Am I wrong to desire perfection
To search your body in every direction
To want you shivering mad
Desiring my every breath
Am I wrong to dream
To smell the scent of your skin
The taste of your lips
To feel the sway of hips
The pain in your grip
Am I wrong to dig
To seize your fears
Exasperate feelings
Breaking down to rebuild
To be the heroine in this story
Am I wrong to endure
When I’m in your eyes happiness is sure
Daring to dream, believing in feeling
Surpassing the reality we live in
Giving without resisting
Am I wrong to believe
You’ve tasted sweeter moments than these
Traveling far to feed the ego
To rule their hearts and be king
Each step is a mistake, our dream farther away
Am I wrong to wait
They want what you couldn’t take
Giving naught in return, not a heart, not a soul
Keeping it has been tough but being broken is worse
Am I wrong to pray
When I’m lost God shows me the way
There is no meant to be, just you turning around and meeting me
Hold on to faith, God guides us safe.
Am I wrong to understand
Pleasure and pain, intertwined polarities
To accept one and deny the other
Going where it feels better
You treat them like lepers, but you’re the one infected
Am I wrong to restrain
To never obey, to do it my way
Hurting their expectations
The life they drew for me
I’ve grown out of it
Drinking, to kill the man you portray
Cheating, to lose everything
Be the bigger man
Am I wrong to leave
To wish you farewell
That’s all that’s left now
No hand to hold, no heart, no soul
You foolishly love
So I leave you alone
Am I wrong
A.M
2010.
Wednesday, July 7, 2010
Sunday, July 4, 2010
Running After You
Running After You
The ones who knew you
Wept more than they laughed
They worried and never relaxed
I hated your power
I swore never to walk your tight rope
I ran away from you
I ran towards amorality and shallowness
I feared your fierce passion
So I choose a seasonless world
I ran into a world of cowards and passionless desires
A world in denial, replete with lies
Where everything isn't enough
And cravings are never contained
There the wells are filled with thirst
And the crops harvest hunger
The oceans are deserts overflowing with quicksand
A world filled with treats that never satisfy
Like a tasteless fruit that is always in season
A world of shadows and night crawlers
where abuse and over indulgence are glorified
Like a deep sleep
Filled with nightmares and passionless dreams
I expected lies and welcomed deceit
An endless marathon, a race against truth
A destructive lifestyle and a sad eternity
I don't remember when but you caught up with me
You couldn't stop me from running
So you shined your light on me
Your holy light quenched my thirst
And satiated my hunger
And for that instant I felt full
Full Of laughter
Full of warmth,
Full of meaning
Full of purpose
Full of You
And that's when I stopped running from you
And began to run after you, LOVE
A.M
2006
The ones who knew you
Wept more than they laughed
They worried and never relaxed
I hated your power
I swore never to walk your tight rope
I ran away from you
I ran towards amorality and shallowness
I feared your fierce passion
So I choose a seasonless world
I ran into a world of cowards and passionless desires
A world in denial, replete with lies
Where everything isn't enough
And cravings are never contained
There the wells are filled with thirst
And the crops harvest hunger
The oceans are deserts overflowing with quicksand
A world filled with treats that never satisfy
Like a tasteless fruit that is always in season
A world of shadows and night crawlers
where abuse and over indulgence are glorified
Like a deep sleep
Filled with nightmares and passionless dreams
I expected lies and welcomed deceit
An endless marathon, a race against truth
A destructive lifestyle and a sad eternity
I don't remember when but you caught up with me
You couldn't stop me from running
So you shined your light on me
Your holy light quenched my thirst
And satiated my hunger
And for that instant I felt full
Full Of laughter
Full of warmth,
Full of meaning
Full of purpose
Full of You
And that's when I stopped running from you
And began to run after you, LOVE
A.M
2006
Saturday, July 3, 2010
Embargoed Embarking
I
In a crisp fall night the sun brought back summer
His spotlight, a halo around us
You were a dragon, in famine, cold, frozen
Your lungs cracked as your skin melted
A fog of smoke surrounded us
As my radiance melted your iceberg
That night, you set out to find a spark
A little light to start your lungs
Dissolve your frozen tongue
Before the desperate hunt could begin
The fool you didn't want
The one you never hoped to find
In the agonizing night
Found you
II
A flaming spirit with qualities of an eternal
Her eyes sparkled innocence and she smiled luminous peace
Like the eyes of a child, she filled the air with vigor
Perfectly contoured, you knew she was not for your touch
So dear and clear, so pure and true, truth, too bright for you
Her eyes gave birth to a new universe
One of compassionate beauty,
Fathered by love and peace
A place of kindness, no room for men's greed for diamonds
A new world, God's private space
She made galaxies proudly orbit around you
Mistake, God, not meant to be seen by dead tides
You shone dim that night, hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
You suppressed wild currents and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then I saw, my eyes freed your currents
The lure of your blue, above all seas, fantasy waves drowned me
Dark and deep, gray stones surrounded your beach
I saw you but I didn't see
Bold and conceited, too assured to fear the weak
I made a request I knew you wouldn't refuse
More of your sound, more time, mere minutes
I took you, to have by, I took you
Took you home
III
You believed a woman's fire could kill
And refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You wrapped your hands around my waste
Swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise
Each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync
Together we formed the perfect symphony
In your embrace I was a harp
And you made me sound divine
Sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument
The passion, the devils divine perfection
Together, we created the sweetest sound
You span me round and round
Enfolded in your cold wings I was your dragon's heart
A doll, so light, so perfect
IV
You took heat from their flesh
Just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence
And made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your blue sky
I gave you my light!
Darkness followed me home that night
It knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling
V
Dumb doll
Uncontrollable claws of fire
Tearing through her flesh
Dragon frost kept me alive
Turned off the light in me
Freezing insides
Your touch, hotter than the moon's spot light
Sun dove in
Kisses, tight but slowly
Tongues licked off my innocent
Yours gave it back
The holy sensation of evil
You brought it back
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me
Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
Flaming stones of ice
Bright, burning black frost
The laughs
The faces we ripped
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks-
VI
I am not Immortal
But I am human enough to be unforgettable
Try, understand the waves of despair
My eyes generate through your mind
Believe in the spark of my touch
Igniting all that is rotten in your body
I stayed for the flames
For the fire you insist on putting out
All is possible when we touch
I am sure if we tried it in open air
We would float
Unusual, uncontrollable
Apologies are familiar
You feel it but you can't distinguish
I am your creation, a particle of your imagination
Made by magical fairies you hold at your command
I would mutate to survive in your world
With You is the only place I would escape to
Give up my celebrated solitude and grow horns with you
I remember what you stole from me that night
More than a kiss -a soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- you made your own
keep the peace you stole from me
So that I'll always feel your misery
VII
In a feud
It's been years
Since we've been running towards
And fighting against this demon
We can't understand it
So we give it to others
We can't control our passion
so we refuse it, refute it, prostitute it
We can't talk, so we kiss
We can't kiss, so we quietly leave
Silence seems to be our ally
And Love our Trojan horse
You fear it as if it were leper
And I embrace it as if it were my cross and I, Jesus
Months of silence
And minutes of total alliance
Without any pretense that we parted
Making plans to feel each other
In our world of make believe
In text all is possible between you and me
We simply do not acknowledge the grief
We are silly kids
Proud and empty
Wasting gifts we cannot replace
Exasperating feelings
Playing down the inevitable
Love has a pull on you and me
We feel
But only one sees
We want to touch
But our strings won't let us reach.
A.M
In a crisp fall night the sun brought back summer
His spotlight, a halo around us
You were a dragon, in famine, cold, frozen
Your lungs cracked as your skin melted
A fog of smoke surrounded us
As my radiance melted your iceberg
That night, you set out to find a spark
A little light to start your lungs
Dissolve your frozen tongue
Before the desperate hunt could begin
The fool you didn't want
The one you never hoped to find
In the agonizing night
Found you
II
A flaming spirit with qualities of an eternal
Her eyes sparkled innocence and she smiled luminous peace
Like the eyes of a child, she filled the air with vigor
Perfectly contoured, you knew she was not for your touch
So dear and clear, so pure and true, truth, too bright for you
Her eyes gave birth to a new universe
One of compassionate beauty,
Fathered by love and peace
A place of kindness, no room for men's greed for diamonds
A new world, God's private space
She made galaxies proudly orbit around you
Mistake, God, not meant to be seen by dead tides
You shone dim that night, hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
You suppressed wild currents and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then I saw, my eyes freed your currents
The lure of your blue, above all seas, fantasy waves drowned me
Dark and deep, gray stones surrounded your beach
I saw you but I didn't see
Bold and conceited, too assured to fear the weak
I made a request I knew you wouldn't refuse
More of your sound, more time, mere minutes
I took you, to have by, I took you
Took you home
III
You believed a woman's fire could kill
And refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You wrapped your hands around my waste
Swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise
Each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync
Together we formed the perfect symphony
In your embrace I was a harp
And you made me sound divine
Sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument
The passion, the devils divine perfection
Together, we created the sweetest sound
You span me round and round
Enfolded in your cold wings I was your dragon's heart
A doll, so light, so perfect
IV
You took heat from their flesh
Just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence
And made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your blue sky
I gave you my light!
Darkness followed me home that night
It knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling
V
Dumb doll
Uncontrollable claws of fire
Tearing through her flesh
Dragon frost kept me alive
Turned off the light in me
Freezing insides
Your touch, hotter than the moon's spot light
Sun dove in
Kisses, tight but slowly
Tongues licked off my innocent
Yours gave it back
The holy sensation of evil
You brought it back
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me
Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
Flaming stones of ice
Bright, burning black frost
The laughs
The faces we ripped
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks-
VI
I am not Immortal
But I am human enough to be unforgettable
Try, understand the waves of despair
My eyes generate through your mind
Believe in the spark of my touch
Igniting all that is rotten in your body
I stayed for the flames
For the fire you insist on putting out
All is possible when we touch
I am sure if we tried it in open air
We would float
Unusual, uncontrollable
Apologies are familiar
You feel it but you can't distinguish
I am your creation, a particle of your imagination
Made by magical fairies you hold at your command
I would mutate to survive in your world
With You is the only place I would escape to
Give up my celebrated solitude and grow horns with you
I remember what you stole from me that night
More than a kiss -a soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- you made your own
keep the peace you stole from me
So that I'll always feel your misery
VII
In a feud
It's been years
Since we've been running towards
And fighting against this demon
We can't understand it
So we give it to others
We can't control our passion
so we refuse it, refute it, prostitute it
We can't talk, so we kiss
We can't kiss, so we quietly leave
Silence seems to be our ally
And Love our Trojan horse
You fear it as if it were leper
And I embrace it as if it were my cross and I, Jesus
Months of silence
And minutes of total alliance
Without any pretense that we parted
Making plans to feel each other
In our world of make believe
In text all is possible between you and me
We simply do not acknowledge the grief
We are silly kids
Proud and empty
Wasting gifts we cannot replace
Exasperating feelings
Playing down the inevitable
Love has a pull on you and me
We feel
But only one sees
We want to touch
But our strings won't let us reach.
A.M
It’s not what you told me
It’s not what you told me
It’s what I told myself
I’m the only one who sees
They stand against you and me
What is it that enchants me
Transcends me
Eludes my limbic
Defeats reason
I want what I envision
What is it that I do not see
A beauty that could blind me
With you is where I’ll be
I’m reaching, you’re smiling
Standing still or hiding
Pull me up or let me go
To free fall in love
To live
To grow
It’s not what you asked
It’s what I’ve given
Untamed passion
Romantic expression
Unveiled purpose
Helpless, held
I can’t see myself
Forgotten behind bars
What a waste of heart
It’s not what you told me
It’s what I dreamed
That hunts my spirit
Memories float through my mind
From morning to night
I need you right now
For better or worse
To forgive and forget
Embrace your sickness
Be your everything
Who I thought you’d be
What you couldn’t believe
Who you ‘re not makes me
Completes me
If not forever than for a moment
I remember what you told me
But it’s what I told myself that hurts me
A.M
2010.
It’s what I told myself
I’m the only one who sees
They stand against you and me
What is it that enchants me
Transcends me
Eludes my limbic
Defeats reason
I want what I envision
What is it that I do not see
A beauty that could blind me
With you is where I’ll be
I’m reaching, you’re smiling
Standing still or hiding
Pull me up or let me go
To free fall in love
To live
To grow
It’s not what you asked
It’s what I’ve given
Untamed passion
Romantic expression
Unveiled purpose
Helpless, held
I can’t see myself
Forgotten behind bars
What a waste of heart
It’s not what you told me
It’s what I dreamed
That hunts my spirit
Memories float through my mind
From morning to night
I need you right now
For better or worse
To forgive and forget
Embrace your sickness
Be your everything
Who I thought you’d be
What you couldn’t believe
Who you ‘re not makes me
Completes me
If not forever than for a moment
I remember what you told me
But it’s what I told myself that hurts me
A.M
2010.
Tuesday, June 29, 2010
The Rain Comes
The rain comes
Sometimes death reaps at home
I stroll through the disaster
Squint my eyes to see lesser
Think aloud to top their voices
Describing the horror
Taunted by lives taken
Hunted by tragedy before it happens
I remember the bodies
Laying by the side of the road
Stored in my memory
Crime scene photos
And even after
The misery lingers
Thickens the air
Pity poisons my every breath
Pain corrodes my stomach
I remember not eating
Barely sleeping
Waking and wishing
I dreamed all the evil
That my friends were alive
All well, no catastrophe
But disaster happens
In me and around me
Polluting the ocean and killing wildlife
Tearing down homes
No rooms, no walls
No balls
All taken away in moments
Nature’s fury
Man’s only security
Hate placed in shots fired
Lingers long after
Revenge is pain
Accept what’s happening
The rain comes
Tears down your foundation
Takes your home
Kills your relatives
And you keep moving
Clear of the bastards shooting
In a storm but attempting to stay dry
Because you want the rain to come
Because you need life
You continue to fight for you
As they stack bodies
You remain while they cave
Tsunami waves and earth wakes
Makes us question our authority
Humans think they control
God’s laughing
Asking only that you are faithful
When building your temples
Before the rain comes
A.M
2010.
Sometimes death reaps at home
I stroll through the disaster
Squint my eyes to see lesser
Think aloud to top their voices
Describing the horror
Taunted by lives taken
Hunted by tragedy before it happens
I remember the bodies
Laying by the side of the road
Stored in my memory
Crime scene photos
And even after
The misery lingers
Thickens the air
Pity poisons my every breath
Pain corrodes my stomach
I remember not eating
Barely sleeping
Waking and wishing
I dreamed all the evil
That my friends were alive
All well, no catastrophe
But disaster happens
In me and around me
Polluting the ocean and killing wildlife
Tearing down homes
No rooms, no walls
No balls
All taken away in moments
Nature’s fury
Man’s only security
Hate placed in shots fired
Lingers long after
Revenge is pain
Accept what’s happening
The rain comes
Tears down your foundation
Takes your home
Kills your relatives
And you keep moving
Clear of the bastards shooting
In a storm but attempting to stay dry
Because you want the rain to come
Because you need life
You continue to fight for you
As they stack bodies
You remain while they cave
Tsunami waves and earth wakes
Makes us question our authority
Humans think they control
God’s laughing
Asking only that you are faithful
When building your temples
Before the rain comes
A.M
2010.
Monday, June 28, 2010
When We Two Parted
When we two parted
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.
They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well: -
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.
In secret we met -
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee? -
With silence and tears.
Lord Byron
In silence and tears,
Half broken-hearted,
To sever for years,
Pale grew thy cheek and cold,
Colder thy kiss;
Truly that hour foretold
Sorrow to this.
The dew of the morning
Sank chill on my brow -
It felt like the warning
Of what I feel now.
Thy vows are all broken,
And light is thy fame:
I hear thy name spoken,
And share in its shame.
They name thee before me,
A knell to mine ear;
A shudder comes o'er me -
Why wert thou so dear?
They know not I knew thee,
Who knew thee too well: -
Long, long shall I rue thee
Too deeply to tell.
In secret we met -
In silence I grieve
That thy heart could forget,
Thy spirit deceive.
If I should meet thee
After long years,
How should I greet thee? -
With silence and tears.
Lord Byron
Sunday, June 20, 2010
Far from Future
So far but right in front of me
Is it ill that for anguish unfelt I choose distance
For future pandemonium I retreat
Not wanting to touch
Not wanting to feel
You see, I met a lady named love
She showed me a world of miracles
A place we unite
Same energy, same body
For me, always a challenge
I read emotion
What you feel and what you don’t
If you could borrow my eyes you would understand
What I see and don’t know
If I might speak for your heart to hear
Could I touch your body
Allow you to feel me
Decipher my being
For the trouble one would not
Take more than one can give
To consume what you cannot bear
I won’t die a liar
I tell myself the truth
Don’t be a fool
For love unrequited is a dwelling tragedy
I desire naught
Take my time
Play in nature
And when they are done taking I need recharging
A refreshing of the spirit
Aware of what I want
In tune with what I feel
Conscious that I wish you here
A.M
2010.
Inspired by F.S.Jr.
Is it ill that for anguish unfelt I choose distance
For future pandemonium I retreat
Not wanting to touch
Not wanting to feel
You see, I met a lady named love
She showed me a world of miracles
A place we unite
Same energy, same body
For me, always a challenge
I read emotion
What you feel and what you don’t
If you could borrow my eyes you would understand
What I see and don’t know
If I might speak for your heart to hear
Could I touch your body
Allow you to feel me
Decipher my being
For the trouble one would not
Take more than one can give
To consume what you cannot bear
I won’t die a liar
I tell myself the truth
Don’t be a fool
For love unrequited is a dwelling tragedy
I desire naught
Take my time
Play in nature
And when they are done taking I need recharging
A refreshing of the spirit
Aware of what I want
In tune with what I feel
Conscious that I wish you here
A.M
2010.
Inspired by F.S.Jr.
Wednesday, June 16, 2010
Fallen Angel
Fallen Angel
You are beyond a love within-
An extension of my soul
Your beauty exults my heart
Feeds me purpose
You spread joy throughout my body
And glistens through my pores
Our past consumes our love
Stirs up hate in our blood
Fear feeds on old wounds
And inflicts on the new
But my wounds no longer hurt
And where they lay I cannot see
For your love overwhelms
Heals all that is impure
Erases past misfortunes
And fills my vacant holes
Fallen Angel
In screaming silence
Behind your blinding beauty
A dimming spirit drowns
I see beyond your vacant stare
Your soul exclaims grief
And calls upon me
When lightning strikes your heart
And awakens your sorrow
Put on your wings and fight your demons
Raise your sword
And my love will strengthen your might
Confront the wind
And my light will guide you through the storm
With an open heart and a beaming smile
I'll be waiting in our cloud
We'll dance around in silence
And let our hearts speak in thought
I'll embrace you in my wings
And the warmth in my smile
Will silently reassure you-
I understand your sorrow
Fallen Angel
Drink from my faith
And quench your purpose
Feast on my love
And satiate your spirit
Come to me
When you're sad
Lonely and even mad
I'll hug you tight and kiss your eye
Tickle your frown upside down
I'll impersonate your favorite comic
Deviate you from your worries
I'll reenact our favorite nights
And add a little spice
I'll take you in
When you're cold
Battered and hopeless
I'll alleviate your burden
Embrace your loss as my misfortune
I'll wash your pain with my tears
Absorb all your stress and fear
And if you don't want to talk
We can take a silent walk
I'll embrace your broken heart
Without ever asking cause
Fallen Angel
Your eyes of reason
Showed me essential horrors
Our Love
Gave life to my art
Dimmed my blinding halo
Revealed a depriving consciousness
Enlightened!
Ignited poetic passion
Harmonized my righteous seclusion
Showed me darkness illusion
Heightened my sympathy--
A cruel world in disbelief
Sharpened my logic--
Suppress resistance- free impulses
Sculpted my poet's soul
United pain and love
Fallen Angel
Our splendor thrives
The proof is in our eyes
My passion and peace
Your devotion and loyalty
My eloquence, your reason
Still Intrigues us
Humorous chemistry
Infatuation everlasting
Unleashed passion
Freeing ecstasy
Divine release!
Our beauty combined is our antidote
It heals our sorrow and frees our soul
United, my Love and your honor
Is our golden ticket to Heaven
A.M
You are beyond a love within-
An extension of my soul
Your beauty exults my heart
Feeds me purpose
You spread joy throughout my body
And glistens through my pores
Our past consumes our love
Stirs up hate in our blood
Fear feeds on old wounds
And inflicts on the new
But my wounds no longer hurt
And where they lay I cannot see
For your love overwhelms
Heals all that is impure
Erases past misfortunes
And fills my vacant holes
Fallen Angel
In screaming silence
Behind your blinding beauty
A dimming spirit drowns
I see beyond your vacant stare
Your soul exclaims grief
And calls upon me
When lightning strikes your heart
And awakens your sorrow
Put on your wings and fight your demons
Raise your sword
And my love will strengthen your might
Confront the wind
And my light will guide you through the storm
With an open heart and a beaming smile
I'll be waiting in our cloud
We'll dance around in silence
And let our hearts speak in thought
I'll embrace you in my wings
And the warmth in my smile
Will silently reassure you-
I understand your sorrow
Fallen Angel
Drink from my faith
And quench your purpose
Feast on my love
And satiate your spirit
Come to me
When you're sad
Lonely and even mad
I'll hug you tight and kiss your eye
Tickle your frown upside down
I'll impersonate your favorite comic
Deviate you from your worries
I'll reenact our favorite nights
And add a little spice
I'll take you in
When you're cold
Battered and hopeless
I'll alleviate your burden
Embrace your loss as my misfortune
I'll wash your pain with my tears
Absorb all your stress and fear
And if you don't want to talk
We can take a silent walk
I'll embrace your broken heart
Without ever asking cause
Fallen Angel
Your eyes of reason
Showed me essential horrors
Our Love
Gave life to my art
Dimmed my blinding halo
Revealed a depriving consciousness
Enlightened!
Ignited poetic passion
Harmonized my righteous seclusion
Showed me darkness illusion
Heightened my sympathy--
A cruel world in disbelief
Sharpened my logic--
Suppress resistance- free impulses
Sculpted my poet's soul
United pain and love
Fallen Angel
Our splendor thrives
The proof is in our eyes
My passion and peace
Your devotion and loyalty
My eloquence, your reason
Still Intrigues us
Humorous chemistry
Infatuation everlasting
Unleashed passion
Freeing ecstasy
Divine release!
Our beauty combined is our antidote
It heals our sorrow and frees our soul
United, my Love and your honor
Is our golden ticket to Heaven
A.M
Saturday, June 12, 2010
Moving Slow
We move slow
And we think everything is far
Separated by time and space
Parted by light
Illusive distance
Get over here, stop wasting
Some people are so basic
They need to upgrade the cable in their heads
The universe conspired to join us
If you’re “Madly in love” than you’re probably MAD!
Doing, saying, writing, the same thing
Expecting a different result, insane
These are our daily missions
You win some and you lose some
Move on, on to the next one
There is nothing else on my mind
Once you enter
Maybe it’s unfair
To want you so badly
To love madly
Lose all clarity
We are not truly happy
Until we embrace the present
Give thanks for all we have
And attempt to give as much back as we are given
But we move very slow
And we think everything is far
I march at my own pace
Going fast or slow
Depending on how far
How much you’ve given
Can you match me
Raise me
Share your everything
That’s my offer
But you move very slowly
And think everything is far
Until it hits you and you wake up
A.M
2010.
And we think everything is far
Separated by time and space
Parted by light
Illusive distance
Get over here, stop wasting
Some people are so basic
They need to upgrade the cable in their heads
The universe conspired to join us
If you’re “Madly in love” than you’re probably MAD!
Doing, saying, writing, the same thing
Expecting a different result, insane
These are our daily missions
You win some and you lose some
Move on, on to the next one
There is nothing else on my mind
Once you enter
Maybe it’s unfair
To want you so badly
To love madly
Lose all clarity
We are not truly happy
Until we embrace the present
Give thanks for all we have
And attempt to give as much back as we are given
But we move very slow
And we think everything is far
I march at my own pace
Going fast or slow
Depending on how far
How much you’ve given
Can you match me
Raise me
Share your everything
That’s my offer
But you move very slowly
And think everything is far
Until it hits you and you wake up
A.M
2010.
Buy You
I sense you around
You are here
Laying beside me
Your smell , our chemistry
No regrets, I get it now
I longed to touch
Now I love without desire
I hear your voice, painfully clear
Your shadow follows me everywhere
You are skeptical, It ‘s ok
My love is unconditional
That’s the beauty of it
Detachment
If I own it- it’s a property
This is a gift, you’re my blessing
Chance is “hopeless” against love’s will
Brave hearts are bound to find each other
In a sea of devotion and loyalty
Where love is the star- there are no limits
Throughout every dimension
My love sees all
Another day goes by
Night Falls upon us
I express our love
My heart finds you and we dream
I kiss you and you fall asleep
Awake in my fantasies
Creating, preparing
When I step into the light it will be blinding
You will be beside me
When I read our letters
For the beauty appreciated in our union
What I planted will bloom
Eternal love for me and you
A.M
2010.
You are here
Laying beside me
Your smell , our chemistry
No regrets, I get it now
I longed to touch
Now I love without desire
I hear your voice, painfully clear
Your shadow follows me everywhere
You are skeptical, It ‘s ok
My love is unconditional
That’s the beauty of it
Detachment
If I own it- it’s a property
This is a gift, you’re my blessing
Chance is “hopeless” against love’s will
Brave hearts are bound to find each other
In a sea of devotion and loyalty
Where love is the star- there are no limits
Throughout every dimension
My love sees all
Another day goes by
Night Falls upon us
I express our love
My heart finds you and we dream
I kiss you and you fall asleep
Awake in my fantasies
Creating, preparing
When I step into the light it will be blinding
You will be beside me
When I read our letters
For the beauty appreciated in our union
What I planted will bloom
Eternal love for me and you
A.M
2010.
Tuesday, June 8, 2010
To love you
To Love you
To know how to speak from the heart
Express my point of view
My side of the story
To listen to your heart
To know what you want through the gesture in your eyes
To love you
A duty, a gift, a blessing
To have you, please you, give to you
To know the language your body speaks
To love you
A reason to write, to want, dream, desire
To love you
To know your soul, to feel your spirit
To understand your virtues, accept your principles
Share your ideals, to be one in love
To belong
To love you is to need you
To know you
To let go and understand we’re just passing
Like clouds in the sky we float round
Going where the wind takes us
To love you is to know there is no certainty in love
It’s to care for you with all the love in my heart
To hear you, forgive you
Be with you, to keep you
To love you
A.M
2010.
To know how to speak from the heart
Express my point of view
My side of the story
To listen to your heart
To know what you want through the gesture in your eyes
To love you
A duty, a gift, a blessing
To have you, please you, give to you
To know the language your body speaks
To love you
A reason to write, to want, dream, desire
To love you
To know your soul, to feel your spirit
To understand your virtues, accept your principles
Share your ideals, to be one in love
To belong
To love you is to need you
To know you
To let go and understand we’re just passing
Like clouds in the sky we float round
Going where the wind takes us
To love you is to know there is no certainty in love
It’s to care for you with all the love in my heart
To hear you, forgive you
Be with you, to keep you
To love you
A.M
2010.
Monday, May 31, 2010
Echoes
Echoes of past dialogue
Shadowed by a past lover
Your presence continues to follow my emotions
Memories of the past won’t let me enjoy the present
How can it be any different
I get what I want but It’s never enough
So I chase you around through my life’s playground
And you seem to be calm but inside you are raging
Bottled emotions, unsatisfied lust
Unfulfilled fantasies stuck in traffic
You had me, don’t need me
long to deceive me
So the past becomes the present
And the present the past
Even in my shower you hunt me\
Pouring throughout me
And why kiss lips if not the most perfect
And why hold hands if not the warmest
Why go through life without letting you know
Our past consumes our love
I need not be near to understand
I get what you don’t want me to know
And when they hold me I feel your grip
Where they loved me I’ve only been once or twice
Don’t really care for attention if not that of your eyes
So If you don’t care than I’m not flaunting
No need for a spotlight if you’re not looking
Can our love make it through
The affairs, the abuse
Then let the dreams we conceived breath
You’re killing me
In dreams of the past in present disguise
I reach for your hands
Cling to your smile
And wish for a present with you in my sight
A.M
2010.
Shadowed by a past lover
Your presence continues to follow my emotions
Memories of the past won’t let me enjoy the present
How can it be any different
I get what I want but It’s never enough
So I chase you around through my life’s playground
And you seem to be calm but inside you are raging
Bottled emotions, unsatisfied lust
Unfulfilled fantasies stuck in traffic
You had me, don’t need me
long to deceive me
So the past becomes the present
And the present the past
Even in my shower you hunt me\
Pouring throughout me
And why kiss lips if not the most perfect
And why hold hands if not the warmest
Why go through life without letting you know
Our past consumes our love
I need not be near to understand
I get what you don’t want me to know
And when they hold me I feel your grip
Where they loved me I’ve only been once or twice
Don’t really care for attention if not that of your eyes
So If you don’t care than I’m not flaunting
No need for a spotlight if you’re not looking
Can our love make it through
The affairs, the abuse
Then let the dreams we conceived breath
You’re killing me
In dreams of the past in present disguise
I reach for your hands
Cling to your smile
And wish for a present with you in my sight
A.M
2010.
Friday, May 28, 2010
Blissful Doom
I endeared cupid's magic from a cloud
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
(Mystified)
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings
II
I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit
A.M
His mischievous arrow blew me down
I Alighted here in your arms
(Mystified)
I hesitate to flee
In guarding arms I luxuriate
Intrigued by unparallel beauty
I forget to hide
Your majestic eyes delight
Enchanted I don't want to leave
To fulfill your divine fantasies
I'd give up my halo and lose my wings
II
I unlock my heavenly gates
And allow you into my soul
Your vigorous light burns through me
I bathe in love's pond
And drink from his sacred spring
Your vision deceives
You fall trapped between my flesh
My tender skin accommodate your desires
And you rejoice in beauty
Your touch is sensual and inviting
My face glows excitingly
You incite the forbidden
And I passionately embrace it
You Indulge in my heavenly love
And savor my petal's sweetness
In raptures you feast on my nectar
My euphoric heart trembles
And my breath weakens
You exult my body and drain my spirit
And into hell I am delivered
The glaze in your eyes reveal your state
Your dynamic beauty glows bright
Your skin perspires grace
Condemned and contented
Delighted and damned
I lost excellence and you gained spirit
A.M
Every Part of You
Just as the everlasting attraction
between the sun and the moon-
You play with my oceans tide
Your desire for me raises and falls
You want me now then you dont want me at all
A part of you stretches out to pull me near
and another tries its hardest to forget
A part of you has given me love
and another does not know me
A part of you sees me as a fleeting ship
disappearing into the mist
While another holds on to my anchor and embraces our love
My heart is lost waiting for these parts of you
How can I appear distant and blurry-
when I am anchored to your heart
In the midst of your yes's and your no's
I hang on and insist in the seconds
that you want me for an instant
For
in those moments- you are my God and my religion
My all
heart and soul
God's sacred feast-
what i live for
Who knows when
someday, somehow,
one kiss, one moment-
might awaken a desire
and the part of this love that is missing
l want you so
Every part of you
A.M
2006.
between the sun and the moon-
You play with my oceans tide
Your desire for me raises and falls
You want me now then you dont want me at all
A part of you stretches out to pull me near
and another tries its hardest to forget
A part of you has given me love
and another does not know me
A part of you sees me as a fleeting ship
disappearing into the mist
While another holds on to my anchor and embraces our love
My heart is lost waiting for these parts of you
How can I appear distant and blurry-
when I am anchored to your heart
In the midst of your yes's and your no's
I hang on and insist in the seconds
that you want me for an instant
For
in those moments- you are my God and my religion
My all
heart and soul
God's sacred feast-
what i live for
Who knows when
someday, somehow,
one kiss, one moment-
might awaken a desire
and the part of this love that is missing
l want you so
Every part of you
A.M
2006.
You're Always With Me
You're Always With Me
You bring light to my day and awaken my horizons
As the sun's warmth enters through my window and kisses my cheeks
I picture your sweet lips caressing me
I see you throughout my day
And in all of the places we've laid
Your shadow still remains
I see you when I shower,
There you are the water pouring down my body
You're with me when I am driving,
Sitting beside me, holding my hand and smiling
You're with me as darkness falls
We lay back and count stars
You're with me in my dreams
There you are mine and I can do to you as I wish
But then the sun rises again
Lighting my day and caressing my cheeks
Awakening me to another day with only your memories
A.M
You bring light to my day and awaken my horizons
As the sun's warmth enters through my window and kisses my cheeks
I picture your sweet lips caressing me
I see you throughout my day
And in all of the places we've laid
Your shadow still remains
I see you when I shower,
There you are the water pouring down my body
You're with me when I am driving,
Sitting beside me, holding my hand and smiling
You're with me as darkness falls
We lay back and count stars
You're with me in my dreams
There you are mine and I can do to you as I wish
But then the sun rises again
Lighting my day and caressing my cheeks
Awakening me to another day with only your memories
A.M
Tuesday, May 25, 2010
Loving On The Run
Loving on the run
It was long ago but I remember
I had love, a heart to call my own
There were fights, struggles
But at the end of the day, in his embrace there was peace
with the knowledge that someone out there believed in me blindly
No matter how insecure I become I knew I could count on my beloved to save me,
strengthen me, comfort me, defend, protect me
Somewhere down the road I decided to give that up
No more safety blanket, no more secure heart
I lean on me, break my own fall
I get my loving on the run, when I get some
I want to grow in heart, my ability to care, love, understand
Support the ones I love without expectations
I want a clear vision
I’ve loved the wrong people and the wrong people have loved me
My reason for allowing a commitment were insufficient
And my obsession with getting them to love me has brought me much pain and suffering
I’ve hurt and confused, as much as I been hurt and confused
From now on, I want to live without strings
To give, to love, without labels
To selflessly care for those who need me
To be a strong link, able to love and care for those in need of blind compassion
Without the need of ego gratification
with the simple desire to be a part of something bigger than me
I don’t want to live alone
Love alone , conquer fears alone
Attain my desires alone
I want to live and share my heart with everyone
My body is a tool I’ll use to accomplish my soul’s desires
A healthy heart will allow me to walk the path to my dreams
A fit body will carry my heart through the paths that my mind chooses
So I must keep a healthy mind, clear of negative thoughts for a bright future
For darkness brings not light but blindness
The things I want are in the future
They are new and made of something I never had
Therefore I cannot expect to attain these things If I insist on bringing dreams of the past with me
For the dreams of the past have already been carried out, If not by you then by others
We cannot carry the past into the future, change or recreate it as it once was
I must create new dreams and realize them
I do not carry my mistakes into my future , I carry an understanding of the result of my past actions
I allow myself to change direction, To grow in new ways, To desire new things, new shapes
I allow myself to want more and need less, To care and be cared for, To love and expect nothing in return
I want a clearer vision of the world, An honest view of my heart and my part in life
Real feelings without superficial reason, Passion without ulterior motives
I want to feel everything with love, with the understanding that I am in control of my feelings,
my heart, my emotions
I do not need to recreate happy moments
I want to experience happy actions and reactions
I want to learn the art of feeling good
The art of making life good
I don’t want to feel as good as before but better
For it can be limiting to wish a past condition or a new version of it
Just a thought
A.M
It was long ago but I remember
I had love, a heart to call my own
There were fights, struggles
But at the end of the day, in his embrace there was peace
with the knowledge that someone out there believed in me blindly
No matter how insecure I become I knew I could count on my beloved to save me,
strengthen me, comfort me, defend, protect me
Somewhere down the road I decided to give that up
No more safety blanket, no more secure heart
I lean on me, break my own fall
I get my loving on the run, when I get some
I want to grow in heart, my ability to care, love, understand
Support the ones I love without expectations
I want a clear vision
I’ve loved the wrong people and the wrong people have loved me
My reason for allowing a commitment were insufficient
And my obsession with getting them to love me has brought me much pain and suffering
I’ve hurt and confused, as much as I been hurt and confused
From now on, I want to live without strings
To give, to love, without labels
To selflessly care for those who need me
To be a strong link, able to love and care for those in need of blind compassion
Without the need of ego gratification
with the simple desire to be a part of something bigger than me
I don’t want to live alone
Love alone , conquer fears alone
Attain my desires alone
I want to live and share my heart with everyone
My body is a tool I’ll use to accomplish my soul’s desires
A healthy heart will allow me to walk the path to my dreams
A fit body will carry my heart through the paths that my mind chooses
So I must keep a healthy mind, clear of negative thoughts for a bright future
For darkness brings not light but blindness
The things I want are in the future
They are new and made of something I never had
Therefore I cannot expect to attain these things If I insist on bringing dreams of the past with me
For the dreams of the past have already been carried out, If not by you then by others
We cannot carry the past into the future, change or recreate it as it once was
I must create new dreams and realize them
I do not carry my mistakes into my future , I carry an understanding of the result of my past actions
I allow myself to change direction, To grow in new ways, To desire new things, new shapes
I allow myself to want more and need less, To care and be cared for, To love and expect nothing in return
I want a clearer vision of the world, An honest view of my heart and my part in life
Real feelings without superficial reason, Passion without ulterior motives
I want to feel everything with love, with the understanding that I am in control of my feelings,
my heart, my emotions
I do not need to recreate happy moments
I want to experience happy actions and reactions
I want to learn the art of feeling good
The art of making life good
I don’t want to feel as good as before but better
For it can be limiting to wish a past condition or a new version of it
Just a thought
A.M
While I Wait
While I wait
I wonder, how you heal
How does your heart feel
Are you at ease with your logic’s decision
Can you sense my affliction
I wonder if you get impatient
For my days are shadowed with doubt
My heart is heavy, my breath is weak
I am out in the light but my skin is cold as ice
Sunlight does not penetrate my eyes
I’ve come a long way to be near you
Now I am close in body and far in thought
Far from your heart’s desire
You do not write or call
Leaving it up to chance if we should meet again
I don’t understand a love so passive
You see, for me the urge is constant
I see your face when I awake
Desire your touch throughout the day
I want to look into your eyes and feel your heart’s warmth
I need to wrap my arms around you and feel you close
It’s the only way I know
A.M
2010.
I wonder, how you heal
How does your heart feel
Are you at ease with your logic’s decision
Can you sense my affliction
I wonder if you get impatient
For my days are shadowed with doubt
My heart is heavy, my breath is weak
I am out in the light but my skin is cold as ice
Sunlight does not penetrate my eyes
I’ve come a long way to be near you
Now I am close in body and far in thought
Far from your heart’s desire
You do not write or call
Leaving it up to chance if we should meet again
I don’t understand a love so passive
You see, for me the urge is constant
I see your face when I awake
Desire your touch throughout the day
I want to look into your eyes and feel your heart’s warmth
I need to wrap my arms around you and feel you close
It’s the only way I know
A.M
2010.
Interdependent
If love is the desire to share your best
experience the best of everything with the one you want
Then I love
There is no logic in our union
There is no sense in love
Accepting or rejecting doesn’t change reality
Denying love doesn’t stop its growth
Ego illusions may elude the senses
Make believe an ideal love
But love isn’t conceived of reason
It’s a reaction of souls
Awareness shows us what is, what isn’t and what can be
Give up the struggle, let nature take its course
Resistance impairs growth
Accept the love given to you
Respect every compassionate gesture
Don’t deny those who love you
They are there for a reason
You need their love as much as they need to give it
Compassion fuels the souls journey
For when we seek love and understanding we find awareness
Caring for others is caring for yourself
Acceptance is living
Pride impairs reason
Awareness knows no ego
Detached from self we are infinite
Experiencing life in synch with reality
Conscious of a interdependent existence
A.M
2009.
experience the best of everything with the one you want
Then I love
There is no logic in our union
There is no sense in love
Accepting or rejecting doesn’t change reality
Denying love doesn’t stop its growth
Ego illusions may elude the senses
Make believe an ideal love
But love isn’t conceived of reason
It’s a reaction of souls
Awareness shows us what is, what isn’t and what can be
Give up the struggle, let nature take its course
Resistance impairs growth
Accept the love given to you
Respect every compassionate gesture
Don’t deny those who love you
They are there for a reason
You need their love as much as they need to give it
Compassion fuels the souls journey
For when we seek love and understanding we find awareness
Caring for others is caring for yourself
Acceptance is living
Pride impairs reason
Awareness knows no ego
Detached from self we are infinite
Experiencing life in synch with reality
Conscious of a interdependent existence
A.M
2009.
Each Day
Each day...
I dive into a sea of remembrance
Bittersweet memories awakens my body
Fantasy waves revive me
The desire to have you, my ecstasy reality
Pain, love, tenderness, touch…
Reliving our experience is electrifying
My heart floats away from me, my soul laughs and giggles
Divine energy fills my veins…righteous ideas…
Oh, Fairy tales of love
Each day…
To look into your eyes, pure fantasy
Oh, the desire you stir within me
Your body… mine, touch filled with curiosity
I get lost in this dream of you, play make believe with you
Oh the light inside you, the good I see within you
My heart plays, laughs with you...And I dream
Each day...
This feeling moves me
Transforms me, builds me--continues to fool me
I see you not with eyes but my soul’s vision
And now--knowing you--knowing the joy
Of another heart lighting up mine
It's a feeling I want in my life
I want you in my life
However, whenever, wherever
I want you in my life
Each day
A.M
I dive into a sea of remembrance
Bittersweet memories awakens my body
Fantasy waves revive me
The desire to have you, my ecstasy reality
Pain, love, tenderness, touch…
Reliving our experience is electrifying
My heart floats away from me, my soul laughs and giggles
Divine energy fills my veins…righteous ideas…
Oh, Fairy tales of love
Each day…
To look into your eyes, pure fantasy
Oh, the desire you stir within me
Your body… mine, touch filled with curiosity
I get lost in this dream of you, play make believe with you
Oh the light inside you, the good I see within you
My heart plays, laughs with you...And I dream
Each day...
This feeling moves me
Transforms me, builds me--continues to fool me
I see you not with eyes but my soul’s vision
And now--knowing you--knowing the joy
Of another heart lighting up mine
It's a feeling I want in my life
I want you in my life
However, whenever, wherever
I want you in my life
Each day
A.M
Compassion
Know that everything you do has purpose
There is a reason why you're doing what you're doing
You decide your path and life uses you along the way
Until you get to where you want to be and succeed
Stay the path, don’t follow off, love yourself , your choices
On your way there, stop and breath
Appreciate the going and the going gets easy
For where I am headed all I need is my heart
"So I’m there writing this, and getting caught in my "choices"
I do my best, for me that’s enough
I don’t judge, I don’t mean harm nor wished it be done
The basics, remember?
You must love the music
You must want life
You have to want to hear it
That’s the way to God - “Speech”
Have a voice and God will help you
Have a say and God will protect you
Don’t let them tell you how to live your life
Love yourself, take care of you and you’ll take care of everything
The universe will work with your thoughts and deliver your present
We’re connected, through God, to God
Lets get on the same path, success!
Do our best together, team Earth
Do it for your future, for your kid’s future
Be compassionate, share understannding
Grow, ascend, care for each other
We're all on the same path, "Life"!
A.M
There is a reason why you're doing what you're doing
You decide your path and life uses you along the way
Until you get to where you want to be and succeed
Stay the path, don’t follow off, love yourself , your choices
On your way there, stop and breath
Appreciate the going and the going gets easy
For where I am headed all I need is my heart
"So I’m there writing this, and getting caught in my "choices"
I do my best, for me that’s enough
I don’t judge, I don’t mean harm nor wished it be done
The basics, remember?
You must love the music
You must want life
You have to want to hear it
That’s the way to God - “Speech”
Have a voice and God will help you
Have a say and God will protect you
Don’t let them tell you how to live your life
Love yourself, take care of you and you’ll take care of everything
The universe will work with your thoughts and deliver your present
We’re connected, through God, to God
Lets get on the same path, success!
Do our best together, team Earth
Do it for your future, for your kid’s future
Be compassionate, share understannding
Grow, ascend, care for each other
We're all on the same path, "Life"!
A.M
Lover's Hate
And yes, I will leave you. Now and forever
And if my body shall ever meet with yours it will be for my soul‘s pleasure.
I desire not a kiss from your wretched lips
I’ll forget, who you are, who we were, how we met
And I’ll remember your mean words when my soul calls to yours
How can a heart be so cold, feel so old?
Love is enough, a terrifying rollercoaster with you
I've loved you throughout the mistakes
I am forever and so my love remains
So I leave the idea of a world with you
and move on to a world without you near
Endearing, to believe we can fill our lives and determine roles for people
What role do you take? I'm behind the scenes asking the producer
Why didn’t you film it the way I wrote it?
Hey, you can’t have a say in everything
“Sometimes you’re fucked from the jump”
So we play our parts, and make the “best“ of the “best” we get?
But what is best? And how do you know once you’ve got it?
I can say I’ve shared the best, and for me that will always be enough
I loved wholeheartedly, without one shallow bone in my body
There was never bad timing, only lazy loving
Isn’t that why we're here
To love, to care for those we choose to intereact with
But specially to cultivate your life
So I take care of me and pray for the good in you
Are you sticking to the script, is it working?
Are you happy?
Happy is accepting the now and having no hate from your past
Are you really here?
Because I stand before you, a memory of love, and you hate me? That cannot exist
Where there is love there is hate, but where there is no love there is no opposition
You are a link, nothing more
To believe me, to adopt a new idea of the world seems unreal
Leonardo Da Vinci said it best” He who is fixed to a star does not change his mind”
I’ve been a friend to you and you are blind to that
Maybe you don’t know full independence, I’ve had it all my life
Love isn’t always where you are at, but it is always with you
Loving to hate me
A.M
2010.
And if my body shall ever meet with yours it will be for my soul‘s pleasure.
I desire not a kiss from your wretched lips
I’ll forget, who you are, who we were, how we met
And I’ll remember your mean words when my soul calls to yours
How can a heart be so cold, feel so old?
Love is enough, a terrifying rollercoaster with you
I've loved you throughout the mistakes
I am forever and so my love remains
So I leave the idea of a world with you
and move on to a world without you near
Endearing, to believe we can fill our lives and determine roles for people
What role do you take? I'm behind the scenes asking the producer
Why didn’t you film it the way I wrote it?
Hey, you can’t have a say in everything
“Sometimes you’re fucked from the jump”
So we play our parts, and make the “best“ of the “best” we get?
But what is best? And how do you know once you’ve got it?
I can say I’ve shared the best, and for me that will always be enough
I loved wholeheartedly, without one shallow bone in my body
There was never bad timing, only lazy loving
Isn’t that why we're here
To love, to care for those we choose to intereact with
But specially to cultivate your life
So I take care of me and pray for the good in you
Are you sticking to the script, is it working?
Are you happy?
Happy is accepting the now and having no hate from your past
Are you really here?
Because I stand before you, a memory of love, and you hate me? That cannot exist
Where there is love there is hate, but where there is no love there is no opposition
You are a link, nothing more
To believe me, to adopt a new idea of the world seems unreal
Leonardo Da Vinci said it best” He who is fixed to a star does not change his mind”
I’ve been a friend to you and you are blind to that
Maybe you don’t know full independence, I’ve had it all my life
Love isn’t always where you are at, but it is always with you
Loving to hate me
A.M
2010.
Taking
Taking
You came into my life and you took
My time, my senses
I told you I was falling
You said you weren’t sure
How was I suppose to know?
You were taking from my love
From my family, from my friends
Moments I could of spent with them I cried alone in bed
Loving, sharing all my words with you
All my sweetness onto you
I splayed my heart to love you whole
My mind clings to you, my hands reach for you, my lips desire you
Because you took from me
Kisses, months, years
A fiancé, a boyfriend, you took from me
Love complete, you took from me
All I wanted, you took from me
All I shared, you shared with them
And I want it back
I’m taking back what you took from me
And this time I wont’ be merciful
I’m loving you until you’re sick and asking to be cured
I’m loving Baby, that’s how I’m getting you back
You see, there is no pay back, there is no past, there is only love
And at the speed I’m loving I’m catching up fast
So when I sweep you off your feel It’ll be quickly
Fulfilling the prophecy” I always get what I need”
So don’t worry about what you want, I got it for you
When everything feels right those questions will be answered
And I will reclaim everything you stole plus interest
I’m not playing baby, I’m loving
So fast, so much, so sweet, you are unable to see
But when I choose to reveal, the body I choose to conceal
You will see, everything you want I’ve been keeping
The truth is, I’ve taken from you
From your time, from your friends
From your truth, your desires
I’ve taken from your mind, thoughts
I’ve molded you, shaped your virtues
We’ve grown together, shaping each other’s perceptions
I took from you, from your prejudice, misery, rules
I took you by storm and I let you take me
Into this hurricane I find myself caught in
You’re being pushed away from me
I’m holding on to our home, clinging to my love
Until the storm is over
And you’re dried and sober
And we take it all over
What they took from us
I'm taking it back baby
A.M
You came into my life and you took
My time, my senses
I told you I was falling
You said you weren’t sure
How was I suppose to know?
You were taking from my love
From my family, from my friends
Moments I could of spent with them I cried alone in bed
Loving, sharing all my words with you
All my sweetness onto you
I splayed my heart to love you whole
My mind clings to you, my hands reach for you, my lips desire you
Because you took from me
Kisses, months, years
A fiancé, a boyfriend, you took from me
Love complete, you took from me
All I wanted, you took from me
All I shared, you shared with them
And I want it back
I’m taking back what you took from me
And this time I wont’ be merciful
I’m loving you until you’re sick and asking to be cured
I’m loving Baby, that’s how I’m getting you back
You see, there is no pay back, there is no past, there is only love
And at the speed I’m loving I’m catching up fast
So when I sweep you off your feel It’ll be quickly
Fulfilling the prophecy” I always get what I need”
So don’t worry about what you want, I got it for you
When everything feels right those questions will be answered
And I will reclaim everything you stole plus interest
I’m not playing baby, I’m loving
So fast, so much, so sweet, you are unable to see
But when I choose to reveal, the body I choose to conceal
You will see, everything you want I’ve been keeping
The truth is, I’ve taken from you
From your time, from your friends
From your truth, your desires
I’ve taken from your mind, thoughts
I’ve molded you, shaped your virtues
We’ve grown together, shaping each other’s perceptions
I took from you, from your prejudice, misery, rules
I took you by storm and I let you take me
Into this hurricane I find myself caught in
You’re being pushed away from me
I’m holding on to our home, clinging to my love
Until the storm is over
And you’re dried and sober
And we take it all over
What they took from us
I'm taking it back baby
A.M
Friday, May 21, 2010
Over
When he looks at me, It fills me
Every part of me, replete!
With peace, with love
With the certainty that at that moment all is right
(I’m where I’m suppose to be)
When his eyes reach for mine
All is possible and nothing matters
I’m lifted to a place of light
(I‘m in Heaven)
My sense of smell heightens
My skin chills
I want to touch , embrace
Nervous, anxious I wait
(Inside I am crying)
I am the queen of goodbyes
But this time he wears the crown
It’s harder than I envisioned
(A game of losers)
I want to speak
Express my need
But what do you do with a heart that has no love for you
Accept it
(It’s over between us)
A.M
2010.
Every part of me, replete!
With peace, with love
With the certainty that at that moment all is right
(I’m where I’m suppose to be)
When his eyes reach for mine
All is possible and nothing matters
I’m lifted to a place of light
(I‘m in Heaven)
My sense of smell heightens
My skin chills
I want to touch , embrace
Nervous, anxious I wait
(Inside I am crying)
I am the queen of goodbyes
But this time he wears the crown
It’s harder than I envisioned
(A game of losers)
I want to speak
Express my need
But what do you do with a heart that has no love for you
Accept it
(It’s over between us)
A.M
2010.
Today
When you want to write and words come pouring out
And being accused is no longer a reason to justify my acts
I’m so patient, they can’t embrace it
What do I know ?
Why are they running?
What are they running from?
Farmed society
I’m charging ahead, make sure I see it all happening
Cause I want to win, I want to get to my dreams realized
I want to see my miracles carry out
I want to win!
God will give me anything
So I continue to pray for “my everything”
My words are real because they are me
My heart, my emotions, my eyes and how I interpret
They say I don’t work hard as a poet
I tell them I don’t try hard
“That’s how you die hard”
At ease with my spirit
I float free, no resistance!
The outdoors free me, lifts me
Lets picnic, bring some berries
I got my dog and a blanket
Where’s the field?
Meet me, I’ll wait for you
I’m patient
A.M
2010.
And being accused is no longer a reason to justify my acts
I’m so patient, they can’t embrace it
What do I know ?
Why are they running?
What are they running from?
Farmed society
I’m charging ahead, make sure I see it all happening
Cause I want to win, I want to get to my dreams realized
I want to see my miracles carry out
I want to win!
God will give me anything
So I continue to pray for “my everything”
My words are real because they are me
My heart, my emotions, my eyes and how I interpret
They say I don’t work hard as a poet
I tell them I don’t try hard
“That’s how you die hard”
At ease with my spirit
I float free, no resistance!
The outdoors free me, lifts me
Lets picnic, bring some berries
I got my dog and a blanket
Where’s the field?
Meet me, I’ll wait for you
I’m patient
A.M
2010.
Thursday, May 20, 2010
Open a Window for Me
Open a window for me, keep your doors locked
l don't want to paint you or undress you
l want nothing but a glance into your closed eyes
l feel you , I don't have hope, nor do I desire it
I have faith in purpose, you have reached my heart from afar
You're in my thoughts, a powerful mind, I feel you, connected with mine
I see purpose, you've entered my life, It's out of our hands
I want to know you, see through your eyes
l won't hide from what reveals itself inside me
from what tints my light and sees through my existence
No sense in pretending, l acknowledge
Truth won't hurt me, stumbling upon it and looking the other way can kill
Your sweetness still perspires, It still lives
The beauty in your words is mellow, I'd like to taste that which is sweet in you
Take my love
It's infinite and warm as the smile I share with the screen in front of me
I want to hold you, look into your eyes, and understand without word exchange
I can't physically, so open your heart
And my mind will indulge in your scent
Feel the tip of my love, touching your tender petals
I can smell your flowers, feel their brightness, you're beautiful
No intentions, just a feeling, speaking through me
I look into the mirror and imagine your eyes, looking into mine
I hear you close
My heart has a home for you, stay as long as you like.
A.M
l don't want to paint you or undress you
l want nothing but a glance into your closed eyes
l feel you , I don't have hope, nor do I desire it
I have faith in purpose, you have reached my heart from afar
You're in my thoughts, a powerful mind, I feel you, connected with mine
I see purpose, you've entered my life, It's out of our hands
I want to know you, see through your eyes
l won't hide from what reveals itself inside me
from what tints my light and sees through my existence
No sense in pretending, l acknowledge
Truth won't hurt me, stumbling upon it and looking the other way can kill
Your sweetness still perspires, It still lives
The beauty in your words is mellow, I'd like to taste that which is sweet in you
Take my love
It's infinite and warm as the smile I share with the screen in front of me
I want to hold you, look into your eyes, and understand without word exchange
I can't physically, so open your heart
And my mind will indulge in your scent
Feel the tip of my love, touching your tender petals
I can smell your flowers, feel their brightness, you're beautiful
No intentions, just a feeling, speaking through me
I look into the mirror and imagine your eyes, looking into mine
I hear you close
My heart has a home for you, stay as long as you like.
A.M
Mother Teresa
"People are often unreasonable,
illogical, and self centered;
-Forgive them anyway...
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
-Be kind anyway...
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies;
-Succeed anyway...
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
-Be honest and frank anyway...
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
-Build anyway...
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
-Be happy anyway...
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
-Do good anyway...
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
-Give the world the best you've got anyway...
You see, in the end, it is between you and God;
-It was never between you and them anyway"...
-Mother Teresa-
illogical, and self centered;
-Forgive them anyway...
If you are kind, people may accuse you of selfish, ulterior motives;
-Be kind anyway...
If you are successful you will win some false friends and true enemies;
-Succeed anyway...
If you are honest and frank, people may cheat you;
-Be honest and frank anyway...
What you spend years building, someone could destroy overnight;
-Build anyway...
If you find serenity and happiness, they may be jealous;
-Be happy anyway...
The good you do today, people will often forget tomorrow;
-Do good anyway...
Give the world the best you have, and it may never be enough;
-Give the world the best you've got anyway...
You see, in the end, it is between you and God;
-It was never between you and them anyway"...
-Mother Teresa-
Eternal Dance
Eternal Dance
Lets dance tonight
I'll meet you while you dream
I'll wake you gently
Whisper love secrets in your ear
Our combined passion
Will levitate us to heaven
We'll flow through Eden's garden
Eat from the tree of life
Drink from God's spring
Gain eternal life
We'll run through fields of lilies
playing hide and seek
We'll swim and play and splash
Bathe in sacred seas
We'll intertwine our souls
dance within each other's hearts
compose verses with our bodies
Make Love
our favorite song
Lets dance tonight
A.M
Lets dance tonight
I'll meet you while you dream
I'll wake you gently
Whisper love secrets in your ear
Our combined passion
Will levitate us to heaven
We'll flow through Eden's garden
Eat from the tree of life
Drink from God's spring
Gain eternal life
We'll run through fields of lilies
playing hide and seek
We'll swim and play and splash
Bathe in sacred seas
We'll intertwine our souls
dance within each other's hearts
compose verses with our bodies
Make Love
our favorite song
Lets dance tonight
A.M
Love's dew
I feel Love in the sweetest form
I taste mellow strawberries-
when I receive your love;
Free and abundant as mine
I sense you-absorb your heart
I float free in your thoughts
-covered in love's dew;
Savoring your epiphanies;
Your understanding nourishes my soul
Our tragedies kills our perceptions
And saves our essence
Love scars become ripples of wisdom
And we fall within each other's cracks
Through chaos Love gives birth to brilliance
You undress my purpose-
I clothe you in love
I enter your heart
And you crash into my soul
A.M
I taste mellow strawberries-
when I receive your love;
Free and abundant as mine
I sense you-absorb your heart
I float free in your thoughts
-covered in love's dew;
Savoring your epiphanies;
Your understanding nourishes my soul
Our tragedies kills our perceptions
And saves our essence
Love scars become ripples of wisdom
And we fall within each other's cracks
Through chaos Love gives birth to brilliance
You undress my purpose-
I clothe you in love
I enter your heart
And you crash into my soul
A.M
Blueberry, Blackberry, Strawberry-Yum
Blueberry, Blackberry, Strawberry-Yum
Eden Loveberries grow wild in the sun
We picnic in heaven -My purpose and I
We arrive together and depart as one
Replete with divine we land on cloud nine
A passionate glance summons my soul-
Inevitable attraction pulls me into your sea
Gentle waves pushes me into the deep
I let my body go loose
Soaked lungs-my breath is yours
A thousand kisses on my heart
Within your soul I am a mermaid-
Flapping my tail eternally
A million love flavors-
explosion-
tongues touch
Warming caresses-
Shocks my soul
Body absorbs charge-
Heavenly touch
My heart accepts tender kisses-
on in and around-
our souls collide
Without space between us-
One body, one heart-
Two minds combined in truth-
To feel the most-
To spread divine and make one eternal love
You are fire and l am flames
Always ignited and never burning
Our reflection in each other lncites
Our reflection in the Mirror excites
Full pleasure
Body and Soul Unite
Perfect Paradise
Truth nourishes my heart
Love speaks through your words
Planted eternally is your essence within my soul
You flourish my mind with Masterful Wisdom
And make my Rose Bloom-
With each Breath Stroke
A.M
Eden Loveberries grow wild in the sun
We picnic in heaven -My purpose and I
We arrive together and depart as one
Replete with divine we land on cloud nine
A passionate glance summons my soul-
Inevitable attraction pulls me into your sea
Gentle waves pushes me into the deep
I let my body go loose
Soaked lungs-my breath is yours
A thousand kisses on my heart
Within your soul I am a mermaid-
Flapping my tail eternally
A million love flavors-
explosion-
tongues touch
Warming caresses-
Shocks my soul
Body absorbs charge-
Heavenly touch
My heart accepts tender kisses-
on in and around-
our souls collide
Without space between us-
One body, one heart-
Two minds combined in truth-
To feel the most-
To spread divine and make one eternal love
You are fire and l am flames
Always ignited and never burning
Our reflection in each other lncites
Our reflection in the Mirror excites
Full pleasure
Body and Soul Unite
Perfect Paradise
Truth nourishes my heart
Love speaks through your words
Planted eternally is your essence within my soul
You flourish my mind with Masterful Wisdom
And make my Rose Bloom-
With each Breath Stroke
A.M
Mentors
When mentors teach with passion and understanding,
they create leaders instead of followers.
Thus, all grow and amplify each other,
together, leading the world to peace.
A.M
they create leaders instead of followers.
Thus, all grow and amplify each other,
together, leading the world to peace.
A.M
Fool
How fooLish
to waste Life-
Enslave our minds
for
Transient beauty
seconds of security
Perceptlon Fades
Reality Reveals Chaos
Pain of Reason lost ln transitions
pleasures that were not kept secret
and smiles that can't be owned
A beauty that was never yours
will be
could be
ln full company
One can control another's mind, body and heart
but the soul controls the entire temple
and remains intact
A.M
to waste Life-
Enslave our minds
for
Transient beauty
seconds of security
Perceptlon Fades
Reality Reveals Chaos
Pain of Reason lost ln transitions
pleasures that were not kept secret
and smiles that can't be owned
A beauty that was never yours
will be
could be
ln full company
One can control another's mind, body and heart
but the soul controls the entire temple
and remains intact
A.M
Magic Tricks
MAGlC TRlCKS
You shone dim that night,
hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
you suppressed wild currents,
and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then l saw, my eyes freed your currents
You believed a woman's fire could kill
refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You took heat from their flesh, just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence and made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
I am not Immortal, but I am enough to be unforgettable
You wrapped your hands around my waste,
swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise,
each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync,
Together, we formed the perfect symphony
In your embrace I was a harp, and you made me sound divine
sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument-Our passion
The devils divine perfection
Enfolded in your cold wings
I was your dragon's heart, a doll, so light
so perfect
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your sky-
I gave you my light!
You stole from me that night
More than a kiss - my halo-my soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- You made your own
Darkness followed me home-
it knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me
Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
The laughs
The faces we ripped...
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks
A.M
You shone dim that night,
hid the magic tricks
All grace, hope and charm,
you suppressed wild currents,
and your eyes emitted tiny waves
From afar, a translucently hiding human
Then l saw, my eyes freed your currents
You believed a woman's fire could kill
refused to bother with the ones whose flames could revive
You took heat from their flesh, just enough to spark a match
You gave no essence and made it clear you wished the same
Starvation made you weak
With blurry vision you saw me
I am not Immortal, but I am enough to be unforgettable
You wrapped your hands around my waste,
swung me round and side to side
Your touch, soft and precise,
each finger played a note on my body
We moved in sync,
Together, we formed the perfect symphony
In your embrace I was a harp, and you made me sound divine
sweet notes you made me scream
The talented player, the controlled instrument-Our passion
The devils divine perfection
Enfolded in your cold wings
I was your dragon's heart, a doll, so light
so perfect
You set your head between my chest and looked up into my eyes
I couldn't bear the lonely sorrow in your sky-
I gave you my light!
You stole from me that night
More than a kiss - my halo-my soul
every instant of my life, every memory,
every breath- You made your own
Darkness followed me home-
it knew I was naked without you
I felt the night's grief creeping into me
But it was just your after feeling
All nature in one
All pleasure but always uncontained
Pain, trails of fear
Crawling throughout me
Demons shutting all doors
Frost infernal
The laughs
The faces we ripped...
No, don't remember
I can feel your twisted tricks
A.M
Unplug
A connection so clear
some feel but cannot see
A feeling so deep
Some hide it and others never find it
A voice so quiet
Only the blind can hear-
A soft whisper in a fierce breeze
wind chills the heart to distinguish
Horse and sheep
Lion and Snake -
Hunting for nourishment
Marching towards dry land;
Disguised pastures-
All hungry and few with purpose
A union of purity
Earth, sea and stream-Salt and sweet
Pain and purpose-peace
Heaven in lust
Corrupted harmony
Ego or purpose?
Self or love?
A.M
some feel but cannot see
A feeling so deep
Some hide it and others never find it
A voice so quiet
Only the blind can hear-
A soft whisper in a fierce breeze
wind chills the heart to distinguish
Horse and sheep
Lion and Snake -
Hunting for nourishment
Marching towards dry land;
Disguised pastures-
All hungry and few with purpose
A union of purity
Earth, sea and stream-Salt and sweet
Pain and purpose-peace
Heaven in lust
Corrupted harmony
Ego or purpose?
Self or love?
A.M
Fly The Ocean and Return To Me
Fly the ocean and return here
Fly the ocean and return here-
To my chest
for my chest
If you left
I'll wait for you
Mind only stays on you
That day
something more
something I couldn't predict
You passed by me
without my understanding
took all my senses
Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here
Living in my dreams
and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me
-
The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew
Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me…
to my chest
for my chest
-
Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here
Living in my dreams and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me
The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew
Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me….
to my chest
for my chest
to my chest Baby
A.M
Fly the ocean and return here-
To my chest
for my chest
If you left
I'll wait for you
Mind only stays on you
That day
something more
something I couldn't predict
You passed by me
without my understanding
took all my senses
Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here
Living in my dreams
and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me
-
The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew
Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me…
to my chest
for my chest
-
Changed my life and more
I asked the wind to bring you here
Living in my dreams and in my memory
I asked the wind to bring you to me
The wind returns you
The wind makes my world anew
Fly the seas and return here
Fly the seas and return for me….
to my chest
for my chest
to my chest Baby
A.M
And I Miss
And I Miss
And I dream and I love and I crave
A beauty I cannot explain
Euphoric memories lifts my spirit
and I float in hedonistic heaven
My passion lays within proud arms
so l dream and I love and l crave
A peace I cannot embrace
Hypnotic sensations of love
Inflamed veins
consuming passion
The scent of utopian gardens
Buried in a secreted body
So I dream and I love and I crave
A touch I cannot attain
A.M
And I dream and I love and I crave
A beauty I cannot explain
Euphoric memories lifts my spirit
and I float in hedonistic heaven
My passion lays within proud arms
so l dream and I love and l crave
A peace I cannot embrace
Hypnotic sensations of love
Inflamed veins
consuming passion
The scent of utopian gardens
Buried in a secreted body
So I dream and I love and I crave
A touch I cannot attain
A.M
Beauty
They all see what they want to see
When I look at you
I see a part of me
that connects with a part of you that wants to touch me
look into my eyes and love me
to feel your skin on mine
your lips on mine
your hips on mine
let our bodies intertwine
give my soul flight
We all see what we want to see
when I see you I see Beauty
A.M
When I look at you
I see a part of me
that connects with a part of you that wants to touch me
look into my eyes and love me
to feel your skin on mine
your lips on mine
your hips on mine
let our bodies intertwine
give my soul flight
We all see what we want to see
when I see you I see Beauty
A.M
LOV
Approach me with an open mind,
let desire be our guide
Enfold me with caring arms,
keep me close to your heart
Hold me tight against your chest,
I want to feel your every breath
Poison me with your lips,
glamour me with your kiss
Play my body, manipulate my sound,
unveil all that is wild
Manifest in me your every fantasy,
drown me in ecstasy
Let your passion burn throughout me,
I want you inside me
A.M
let desire be our guide
Enfold me with caring arms,
keep me close to your heart
Hold me tight against your chest,
I want to feel your every breath
Poison me with your lips,
glamour me with your kiss
Play my body, manipulate my sound,
unveil all that is wild
Manifest in me your every fantasy,
drown me in ecstasy
Let your passion burn throughout me,
I want you inside me
A.M
Righteous
Everyone struggles to be righteous at least once in their lives.
The faithless fails and gives up, accepting misery.
The hopeful fails but keeps attempting, eventually finding faith.
And the faithful struggles throughout their lives to remain, ultimately earning eternal righteousness.
A.M
The faithless fails and gives up, accepting misery.
The hopeful fails but keeps attempting, eventually finding faith.
And the faithful struggles throughout their lives to remain, ultimately earning eternal righteousness.
A.M
To tame you
To tame you,
I would of played you, acted coy and reluctant,
danced around you like a gazelle in heat,
then pulled away like a proud lioness
I would of put on my saint cast
and hid inside my pessimist armor
l would of hid the effects of being in your presence;
shut off the translucent glow in my heart,
dimmed the peaceful radiance in my eyes
and concealed the joy and delight in my expression
I would of enhanced my beauty
Made my lips plump and desirable, my lashes long and seductive
I would of tempted your curiosity,
worn corset dresses with satin straps, silk skirts with lace edges,
fitted blouses with tempting buttons
I would of remained in bliss, denied my desires,
slowed my breathing, suppressed the vigorous beating
I would of ignored my heart,
To tame you, I would of played you like a worn violin, made your ripped cords sound new, manipulated you, used my talents to hindrance your squeaking
and complimented the tunes you play best
I would of impressed you, showed off my talents
Kissed your heart with my intellect
I wouldn't have opened the doors to my soul,
and gazed into your eyes while we kissed
l would of burned my mark your skin
poisoned you
I would of shared you, passed you around and let others make you squeak, so you would beg to be played by me
To tame you
I would of let my hair down in front of your eyes,
made you scream inside
Rode the wind bare back, twisted your neck
But I never wanted to tame you,
I wanted to set you free
and so l did
At a price
A.M
I would of played you, acted coy and reluctant,
danced around you like a gazelle in heat,
then pulled away like a proud lioness
I would of put on my saint cast
and hid inside my pessimist armor
l would of hid the effects of being in your presence;
shut off the translucent glow in my heart,
dimmed the peaceful radiance in my eyes
and concealed the joy and delight in my expression
I would of enhanced my beauty
Made my lips plump and desirable, my lashes long and seductive
I would of tempted your curiosity,
worn corset dresses with satin straps, silk skirts with lace edges,
fitted blouses with tempting buttons
I would of remained in bliss, denied my desires,
slowed my breathing, suppressed the vigorous beating
I would of ignored my heart,
To tame you, I would of played you like a worn violin, made your ripped cords sound new, manipulated you, used my talents to hindrance your squeaking
and complimented the tunes you play best
I would of impressed you, showed off my talents
Kissed your heart with my intellect
I wouldn't have opened the doors to my soul,
and gazed into your eyes while we kissed
l would of burned my mark your skin
poisoned you
I would of shared you, passed you around and let others make you squeak, so you would beg to be played by me
To tame you
I would of let my hair down in front of your eyes,
made you scream inside
Rode the wind bare back, twisted your neck
But I never wanted to tame you,
I wanted to set you free
and so l did
At a price
A.M
At Love's Command
At Love's Command
Humbled, contented with your presence
Barely rang, didn't pest
Love notes , in text form
I still keep, the sunset you recorded
In small messages, we arranged encounters
Toxic, paralyzing touch
I barely spoke
After I opened Pandora's box
Replaced evil with my light
My logic and wisdom filled the jar
l turned off my gut's alarm
Shut my ears and closed my eyes
Turned my back on my God, stray l followed
No protecting halo
With a poem, Infatuation, I showed my heart
An alien in your eyes, too fast, too soon
You couldn't see the art
You looked away, I was a monster
Unique, you saw but you didn't believe
You still grieved...years had passed since she left
...going in different directions...
Love never parts, my Love
Never dies, it endures distance
It gathers strength in the beloved's eyes
And fights through lousy days and lonely nights
It bares no anxiety and grief
All sorrow is washed away in love's endearing peace
Realized with seconds of truth
Love waits, no hurry
you took from me what life stole from you
long before she wounded your ego
In your eyes, I was weak, no pride, no ego
Unreachable and proud, you chose to part
Agony, excruciating silence
Your best quality
Almost passed, a virgin to neglect
Cold logic judged my actions
I swore you were a different man
Flesh was all you had on me
Wounded and delusional, sweet!
But the heart resumes to beat
Healing
Love gains back command
controls the mind like an instrument
And once more, I give in
A.M
Humbled, contented with your presence
Barely rang, didn't pest
Love notes , in text form
I still keep, the sunset you recorded
In small messages, we arranged encounters
Toxic, paralyzing touch
I barely spoke
After I opened Pandora's box
Replaced evil with my light
My logic and wisdom filled the jar
l turned off my gut's alarm
Shut my ears and closed my eyes
Turned my back on my God, stray l followed
No protecting halo
With a poem, Infatuation, I showed my heart
An alien in your eyes, too fast, too soon
You couldn't see the art
You looked away, I was a monster
Unique, you saw but you didn't believe
You still grieved...years had passed since she left
...going in different directions...
Love never parts, my Love
Never dies, it endures distance
It gathers strength in the beloved's eyes
And fights through lousy days and lonely nights
It bares no anxiety and grief
All sorrow is washed away in love's endearing peace
Realized with seconds of truth
Love waits, no hurry
you took from me what life stole from you
long before she wounded your ego
In your eyes, I was weak, no pride, no ego
Unreachable and proud, you chose to part
Agony, excruciating silence
Your best quality
Almost passed, a virgin to neglect
Cold logic judged my actions
I swore you were a different man
Flesh was all you had on me
Wounded and delusional, sweet!
But the heart resumes to beat
Healing
Love gains back command
controls the mind like an instrument
And once more, I give in
A.M
Desire
Desire
Your eyes awakens me from my sadness
Your voice melts my thoughts
And fills my blanks
Lips so intoxicating
It fills my mind with desire
In your arms I could never be still
Until your hand tames my wildness
And calms my urge
With you I don't wonder, I know
A.M
Your eyes awakens me from my sadness
Your voice melts my thoughts
And fills my blanks
Lips so intoxicating
It fills my mind with desire
In your arms I could never be still
Until your hand tames my wildness
And calms my urge
With you I don't wonder, I know
A.M
Infatuation
INFATUATION
I see your captivating eyes in everything blue
And your nurturing hands stretched forth
in everything that I reach for
I try to remember your face
but an indefinable blur hindrances your features
And when we are together
my indiscretion persists on searching for your faults
An inequitable examination
of which I am oblivious of when you take hold of me
Your kiss is ineffable and infatuating
Your flavor prevails in my mouth and hindrances all other tastes
I dream of your kiss but I'll settle for just holding your hand
I am known for my inefficiency,
but I always make time for you
I persist with my inept search in the hopes of finding your intolerable flaw
It is my only hope of keeping this inchoately infatuation
from blooming into an omnipotent Love
A.M
I see your captivating eyes in everything blue
And your nurturing hands stretched forth
in everything that I reach for
I try to remember your face
but an indefinable blur hindrances your features
And when we are together
my indiscretion persists on searching for your faults
An inequitable examination
of which I am oblivious of when you take hold of me
Your kiss is ineffable and infatuating
Your flavor prevails in my mouth and hindrances all other tastes
I dream of your kiss but I'll settle for just holding your hand
I am known for my inefficiency,
but I always make time for you
I persist with my inept search in the hopes of finding your intolerable flaw
It is my only hope of keeping this inchoately infatuation
from blooming into an omnipotent Love
A.M
Like a drug
Like a drug
You've got me feeling high
Breathless and wanting more
Feels like I am asking to die
I must be enchanted
For I do nothing to stop
Powerless to you
Hands and feet feel bound
Mouth opens and closes
But words won't dare to come out
My spirit lifts off my body
And I don't want to come down
Then I finally wake up
With havens taste in my mouth
A.M
You've got me feeling high
Breathless and wanting more
Feels like I am asking to die
I must be enchanted
For I do nothing to stop
Powerless to you
Hands and feet feel bound
Mouth opens and closes
But words won't dare to come out
My spirit lifts off my body
And I don't want to come down
Then I finally wake up
With havens taste in my mouth
A.M
Your Eyes ...
Your Eyes ...
Penetrated my heart
And Undressed my soul
They Resuscitated my faded being
And Filled me with hope
They Devoured the sorrow
that prayed on my strength
Melting the ice from my skin to my core
Your majestic eyes revealed my true essence
Your eyes inflamed my flesh
And burned me with passion
They aroused my fantasies
And allowed me to grow
Your eyes healed me with love
And made me the happiest soul on earth.
A.M
Penetrated my heart
And Undressed my soul
They Resuscitated my faded being
And Filled me with hope
They Devoured the sorrow
that prayed on my strength
Melting the ice from my skin to my core
Your majestic eyes revealed my true essence
Your eyes inflamed my flesh
And burned me with passion
They aroused my fantasies
And allowed me to grow
Your eyes healed me with love
And made me the happiest soul on earth.
A.M
She wants …
She wants …
To say I love you
I miss you, Love
To lie forever enfolded in his wings
To awake to the scent of freshly cut flowers
And assorted chocolates on her pillow
To care for, to nurture his dry seeds
And give flourish to a new heart
To plant herself within
To break through the steel door
To hear she is missed
To know she is loved
To awake to the scent of freshly cut flowers
And assorted chocolates on her pillow
To awake to the scent of Love
A.M
To say I love you
I miss you, Love
To lie forever enfolded in his wings
To awake to the scent of freshly cut flowers
And assorted chocolates on her pillow
To care for, to nurture his dry seeds
And give flourish to a new heart
To plant herself within
To break through the steel door
To hear she is missed
To know she is loved
To awake to the scent of freshly cut flowers
And assorted chocolates on her pillow
To awake to the scent of Love
A.M
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