles Baudelaire

Eternal

Life made me frail and dying
Scarce divinely
Though I stumble
Love made my armor eternal

My shield reflects
Repels
Madness to hell

Can you see
Understand me
Temporal life
Honest and corrupted
Compassionate and selfish
Innocent and malicious
Certain death

Our love inhumane
Trapped minds shall never understand
"All is fair in love and war"
Foolish wisdom men bestows

And if Love is to live and die as kings
Then kill all before born
Undisclosed majestic potential
Undiscerning
Beauty our flesh will never show

Happy to feel and understand
Honor and glory are not Divine
Sad to see and feel
The flesh's foolish desires
Unappealing
Destructive to our spiritual being

Surreal minds can feel with heart
But never with soul
This is not my home
I will never settle
My soul will forever stir heaven
Within flesh's infernal

A.M

2007.

The Poet

The Poet
He is a link between this and the coming world.
He is
A pure spring from which all thirsty souls may drink.

He is a tree watered by the River of Beauty, bearing
Fruit which the hungry heart craves;
He is a nightingale, soothing the depressed
Spirit with his beautiful melodies;
He is a white cloud appearing over the horizon,
Ascending and growing until it fills the face of the sky.
Then it falls on the flows in the field of Life,
Opening their petals to admit the light.
He is an angel, send by the goddess to
Preach the Deity's gospel;
He is a brilliant lamp, unconquered by darkness
And inextinguishable by the wind. It is filled with
Oil by Istar of Love, and lighted by Apollon of Music.

He is a solitary figure, robed in simplicity and
Kindness; He sits upon the lap of Nature to draw his
Inspiration, and stays up in the silence of the night,
Awaiting the descending of the spirit.

He is a sower who sows the seeds of his heart in the
Prairies of affection, and humanity reaps the
Harvest for her nourishment.

This is the poet -- whom the people ignore in this life,
And who is recognized only when he bids the earthly
World farewell and returns to his arbor in heaven.

This is the poet -- who asks naught of
Humanity but a smile.
This is the poet -- whose spirit ascends and
Fills the firmament with beautiful sayings;
Yet the people deny themselves his radiance.

Until when shall the people remain asleep?
Until when shall they continue to glorify those
Who attain greatness by moments of advantage?
How long shall they ignore those who enable
Them to see the beauty of their spirit,
Symbol of peace and love?
Until when shall human beings honor the dead
And forget the living, who spend their lives
Encircled in misery, and who consume themselves
Like burning candles to illuminate the way
For the ignorant and lead them into the path of light?

Poet, you are the life of this life, and you have
Triumphed over the ages of despite their severity.

Poet, you will one day rule the hearts, and
Therefore, your kingdom has no ending.

Poet, examine your crown of thorns; you will
Find concealed in it a budding wreath of laurel.

Gibran Khalil

A Muse's Blessing

Where rests my muse...
Erato, write this poem,
For Calliope and Polyhymnia, for Thalia and Clio.
The goddess of muses, telling your tales to lovers.
Describing the senselessness of the relentless mind,
Depicting the sorrow that preys on our hearts.
Drawing the pleasures that sins our skin,
Desiring happiness in an alter reality.
Euterpe, compose a song our hearts can sing,
Let your verses flow through me,
Make my spirit sing.
Terpsichore, write a dance for us,
Make it special, make it long.
Aphrodite, bless us with beauty,
With gentleness and compassion,
With the vision to see within us,
True beauty, God’s features.
Venus, bless us with true love,
Shower our souls with joy,
With peace and lovers rejoice.

A.M

7/12/10

Rise Above

This is not the average brain, Do I have your support?
Bear with me as I explore, How can I make it literal...
Maybe if this poem was eatable, I could feed my thoughts to you.
I can paint it but you got to see, I can show it but you must interpret.
So when you look and do not see don’t blame me for your inability.
Perhaps your lacking effort, don’t want to dream big cause you’re broken, battered.
Ineffably exhausted in your God given body, running from life, sustaining the ego with lies.
Abusing your substance, neglecting your intellect, you’ve stopped thinking for yourself.
Feeding your body trash, destroying your health for moments of wealth.
Pills will fix your illness and worsen your symptoms.
You must work hard for the cure, bear with the burden.
Search your body for your remedy, what you need is within.
In your soul, in your brain, the power to create.
The knowledge to construct, weave your dreams into reality.
Don’t accept insults, fight back with no words.
Their beliefs can make you sick, shape the world you live in.
Search your own path, be your sole truth.
What’s real changes with every thought you think,
So think me beautiful, so I can reach you.
When you imagine, I am with you.
Think me waiting in a field of white lilies, on my knees pleading, get me out of limbo.
So perfect from a far, I barely see your broken heart.
How painful does it get? Some days all I feel is rain.
Black clouds invade, moving the pretty ones away.
Wind gusts through me, quivering my being.
The branches on the trees sway gently,
Telling the roots to cling to the earth, prepare for the worst.
But then the leafs settle, the branches calm,
The trees hold hands, waiting for the rain to come.
Ready to get wet, to embrace nature’s blessing.
A light shower to quench the earth or a hurricane storm to mold it.
A slight breeze to cool the forest or a tornado to pull them from their roots.
Let it pour, dance for the lord.
Put your life in faith’s hand and free your essence.
And if you were delayed then connect now to the world you wish to live in.
Reach for what you want, don’t grab it, let it come.
Life is happening now, whether you live it or sleep through it.
To Live, experience, to allow feeling.
To stand together like the trees and endure, to believe in your roots, to plant you.
To grow stronger with each challenge, to be consistent and persistent as nature.
To fight the maker and live through anything, because you’re strong, because we can.
Solve your puzzle, in your own time, stay true to yourself and let them lie.
Just a thought,
A.M
07/09/10

My Muse

High in altitude
I contemplate my solitude
From my window seat open air fills the view
In the midst of clouds I dance with you
Floating on air, there’s our silhouette!

I am praying for a miracle
Unreal would be to have you
If God grants me a wish I’ll use it to be near you
So sick of missing you
This is what you choose?
Everything but me and you
I respect you, so I leave you!

To me, you’re not new, you're lazy!
To feel, to forgive, to love
I know, It‘s hard, I am here too
I know your soul, look at me, let me touch our love
Embrace us, free me from this sentence

Can’t help but wonder if you’re happy
You block me out completely
But you live inside of me
I stand beside you, this is where I choose to be
I should believe, want to believe, you’re better off without me
But that's not how I feel, these dreams are real

Our essence tied, the world could never know
I feel it in my heart, stirring in my soul
A life, together, not mere moments
I can wait, our lives intertwined
You're mine!

You hold our tender moments, smile at my remarks
It‘s ok to love me, I feel your calling
God can fix anything, so I continue to pray for my everything
To grow old, enrich my soul with
To learn, arise from ashes, Live!

We’ve already won, It's just us
If not in this life then maybe on the next
So I hope to live forever
And If granted eternal life
I will spend it searching, loving, seeking
You’re the reason I fight, fly
Struggle to sow my talent into a prosperous life

As a poet I breath you, my love, inspiration, source
As a woman I accept you, understand and forgive you
As a spoiled child I pout, Need, desire, seek you

Why must I see us dancing on clouds If you are ever so far?
You’re here, I see us out there
Together, ever growing, ever near
From my view all is possible
So I look out and pray to God
Give me everything!

A.M

2010.

Am I wrong

Am I wrong to desire perfection
To search your body in every direction
To want you shivering mad
Desiring my every breath

Am I wrong to dream
To smell the scent of your skin
The taste of your lips
To feel the sway of hips
The pain in your grip

Am I wrong to dig
To seize your fears
Exasperate feelings
Breaking down to rebuild
To be the heroine in this story

Am I wrong to endure
When I’m in your eyes happiness is sure
Daring to dream, believing in feeling
Surpassing the reality we live in
Giving without resisting

Am I wrong to believe
You’ve tasted sweeter moments than these
Traveling far to feed the ego
To rule their hearts and be king
Each step is a mistake, our dream farther away

Am I wrong to wait
They want what you couldn’t take
Giving naught in return, not a heart, not a soul
Keeping it has been tough but being broken is worse

Am I wrong to pray
When I’m lost God shows me the way
There is no meant to be, just you turning around and meeting me
Hold on to faith, God guides us safe.

Am I wrong to understand
Pleasure and pain, intertwined polarities
To accept one and deny the other
Going where it feels better
You treat them like lepers, but you’re the one infected

Am I wrong to restrain
To never obey, to do it my way
Hurting their expectations
The life they drew for me
I’ve grown out of it
Drinking, to kill the man you portray
Cheating, to lose everything
Be the bigger man

Am I wrong to leave
To wish you farewell
That’s all that’s left now
No hand to hold, no heart, no soul
You foolishly love
So I leave you alone
Am I wrong

A.M

2010.

Running After You

Running After You

The ones who knew you
Wept more than they laughed
They worried and never relaxed
I hated your power
I swore never to walk your tight rope

I ran away from you
I ran towards amorality and shallowness
I feared your fierce passion
So I choose a seasonless world

I ran into a world of cowards and passionless desires
A world in denial, replete with lies
Where everything isn't enough
And cravings are never contained

There the wells are filled with thirst
And the crops harvest hunger
The oceans are deserts overflowing with quicksand

A world filled with treats that never satisfy
Like a tasteless fruit that is always in season
A world of shadows and night crawlers
where abuse and over indulgence are glorified

Like a deep sleep
Filled with nightmares and passionless dreams
I expected lies and welcomed deceit
An endless marathon, a race against truth
A destructive lifestyle and a sad eternity

I don't remember when but you caught up with me
You couldn't stop me from running
So you shined your light on me
Your holy light quenched my thirst
And satiated my hunger
And for that instant I felt full
Full Of laughter
Full of warmth,
Full of meaning
Full of purpose
Full of You

And that's when I stopped running from you
And began to run after you, LOVE
A.M
2006

Embargoed Embarking

I

In a crisp fall night the sun brought back summer
His spotlight, a halo around us
You were a dragon, in famine, cold, frozen

Your lungs cracked as your skin melted
A fog of smoke surrounded us
As my radiance melted your iceberg
That night, you set out to find a spark
A little light to start your lungs
Dissolve your frozen tongue

Before the desperate hunt could begin
The fool you didn't want
The one you never hoped to find
In the agonizing night
Found you

II

A flaming spirit with qualities of an eternal
Her eyes sparkled innocence and she smiled luminous peace
Like the eyes of a child, she filled the air with vigor
Perfectly contoured, you knew she was not for your touch
So dear and clear, so pure and true, truth, too bright for you

Her eyes gave birth to a new universe
One of compassionate beauty,
Fathered by love and peace
A place of kindness, no room for men's greed for diamonds
A new world, God's private space
She made galaxies proudly orbit around you
Mistake, God, not meant to be seen by dead tides

You shone dim that night, hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
You suppressed wild currents and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then I saw, my eyes freed your currents

The lure of your blue, above all seas, fantasy waves drowned me
Dark and deep, gray stones surrounded your beach
I saw you but I didn't see
Bold and conceited, too assured to fear the weak

I made a request I knew you wouldn't refuse
More of your sound, more time, mere minutes
I took you, to have by, I took you
Took you home

III

You believed a woman's fire could kill
And refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You wrapped your hands around my waste
Swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise
Each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync
Together we formed the perfect symphony

In your embrace I was a harp
And you made me sound divine
Sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument
The passion, the devils divine perfection
Together, we created the sweetest sound
You span me round and round
Enfolded in your cold wings I was your dragon's heart
A doll, so light, so perfect

IV

You took heat from their flesh
Just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence
And made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your blue sky
I gave you my light!

Darkness followed me home that night
It knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling

V

Dumb doll
Uncontrollable claws of fire
Tearing through her flesh
Dragon frost kept me alive
Turned off the light in me
Freezing insides
Your touch, hotter than the moon's spot light
Sun dove in
Kisses, tight but slowly
Tongues licked off my innocent
Yours gave it back
The holy sensation of evil
You brought it back
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me

Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
Flaming stones of ice
Bright, burning black frost
The laughs
The faces we ripped
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks-

VI

I am not Immortal
But I am human enough to be unforgettable
Try, understand the waves of despair
My eyes generate through your mind
Believe in the spark of my touch
Igniting all that is rotten in your body

I stayed for the flames
For the fire you insist on putting out
All is possible when we touch
I am sure if we tried it in open air
We would float
Unusual, uncontrollable
Apologies are familiar
You feel it but you can't distinguish
I am your creation, a particle of your imagination
Made by magical fairies you hold at your command
I would mutate to survive in your world
With You is the only place I would escape to
Give up my celebrated solitude and grow horns with you
I remember what you stole from me that night
More than a kiss -a soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- you made your own
keep the peace you stole from me
So that I'll always feel your misery

VII

In a feud
It's been years
Since we've been running towards
And fighting against this demon
We can't understand it
So we give it to others
We can't control our passion
so we refuse it, refute it, prostitute it
We can't talk, so we kiss
We can't kiss, so we quietly leave
Silence seems to be our ally
And Love our Trojan horse
You fear it as if it were leper
And I embrace it as if it were my cross and I, Jesus

Months of silence
And minutes of total alliance
Without any pretense that we parted
Making plans to feel each other
In our world of make believe
In text all is possible between you and me
We simply do not acknowledge the grief
We are silly kids
Proud and empty
Wasting gifts we cannot replace
Exasperating feelings
Playing down the inevitable

Love has a pull on you and me
We feel
But only one sees
We want to touch
But our strings won't let us reach.

A.M

It’s not what you told me

It’s not what you told me
It’s what I told myself
I’m the only one who sees
They stand against you and me
What is it that enchants me
Transcends me
Eludes my limbic
Defeats reason
I want what I envision
What is it that I do not see
A beauty that could blind me
With you is where I’ll be
I’m reaching, you’re smiling
Standing still or hiding
Pull me up or let me go
To free fall in love
To live
To grow
It’s not what you asked
It’s what I’ve given
Untamed passion
Romantic expression
Unveiled purpose
Helpless, held
I can’t see myself
Forgotten behind bars
What a waste of heart
It’s not what you told me
It’s what I dreamed
That hunts my spirit
Memories float through my mind
From morning to night
I need you right now
For better or worse
To forgive and forget
Embrace your sickness
Be your everything
Who I thought you’d be
What you couldn’t believe
Who you ‘re not makes me
Completes me
If not forever than for a moment
I remember what you told me
But it’s what I told myself that hurts me

A.M

2010.

The Rain Comes

The rain comes
Sometimes death reaps at home
I stroll through the disaster
Squint my eyes to see lesser
Think aloud to top their voices
Describing the horror
Taunted by lives taken
Hunted by tragedy before it happens
I remember the bodies
Laying by the side of the road
Stored in my memory
Crime scene photos
And even after
The misery lingers
Thickens the air
Pity poisons my every breath
Pain corrodes my stomach
I remember not eating
Barely sleeping
Waking and wishing
I dreamed all the evil
That my friends were alive
All well, no catastrophe
But disaster happens
In me and around me
Polluting the ocean and killing wildlife
Tearing down homes
No rooms, no walls
No balls
All taken away in moments
Nature’s fury
Man’s only security
Hate placed in shots fired
Lingers long after
Revenge is pain
Accept what’s happening
The rain comes
Tears down your foundation
Takes your home
Kills your relatives
And you keep moving
Clear of the bastards shooting
In a storm but attempting to stay dry
Because you want the rain to come
Because you need life
You continue to fight for you
As they stack bodies
You remain while they cave
Tsunami waves and earth wakes
Makes us question our authority
Humans think they control
God’s laughing
Asking only that you are faithful
When building your temples
Before the rain comes

A.M

2010.

When We Two Parted

When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.

The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.

They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well: -
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.

In secret we met -
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee? -
With silence and tears.

Lord Byron

Far from Future

So far but right in front of me
Is it ill that for anguish unfelt I choose distance
For future pandemonium I retreat
Not wanting to touch
Not wanting to feel
You see, I met a lady named love
She showed me a world of miracles
A place we unite
Same energy, same body
For me, always a challenge
I read emotion
What you feel and what you don’t
If you could borrow my eyes you would understand
What I see and don’t know
If I might speak for your heart to hear
Could I touch your body
Allow you to feel me
Decipher my being
For the trouble one would not
Take more than one can give
To consume what you cannot bear
I won’t die a liar
I tell myself the truth
Don’t be a fool
For love unrequited is a dwelling tragedy
I desire naught
Take my time
Play in nature
And when they are done taking I need recharging
A refreshing of the spirit
Aware of what I want
In tune with what I feel
Conscious that I wish you here

A.M

2010.

Inspired by F.S.Jr.

Fallen Angel

Fallen Angel

You are beyond a love within-
An extension of my soul
Your beauty exults my heart
Feeds me purpose
You spread joy throughout my body
And glistens through my pores

Our past consumes our love
Stirs up hate in our blood
Fear feeds on old wounds
And inflicts on the new

But my wounds no longer hurt
And where they lay I cannot see
For your love overwhelms
Heals all that is impure
Erases past misfortunes
And fills my vacant holes


Fallen Angel

In screaming silence
Behind your blinding beauty
A dimming spirit drowns
I see beyond your vacant stare
Your soul exclaims grief
And calls upon me

When lightning strikes your heart
And awakens your sorrow
Put on your wings and fight your demons
Raise your sword
And my love will strengthen your might
Confront the wind
And my light will guide you through the storm

With an open heart and a beaming smile
I'll be waiting in our cloud
We'll dance around in silence
And let our hearts speak in thought

I'll embrace you in my wings
And the warmth in my smile
Will silently reassure you-
I understand your sorrow


Fallen Angel

Drink from my faith
And quench your purpose
Feast on my love
And satiate your spirit

Come to me
When you're sad
Lonely and even mad
I'll hug you tight and kiss your eye
Tickle your frown upside down

I'll impersonate your favorite comic
Deviate you from your worries
I'll reenact our favorite nights
And add a little spice

I'll take you in
When you're cold
Battered and hopeless
I'll alleviate your burden
Embrace your loss as my misfortune

I'll wash your pain with my tears
Absorb all your stress and fear

And if you don't want to talk
We can take a silent walk
I'll embrace your broken heart
Without ever asking cause

Fallen Angel

Your eyes of reason
Showed me essential horrors
Our Love
Gave life to my art
Dimmed my blinding halo

Revealed a depriving consciousness
Enlightened!
Ignited poetic passion
Harmonized my righteous seclusion
Showed me darkness illusion
Heightened my sympathy--
A cruel world in disbelief
Sharpened my logic--
Suppress resistance- free impulses
Sculpted my poet's soul
United pain and love

Fallen Angel

Our splendor thrives
The proof is in our eyes

My passion and peace
Your devotion and loyalty
My eloquence, your reason
Still Intrigues us

Humorous chemistry
Infatuation everlasting
Unleashed passion
Freeing ecstasy
Divine release!

Our beauty combined is our antidote
It heals our sorrow and frees our soul
United, my Love and your honor
Is our golden ticket to Heaven

A.M

Moving Slow

We move slow
And we think everything is far
Separated by time and space
Parted by light
Illusive distance
Get over here, stop wasting
Some people are so basic
They need to upgrade the cable in their heads
The universe conspired to join us
If you’re “Madly in love” than you’re probably MAD!
Doing, saying, writing, the same thing
Expecting a different result, insane
These are our daily missions
You win some and you lose some
Move on, on to the next one
There is nothing else on my mind
Once you enter
Maybe it’s unfair
To want you so badly
To love madly
Lose all clarity
We are not truly happy
Until we embrace the present
Give thanks for all we have
And attempt to give as much back as we are given
But we move very slow
And we think everything is far
I march at my own pace
Going fast or slow
Depending on how far
How much you’ve given
Can you match me
Raise me
Share your everything
That’s my offer
But you move very slowly
And think everything is far
Until it hits you and you wake up

A.M

2010.

Buy You

I sense you around
You are here
Laying beside me
Your smell , our chemistry
No regrets, I get it now
I longed to touch
Now I love without desire
I hear your voice, painfully clear
Your shadow follows me everywhere
You are skeptical, It ‘s ok
My love is unconditional
That’s the beauty of it
Detachment
If I own it- it’s a property
This is a gift, you’re my blessing
Chance is “hopeless” against love’s will
Brave hearts are bound to find each other
In a sea of devotion and loyalty
Where love is the star- there are no limits
Throughout every dimension
My love sees all
Another day goes by
Night Falls upon us
I express our love
My heart finds you and we dream
I kiss you and you fall asleep
Awake in my fantasies
Creating, preparing
When I step into the light it will be blinding
You will be beside me
When I read our letters
For the beauty appreciated in our union
What I planted will bloom
Eternal love for me and you

A.M

2010.

To love you

To Love you
To know how to speak from the heart
Express my point of view
My side of the story
To listen to your heart
To know what you want through the gesture in your eyes
To love you
A duty, a gift, a blessing
To have you, please you, give to you
To know the language your body speaks
To love you
A reason to write, to want, dream, desire
To love you
To know your soul, to feel your spirit
To understand your virtues, accept your principles
Share your ideals, to be one in love
To belong
To love you is to need you
To know you
To let go and understand we’re just passing
Like clouds in the sky we float round
Going where the wind takes us
To love you is to know there is no certainty in love
It’s to care for you with all the love in my heart
To hear you, forgive you
Be with you, to keep you
To love you

A.M

2010.

Echoes

Echoes of past dialogue
Shadowed by a past lover
Your presence continues to follow my emotions
Memories of the past won’t let me enjoy the present
How can it be any different

I get what I want but It’s never enough
So I chase you around through my life’s playground
And you seem to be calm but inside you are raging
Bottled emotions, unsatisfied lust
Unfulfilled fantasies stuck in traffic

You had me, don’t need me
long to deceive me
So the past becomes the present
And the present the past
Even in my shower you hunt me\
Pouring throughout me

And why kiss lips if not the most perfect
And why hold hands if not the warmest
Why go through life without letting you know
Our past consumes our love
I need not be near to understand
I get what you don’t want me to know

And when they hold me I feel your grip
Where they loved me I’ve only been once or twice
Don’t really care for attention if not that of your eyes

So If you don’t care than I’m not flaunting
No need for a spotlight if you’re not looking
Can our love make it through
The affairs, the abuse
Then let the dreams we conceived breath
You’re killing me
In dreams of the past in present disguise

I reach for your hands
Cling to your smile
And wish for a present with you in my sight

A.M

2010.

Blissful Doom

I endeared cupid's magic from a cloud
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
(Mystified)
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings

II

I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit
A.M

Every Part of You

Just as the everlasting attraction
between the sun and the moon-
You play with my oceans tide
Your desire for me raises and falls
You want me now then you dont want me at all

A part of you stretches out to pull me near
and another tries its hardest to forget
A part of you has given me love
and another does not know me
A part of you sees me as a fleeting ship
disappearing into the mist
While another holds on to my anchor and embraces our love

My heart is lost waiting for these parts of you
How can I appear distant and blurry-
when I am anchored to your heart
In the midst of your yes's and your no's
I hang on and insist in the seconds
that you want me for an instant
For
in those moments- you are my God and my religion
My all
heart and soul
God's sacred feast-
what i live for

Who knows when
someday, somehow,
one kiss, one moment-
might awaken a desire
and the part of this love that is missing

l want you so

Every part of you

A.M

2006.

You're Always With Me

You're Always With Me

You bring light to my day and awaken my horizons

As the sun's warmth enters through my window and kisses my cheeks
I picture your sweet lips caressing me

I see you throughout my day
And in all of the places we've laid
Your shadow still remains

I see you when I shower,
There you are the water pouring down my body

You're with me when I am driving,
Sitting beside me, holding my hand and smiling

You're with me as darkness falls
We lay back and count stars

You're with me in my dreams
There you are mine and I can do to you as I wish

But then the sun rises again
Lighting my day and caressing my cheeks
Awakening me to another day with only your memories

A.M

Loving On The Run

Loving on the run

It was long ago but I remember
I had love, a heart to call my own
There were fights, struggles
But at the end of the day, in his embrace there was peace
with the knowledge that someone out there believed in me blindly
No matter how insecure I become I knew I could count on my beloved to save me,
strengthen me, comfort me, defend, protect me
Somewhere down the road I decided to give that up
No more safety blanket, no more secure heart
I lean on me, break my own fall
I get my loving on the run, when I get some
I want to grow in heart, my ability to care, love, understand
Support the ones I love without expectations
I want a clear vision
I’ve loved the wrong people and the wrong people have loved me
My reason for allowing a commitment were insufficient
And my obsession with getting them to love me has brought me much pain and suffering
I’ve hurt and confused, as much as I been hurt and confused
From now on, I want to live without strings
To give, to love, without labels
To selflessly care for those who need me
To be a strong link, able to love and care for those in need of blind compassion
Without the need of ego gratification
with the simple desire to be a part of something bigger than me
I don’t want to live alone
Love alone , conquer fears alone
Attain my desires alone
I want to live and share my heart with everyone
My body is a tool I’ll use to accomplish my soul’s desires
A healthy heart will allow me to walk the path to my dreams
A fit body will carry my heart through the paths that my mind chooses
So I must keep a healthy mind, clear of negative thoughts for a bright future
For darkness brings not light but blindness
The things I want are in the future
They are new and made of something I never had
Therefore I cannot expect to attain these things If I insist on bringing dreams of the past with me
For the dreams of the past have already been carried out, If not by you then by others
We cannot carry the past into the future, change or recreate it as it once was
I must create new dreams and realize them
I do not carry my mistakes into my future , I carry an understanding of the result of my past actions
I allow myself to change direction, To grow in new ways, To desire new things, new shapes
I allow myself to want more and need less, To care and be cared for, To love and expect nothing in return
I want a clearer vision of the world, An honest view of my heart and my part in life
Real feelings without superficial reason, Passion without ulterior motives
I want to feel everything with love, with the understanding that I am in control of my feelings,
my heart, my emotions
I do not need to recreate happy moments
I want to experience happy actions and reactions
I want to learn the art of feeling good
The art of making life good
I don’t want to feel as good as before but better
For it can be limiting to wish a past condition or a new version of it
Just a thought
A.M

While I Wait

While I wait

I wonder, how you heal
How does your heart feel
Are you at ease with your logic’s decision
Can you sense my affliction
I wonder if you get impatient
For my days are shadowed with doubt
My heart is heavy, my breath is weak
I am out in the light but my skin is cold as ice
Sunlight does not penetrate my eyes
I’ve come a long way to be near you
Now I am close in body and far in thought
Far from your heart’s desire
You do not write or call
Leaving it up to chance if we should meet again
I don’t understand a love so passive
You see, for me the urge is constant
I see your face when I awake
Desire your touch throughout the day
I want to look into your eyes and feel your heart’s warmth
I need to wrap my arms around you and feel you close
It’s the only way I know

A.M

2010.

Interdependent

If love is the desire to share your best
experience the best of everything with the one you want
Then I love
There is no logic in our union
There is no sense in love
Accepting or rejecting doesn’t change reality
Denying love doesn’t stop its growth
Ego illusions may elude the senses
Make believe an ideal love
But love isn’t conceived of reason
It’s a reaction of souls
Awareness shows us what is, what isn’t and what can be
Give up the struggle, let nature take its course
Resistance impairs growth
Accept the love given to you
Respect every compassionate gesture
Don’t deny those who love you
They are there for a reason
You need their love as much as they need to give it
Compassion fuels the souls journey
For when we seek love and understanding we find awareness
Caring for others is caring for yourself
Acceptance is living
Pride impairs reason
Awareness knows no ego
Detached from self we are infinite
Experiencing life in synch with reality
Conscious of a interdependent existence

A.M

2009.

Each Day

Each day...
I dive into a sea of remembrance
Bittersweet memories awakens my body
Fantasy waves revive me
The desire to have you, my ecstasy reality
Pain, love, tenderness, touch…
Reliving our experience is electrifying
My heart floats away from me, my soul laughs and giggles
Divine energy fills my veins…righteous ideas…
Oh, Fairy tales of love

Each day…
To look into your eyes, pure fantasy
Oh, the desire you stir within me
Your body… mine, touch filled with curiosity
I get lost in this dream of you, play make believe with you
Oh the light inside you, the good I see within you
My heart plays, laughs with you...And I dream

Each day...
This feeling moves me
Transforms me, builds me--continues to fool me
I see you not with eyes but my soul’s vision
And now--knowing you--knowing the joy
Of another heart lighting up mine
It's a feeling I want in my life
I want you in my life
However, whenever, wherever
I want you in my life
Each day

A.M

Compassion

Know that everything you do has purpose
There is a reason why you're doing what you're doing
You decide your path and life uses you along the way
Until you get to where you want to be and succeed
Stay the path, don’t follow off, love yourself , your choices
On your way there, stop and breath
Appreciate the going and the going gets easy
For where I am headed all I need is my heart
"So I’m there writing this, and getting caught in my "choices"
I do my best, for me that’s enough
I don’t judge, I don’t mean harm nor wished it be done
The basics, remember?
You must love the music
You must want life
You have to want to hear it
That’s the way to God - “Speech”
Have a voice and God will help you
Have a say and God will protect you
Don’t let them tell you how to live your life
Love yourself, take care of you and you’ll take care of everything
The universe will work with your thoughts and deliver your present
We’re connected, through God, to God
Lets get on the same path, success!
Do our best together, team Earth
Do it for your future, for your kid’s future
Be compassionate, share understannding
Grow, ascend, care for each other
We're all on the same path, "Life"!
A.M

Lover's Hate

And yes, I will leave you. Now and forever
And if my body shall ever meet with yours it will be for my soul‘s pleasure.

I desire not a kiss from your wretched lips
I’ll forget, who you are, who we were, how we met

And I’ll remember your mean words when my soul calls to yours
How can a heart be so cold, feel so old?

Love is enough, a terrifying rollercoaster with you
I've loved you throughout the mistakes
I am forever and so my love remains

So I leave the idea of a world with you
and move on to a world without you near
Endearing, to believe we can fill our lives and determine roles for people

What role do you take? I'm behind the scenes asking the producer
Why didn’t you film it the way I wrote it?

Hey, you can’t have a say in everything
“Sometimes you’re fucked from the jump”

So we play our parts, and make the “best“ of the “best” we get?
But what is best? And how do you know once you’ve got it?

I can say I’ve shared the best, and for me that will always be enough
I loved wholeheartedly, without one shallow bone in my body

There was never bad timing, only lazy loving
Isn’t that why we're here
To love, to care for those we choose to intereact with

But specially to cultivate your life
So I take care of me and pray for the good in you
Are you sticking to the script, is it working?

Are you happy?
Happy is accepting the now and having no hate from your past
Are you really here?

Because I stand before you, a memory of love, and you hate me? That cannot exist
Where there is love there is hate, but where there is no love there is no opposition

You are a link, nothing more
To believe me, to adopt a new idea of the world seems unreal

Leonardo Da Vinci said it best” He who is fixed to a star does not change his mind”
I’ve been a friend to you and you are blind to that

Maybe you don’t know full independence, I’ve had it all my life
Love isn’t always where you are at, but it is always with you

Loving to hate me

A.M

2010.

Taking

Taking

You came into my life and you took
My time, my senses
I told you I was falling
You said you weren’t sure
How was I suppose to know?
You were taking from my love
From my family, from my friends
Moments I could of spent with them I cried alone in bed
Loving, sharing all my words with you
All my sweetness onto you
I splayed my heart to love you whole
My mind clings to you, my hands reach for you, my lips desire you
Because you took from me
Kisses, months, years
A fiancé, a boyfriend, you took from me
Love complete, you took from me
All I wanted, you took from me
All I shared, you shared with them
And I want it back
I’m taking back what you took from me
And this time I wont’ be merciful
I’m loving you until you’re sick and asking to be cured
I’m loving Baby, that’s how I’m getting you back
You see, there is no pay back, there is no past, there is only love
And at the speed I’m loving I’m catching up fast
So when I sweep you off your feel It’ll be quickly
Fulfilling the prophecy” I always get what I need”
So don’t worry about what you want, I got it for you
When everything feels right those questions will be answered
And I will reclaim everything you stole plus interest
I’m not playing baby, I’m loving
So fast, so much, so sweet, you are unable to see
But when I choose to reveal, the body I choose to conceal
You will see, everything you want I’ve been keeping
The truth is, I’ve taken from you
From your time, from your friends
From your truth, your desires
I’ve taken from your mind, thoughts
I’ve molded you, shaped your virtues
We’ve grown together, shaping each other’s perceptions
I took from you, from your prejudice, misery, rules
I took you by storm and I let you take me
Into this hurricane I find myself caught in
You’re being pushed away from me
I’m holding on to our home, clinging to my love
Until the storm is over
And you’re dried and sober
And we take it all over
What they took from us
I'm taking it back baby

A.M

Over

When he looks at me, It fills me
Every part of me, replete!
With peace, with love
With the certainty that at that moment all is right
(I’m where I’m suppose to be)


When his eyes reach for mine
All is possible and nothing matters
I’m lifted to a place of light
(I‘m in Heaven)


My sense of smell heightens
My skin chills
I want to touch , embrace
Nervous, anxious I wait
(Inside I am crying)


I am the queen of goodbyes
But this time he wears the crown
It’s harder than I envisioned
(A game of losers)


I want to speak
Express my need
But what do you do with a heart that has no love for you
Accept it
(It’s over between us)

A.M

2010.

Today

When you want to write and words come pouring out
And being accused is no longer a reason to justify my acts
I’m so patient, they can’t embrace it
What do I know ?
Why are they running?
What are they running from?
Farmed society
I’m charging ahead, make sure I see it all happening
Cause I want to win, I want to get to my dreams realized
I want to see my miracles carry out
I want to win!
God will give me anything
So I continue to pray for “my everything”
My words are real because they are me
My heart, my emotions, my eyes and how I interpret
They say I don’t work hard as a poet
I tell them I don’t try hard
“That’s how you die hard”
At ease with my spirit
I float free, no resistance!
The outdoors free me, lifts me
Lets picnic, bring some berries
I got my dog and a blanket
Where’s the field?
Meet me, I’ll wait for you
I’m patient

A.M

2010.

Open a Window for Me

Open a window for me, keep your doors locked
l don't want to paint you or undress you
l want nothing but a glance into your closed eyes
l feel you , I don't have hope, nor do I desire it
I have faith in purpose, you have reached my heart from afar
You're in my thoughts, a powerful mind, I feel you, connected with mine
I see purpose, you've entered my life, It's out of our hands
I want to know you, see through your eyes
l won't hide from what reveals itself inside me
from what tints my light and sees through my existence
No sense in pretending, l acknowledge
Truth won't hurt me, stumbling upon it and looking the other way can kill
Your sweetness still perspires, It still lives
The beauty in your words is mellow, I'd like to taste that which is sweet in you
Take my love
It's infinite and warm as the smile I share with the screen in front of me
I want to hold you, look into your eyes, and understand without word exchange
I can't physically, so open your heart
And my mind will indulge in your scent
Feel the tip of my love, touching your tender petals
I can smell your flowers, feel their brightness, you're beautiful
No intentions, just a feeling, speaking through me
I look into the mirror and imagine your eyes, looking into mine
I hear you close
My heart has a home for you, stay as long as you like.
A.M

Mother Teresa

"People are often unreasonable,
illogical, and self centered;
-Forgive them anyway...
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
-Be kind anyway...
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies;
-Succeed anyway...
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
-Be honest and frank anyway...
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
-Build anyway...
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
-Be happy anyway...
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
-Do good anyway...
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
-Give the world the best you've got anyway...
You see, in the end, it is between you and God;
-It was never between you and them anyway"...

-Mother Teresa-

Eternal Dance

Eternal Dance

Lets dance tonight
I'll meet you while you dream
I'll wake you gently
Whisper love secrets in your ear

Our combined passion
Will levitate us to heaven
We'll flow through Eden's garden
Eat from the tree of life
Drink from God's spring
Gain eternal life

We'll run through fields of lilies
playing hide and seek
We'll swim and play and splash
Bathe in sacred seas

We'll intertwine our souls
dance within each other's hearts
compose verses with our bodies
Make Love
our favorite song

Lets dance tonight

A.M

Love's dew

I feel Love in the sweetest form
I taste mellow strawberries-
when I receive your love;
Free and abundant as mine

I sense you-absorb your heart
I float free in your thoughts
-covered in love's dew;
Savoring your epiphanies;
Your understanding nourishes my soul

Our tragedies kills our perceptions
And saves our essence
Love scars become ripples of wisdom
And we fall within each other's cracks

Through chaos Love gives birth to brilliance
You undress my purpose-
I clothe you in love
I enter your heart
And you crash into my soul
A.M

Blueberry, Blackberry, Strawberry-Yum

Blueberry, Blackberry, Strawberry-Yum
Eden Loveberries grow wild in the sun
We picnic in heaven -My purpose and I

We arrive together and depart as one
Replete with divine we land on cloud nine
A passionate glance summons my soul-
Inevitable attraction pulls me into your sea
Gentle waves pushes me into the deep
I let my body go loose
Soaked lungs-my breath is yours

A thousand kisses on my heart
Within your soul I am a mermaid-
Flapping my tail eternally

A million love flavors-
explosion-
tongues touch
Warming caresses-
Shocks my soul
Body absorbs charge-
Heavenly touch
My heart accepts tender kisses-
on in and around-
our souls collide

Without space between us-
One body, one heart-
Two minds combined in truth-
To feel the most-
To spread divine and make one eternal love
You are fire and l am flames
Always ignited and never burning

Our reflection in each other lncites
Our reflection in the Mirror excites
Full pleasure
Body and Soul Unite
Perfect Paradise

Truth nourishes my heart
Love speaks through your words
Planted eternally is your essence within my soul

You flourish my mind with Masterful Wisdom
And make my Rose Bloom-
With each Breath Stroke

A.M

Mentors

When mentors teach with passion and understanding,
they create leaders instead of followers.
Thus, all grow and amplify each other,
together, leading the world to peace.
A.M

Fool

How fooLish
to waste Life-
Enslave our minds
for
Transient beauty
seconds of security

Perceptlon Fades
Reality Reveals Chaos
Pain of Reason lost ln transitions
pleasures that were not kept secret
and smiles that can't be owned

A beauty that was never yours
will be
could be
ln full company

One can control another's mind, body and heart
but the soul controls the entire temple
and remains intact
A.M

Magic Tricks

MAGlC TRlCKS

You shone dim that night,
hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
you suppressed wild currents,
and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then l saw, my eyes freed your currents

You believed a woman's fire could kill
refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You took heat from their flesh, just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence and made it clear you wished the same

Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
I am not Immortal, but I am enough to be unforgettable

You wrapped your hands around my waste,
swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise,
each finger played a note on my body

We moved in sync,
Together, we formed the perfect symphony
In your embrace I was a harp, and you made me sound divine
sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument-Our passion
The devils divine perfection

Enfolded in your cold wings
I was your dragon's heart, a doll, so light
so perfect

You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your sky-
I gave you my light!
You stole from me that night
More than a kiss - my halo-my soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- You made your own

Darkness followed me home-
it knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling

All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me
Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal

The laughs
The faces we ripped...
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks
A.M

Unplug

A connection so clear
some feel but cannot see

A feeling so deep
Some hide it and others never find it

A voice so quiet
Only the blind can hear-
A soft whisper in a fierce breeze
wind chills the heart to distinguish
Horse and sheep
Lion and Snake -
Hunting for nourishment

Marching towards dry land;
Disguised pastures-
All hungry and few with purpose
A union of purity

Earth, sea and stream-Salt and sweet
Pain and purpose-peace
Heaven in lust
Corrupted harmony

Ego or purpose?

Self or love?

A.M

Fly The Ocean and Return To Me

Fly the ocean and return here
Fly the ocean and return here-
To my chest
for my chest

If you left
I'll wait for you
Mind only stays on you
That day
something more
something I couldn't predict

You passed by me
without my understanding
took all my senses

Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here

Living in my dreams
and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me
-
The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew

Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me…
to my chest
for my chest
-
Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here

Living in my dreams and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me

The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew

Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me….

to my chest
for my chest
to my chest Baby

A.M