A chance to grow...

A moment of chaos is a chance for change
To cultivate new ground
In a moment of confusion you can make or break your luck
Forced compromise can strengthen your will

Do you play for fun or money?
I play to win, to win you
Oh, I play to be surprised
To laugh

And all I ask as prize
Is peace,
Love, food for the soul's journey

A.M

A conversation with a friend...

So many fill themselves with anger, with hate, with vain ambitions, to adorn a naked soul, to simulate health, to dress the body with wealth, corrupting the heart, depriving the soul of the love it needs to grow.

Selfish, miserable, filled with hate, angry towards the ones who held a mirror to their face, the ones who embraced their imperfections, kissed every scar, forgave every offense and gave their whole heart.

All I can do is love, everyday, love and pray they'll find their way.

I used to believe that I was fighting for love, now I understand that love doesn't need us to fight for it, nor does it needs us to exist at all. I realized that I've been fighting my soul all along, scared of dying without sharing my heart completely with anyone or anything in this world.

We all want to surrender, to stop climbing, to stop fighting, to give ourselves to a purpose. I've chosen a hard path, I travel a lonely road, once in a while I come across kindred spirits and they reassure me I've chosen the right path for me.

I no longer fight for love, I accept it when offered, I give it without motives, I pray for it to touch the hearts deaf to my voice, the minds blind to my words, the souls immune to my poems. During my travels I have seen enough to realize that I'm not here to save, I'm not here to guide, I'm here to be whatever the world needs me to be--Peace, Love, Compassion, a vessel to my father.

A.M

Freedom to be...

You need freedom to spread your wings,
So I release you with my soul attached,
so you'll always long to return home.

A.M

God and relationships...

People always ask me, "Why aren't you married?", "Why aren't you with the man you fell in love with?", "Are you afraid of taking risks?", "Why don't you date?", "Don't you want to grow old with someone?".

Well, I love God and I love myself, and when I fall in love with a man who loves God and himself as much as I love God and myself we might have a shot.

If a person doesn't have a spiritual foundation then all they are is a changing state of mind ruled by the senses and circumstances. They identify with their role in society and their possessions, and if they should ever lose their social status and possessions their state of mind will be affected. And if all they have as guidance is their senses they will break completely.

A faithful man will seek refuge in God, he will pray for growth, he will see in his struggles an opportunity for growth. He'll be open to changing careers, he'll seek support in his community, his family. If he suffers a loss in material resources he will utilize his supply of love. For he knows that God is compassion, unconditional passion, universal wisdom, and those who cultivate God in their hearts are able to attract whatever they need and desire. He knows that the more he loves the more he'll be loved, the more he gives the more he'll receive.

A spiritual man knows that there are no struggles he cannot overcome with God. So why date someone before getting to know their character, their nature, without first knowing if they are spiritually prepared to lead you, compromise with you, love you and accept you no matter the circumstances.

Strength isn't just measured by how much you can dead lift, how many people you can get to go on dates with you, how much money you earn, how many friends you have. Strength is measured by how much you're willing to struggle to overcome your insecurities and fears and learn to accept and love who you are and what you're made of. There's nothing more attractive than those who love themselves and cultivate their spiritual kingdom.

A.M

Aries

My beautiful beast,
My muse, my Aries.
Son of Apollo,
God of the sun,
You set fire to my heart
And make love to my soul.
Child of the zodiac,
Son of Zeus,
King of my heart,
Lover of my soul.
My Eros,
shooting golden arrows at my heart,
Covering me in dove feathers.
Your graceful beauty
charms the beauties,
Your winged heart
a bittersweet treat
to your victims,
Enchanting hearts
and fleeting affairs,
Leaving souls to burn in despair.
To me you're a gift from Anteros,
Charming spirit,
reciprocal passion,
Mutual desire and affection.
As your Psyche,
my heart is protected by your bow,
You shield me from men's ill intent,
You guard me
with your piercing arrows
of infectious lust.
Perpetual infatuation
keeps me enfolded in your soul,
And no matter where our bodies go
Our hearts will always search
for the intensity we evoke.

A.M

Enjoy you present...

All I know is now...
---------
My desire is cold,
calculated fantasies,
restrained spontaneity,
grounded freedom.
---------
My heart is open,
unbiased,
shared freely
with all who need it.
---------
My body is guarded,
in conscious isolation,
aware of the dangers
of openness.
---------
My soul is free,
wondering through your dreams,
pleasing your desires,
open to your fantasies,
---------
roaming in your body,
waking your hidden longings,
inciting emotion,
freeing your feelings.
----------
All I know is now...
----------
if my soul should rise and fall
I'll never know,
if I should succeed or fail in my attempts
I'll never know,
----------
I cannot tell the difference
between winning and losing,
between high and low,
Between success and failure.
----------
For I live in the clouds,
I thrive in the now,
I live for today,
I give it away,
----------
I spend it all now,
no feelings get saved,
no frustration remains,
I give it away,
----------
I express my desires,
I pray for nourishment,
I take what I need,
I sustain my hunger,
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For soul food,
For love,
For wisdom,
For purpose.
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Why be one idea
when we can be two worlds
in one universe?
-----------
Why accept and conform
When we can inspire growth
Through doubt and difference?
----------
Your opposing qualities
draw me closer,
to grow from your flaws,
to learn from your vices,
----------
to become stronger
in the light of your qualities,
To love you for love,
To accept you for you.
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To rise or to fall,
to love or to fight,
to break or to marry,
these ideas don't concern me.
----------
All I know is now...

A.M

Your guarding Intuition:

Loving yourself and listening to your intuition can be the deciding factor between being dead or alive. 

A person who doesn't have self esteem, who doesn't recognize the beauty and worth of their spirit might allow a rapist, a murderer, an abuser, into their lives, even after their first impression and intuition have alarmed them. 

The intuitive signal usually comes through fear or disgust, you'll feel repulsion at first sight, or a cold chill will run down your back when you hear their voice.

The devil has somehow convinced us that these alarming signals, negative feelings and intuitive reactions, are "the spark" or attraction. 

Attraction is a positive reaction, you shouldn't experience fear and doubt when you're being attracted to someone you could potentially fall in love with. 

You should feel admiration, excitement, appreciation for their beauty and presence. You should feel good next to their spirit, not uncomfortable, unfit, fearful, doubtful, low self esteem, insecurity.

A positive potential love match or friend intrigues you in a positive manner, they inspire compliments, they bond with you, reciprocate the same admiration and appreciation. 

I do understand that negative criminal characters will act like a friend, will pretend to be a compassionate lover, but even in these cases, even when someone is lying and pretending, your intuition will warn you, you will have recurring thoughts about their loyalty and genuineness. 

So listen to your heart, but most importantly listen to your intuition, your conscience, your senses, your feelings, your thoughts about everyone and very situation and opportunity you encounter. Your intuition can save you a lot of stress, heartache, problems, and even your life.

A.M

Soul cultivation...

Soul cultivation leads to God.
Self growth leads to love.
Follow your God,
cultivate a relationship with your divine essence.
Look inside your heart, accept your nature.
Let your conscience guide you,
restore your virtues and fall in love with yourself.
When we treat our bodies with love and respect
We begin to feel compassion for the world around us.
To love others you must love yourself first,
To love yourself you must respect your soul conscience.

A.M

Thoughts

The price of solitude isn't that much more expensive than that of wasted time.
The time I spend alone pays off in wisdom, while most of the time I spend with others costs me my health and sanity.
Hanging around frivolous words and thoughts and actions can flood your mind, cloud your thinking, brainwash you into adopting the thoughts of others as your own.
Being around that which does not benefit your soul health, allowing foreign thoughts to fill your brain can deter you from your purpose and ultimately take from your happiness.
We must not allow others to influence us, unless their influence can help us become more of ourselves.
Create your own desires, your own dreams, or you'll inevitably be influenced into believing you are to satisfy the desires of others or to live out their dreams.
Spend time alone, with your thoughts, silently sit and be an audience to your soul.
In the end it is more beneficial to be lied to by your own ignorance than to be at the mercy of the negligence of others.
Solitude will also attract like minded souls who share your interests or calling.
Instead of taking what comes into your life listen to your soul and allow your heart to tell you what you need and who you need to be interacting with.
The law of attraction never fails and if you practice patience you'll reap unimaginable blessings, for the universe will draw you closer to the souls who will bring out the best in you.
The price of solitude is worth every lonesome penny.

A.M

I commend myself onto you...

When I look into your eyes
I find myself inside
Waiting for your spirit
And I kiss your lips
I hold you tight
Hoping our souls collide

The passion you incite
The fire in my eyes
A magic I can't describe
The stars align around me
The universe bestows love upon me

When I see inside your soul
That's when I find love
Unconditional
Compassionate feeling
I just want to please you
Set you free
Understand you

When I reach inside your heart
I see myself lingering
Praying for life
Waiting for love
For you to let go
Embrace or free my soul

Every time you return
It only reassures
What I feel is forevermore
But whenever you leave
I fear you'll get lost
In the darkness you brew

There's a beauty that engulfs me
Your own sun
Washing over me
Renewing my spirit
With your touch I'm reborn
Renewed through your love
Your soul is mine
My soul is yours

When I look into your eyes
I envision our whole lives
As if I was made for you
Made to kiss your lips
Made to heal your soul

I've been told I'm deserving
That I've earned this love
But I know I'm entitled to nothing
For if I had been given titles
And the life I longed for
I would of been ordered
To surrender you

Understanding our mortality
Our fragile aging bodies
I'm tempted to desire
More time beside your body

When I kiss you goodbye
I feel you taking me
Away from me
Away from sanity
And still I let go
I'm willing to allow
All your desires unto me

I long to meet your skin
To feel your hands on me
Your lips on my lips
Your passion inside me
If your kiss was my last
I'd die a celebrated woman
For I cannot forget
Who I am beside you

You are my permanent fantasy
My immortal desire and passion
And I know your body will forever long
For the touch of my soul
Between us there is only time
Together we are only love
You are mine; I am yours

A.M

Thoughts

Ask not of others that which you cannot produce yourself.
Beauty without virtue is not a treasure to be kept.
Love without trust suffers agony and isolation.
When men lack love they lack purpose,
And a man without passion is a crutch to behold.
Love is the fire that ignites passion in the hearts of men.
Lust is the demon that destroys souls,
Filling them with hatred and jealousy.
The manifestation of happiness is an attribute of the individual,
No one and no one thing can grant you that which only your soul can produce.
I am that which I love, I love that which I am.

A.M.

Ancient World for a New Soul

This world seems so old,
this time does not reflect the the images in my soul.
The faces have changed,
the emotions covered by unfeeling strength,
manipulated to feel the same,
hypnotized to forget
the unforgettable memories secluding the soul.

The life of dreams became a dream of a life
I can't seem to touch.
Have the Gods forsaken you, my king,
must you too, like your kingdom, live in delusion;
playing like children, desiring the new
and neglecting what has given you pleasure and fortune. 

My love, this life, this body you've given me
has been a magnet for deception, hate, jealousy,
but my essence, my Lord, couldn't have been more perfect.
Many joys, many passionate moments we've shared,
you have showed me glimpses of a peace, small sips of a satisfaction,
gulps of a fulfillment I know is a mere taste of the heaven awaiting me.

You gave me presents, my Creator,
a talent I used to attain worldly successes,
And after selling my soul I ungratefully blamed you for my failures.
I repented for my ignorance
And I pray your house welcomes me still.
You've given me a beautiful child
but she too will leave me before my time is through,
my precious and beautiful black pearl,
she has changed my life for the better.

Perhaps my devotion to my craft
has made me somewhat obsessed with impractical things,
perhaps my purpose is to be a devoted artist in my lifetime.
I'll be known as the crazed woman who wrote prose
In scattered form.
It's the long sought answer to the question:
Which came first, the egg or the chicken?.
Am I a Poet because I'm a ruminator
Or am I a thinker because I'm a Poet?

God knows I was not groomed to be a writer,
my parents still pray that I might find a more practical career.
Poets didn't come to this world to be celebrated,
to be praised and allowed to make a living by being themselves;
to build wealth by sharing their art.
Poets have come to show the world
that simple souls leading simple lives
can conceive immeasurable blessings
with imagination and devotion.

I am not a teacher
but I have been known to teach,
I am not a guide but I have inspired souls to change paths,
I am not a wife but I have loved and nurtured.
I have many roles in this life but none exceed my role as an artist,
Touching hearts with pure sentimental expression
Gives me the most joy of all.

And although I live a life of pleasures,
Of giving and receiving love,
Of pouring out my heart
In the hopes it will touch another,
I feel a inexplicable longing to leave this land.
My desire to travel away from this world
Upsets my loved ones,
But I can't help wanting to see the universe.

Perhaps I desire a better world,
A more peaceful existence,
A place where animals and humans aren't tortured.
Perhaps I'm tired of what I have seen and experienced,
Perhaps this life has become too old for me.
There is nothing I want from this world
More than for its people to awaken
And begin treating all life with respect and dignity.
This world seems so old,
This time does not reflect the images in my soul.



A.M

Velha Infancia

Você é assim:
Um sonho pra mim
E quando eu não te vejo,
Eu penso em você
Desde o amanhecer
Até quando eu me deito.

Eu gosto de você
E gosto de ficar com você.
Meu riso é tão feliz contigo.
O meu melhor amigo é o meu amor.

E a gente canta
E a gente dança
E a gente não se cansa
De ser criança.
A gente brinca
Na nossa velha infância.

Seus olhos, meu clarão,
Me guiam dentro da escuridão.
Seus pés me abrem o caminho;
Eu sigo e nunca me sinto só.

Você é assim:
Um sonho pra mim;
Quero te encher de beijos.
Eu penso em você
Desde o amanhecer
Até quando eu me deito.

Eu gosto de você
E gosto de ficar com você.
Meu riso é tão feliz contigo...
O meu melhor amigo é o meu amor.

E a gente canta
E a gente dança
E a gente não se cansa
De ser criança.
A gente brinca
Na nossa velha infância.

Seus olhos, meu clarão,
Me guiam dentro da escuridão.
Seus pés me abrem um caminho;
Eu sigo e nunca me sinto só.
Você é assim: Um sonho pra mim.
Você é assim...
Você é assim: um sonho pra mim.
Você é assim...

Marisa Monte

Slow and Steady

Little by little, inch by inch
Straightedge, steady
I move forward
I might look stagnant at times
But I'm moving very slowly

The earth is round
Running around
Will eventually lead me back home
Home where I was born
Home where I was raised
Home where I escaped to
Home where I choose to live

The journey is within
So I move slow
To understand the present
To appreciate each moment
To embrace pain
To surpass fears
To realize dreams
So I don't have to return
To this old world again

The only way you'll meet me
Is if you make a you-turn
For you move very fast
Too fast for me to reach you
Too fast to accept the love
I was sent here to give you

A.M

Naked Without You

I woke up bare
Your body missing from mine
My lips craving your kiss
My skin wanting your tongue

I woke up nude
Wanting your soul
Asking for your touch
Needing your love

I woke up undressed
Bare without your tender skin
Unclothed without your robe of passion
Naked without your blanket of pleasure

A.M

Aries Moon

Aries Moon

Filled with beauty
Full of life
Your piercing gaze
Your distinctive eyes
Your charming smile
Your wild energy
Arousing the senses
Inciting passion

Your stormy spirit
Your creative mind
Your howling heart
Calling my name
Welcoming my body
To your feast

A part of me knows you
So well
So familiar
Feels like I've had you
I've drank you
I swallowed
The dark side of you
But a part of me knows
You're new, intense, original
Spontaneous, passionate
Unknown--dangerous

A part of me sees
The potential for pleasure
A part of me knows
The pain involved
In wanting
In struggling
To let go from ecstasy

And wholeheartedly
I am moved
Motivated
Persuaded by a ghost
A shadow that follows
Every man I touch
A contrast of a lover
I died for

To move this heart
To shake this soul
To motivate these legs
To walk towards you
Would take more
More than you can give
More than either of us
Are willing to share

To know
We walk similar paths
To feel
We seek similar goals
Puts a smile on my face
Gives my heart hope
Hope
I'm moving forward
Hope
I've resuscitated feelings
Killed by unfeeling strength

Here
Depth and vanity meets
Here
Compassion and selfishness
Kiss
Here in my mind
Body and soul
Strength and weakness
Are one
I am you, you are me
Here
Is where you are challenged
To be the best you'll ever be

A.M

Thoughts...

Some things in life aren't for everyone, certain things are only achieved by those with enough courage to attain them. Don't worry about those who underestimate you, those who feel betrayed by you, they haven't experienced the real you, they can't see your soul potential. Only you know how far you can go, how high you can reach, how much you can achieve. It's up to you, you are what you create, you do what you believe. Some people can only see your shadow, your shell, your superficial presence in this world. Appreciate the few who can see into your heart, the ones who can feel your soul, who accept and celebrate the beautiful person you are.

A.M

If I

If I told you my dreams
Would you dream with me
Would you respect my feelings
Would you grant me my wishes
Would you allow my desires
My fantasies to come to life
Would you give me your time
If I told you how I feel
Would you embrace it
Would you open your heart
And show me your emotions
If I told you I wasn't happy
That I didn't feel secure
Would you change
Would you try
Would you show me
How much I mean to you
If I told you I wanted more
Would you stay
Would you reciprocate
Would you give your heart
Would you spend your nights with me
If I told you my dreams
Would you dream with me

A.M

A Beautiful Mind

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is AUTHENTICITY.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it RESPECT.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it MATURITY.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm. Today I call it SELF-CONFIDENCE.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it SIMPLICITY.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.Today I know it is LOVE OF ONESELF.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is MODESTY.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it FULFILLMENT.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS LIFE!

Charlie Chaplin

Complexities

The complexities of each soul hidden inside a chest of pain, ready to be unveiled by minds ready to endure the suffering that comes with awareness and truth, concealed within your heart the purest love, invisible to the eye but deeply felt by the touch that is able to share the same love.

A.M

Be Love, Give Love

How many have smiled because of you today? How many faces have you kissed, how many bodies have you embraced, how many minds have you inspired, how many lives have you improved, how many souls are grateful for you? How many eyes look upon you for strength, how many look to you for inspiration, motivation? How many hearts have you touched? How many have told you they've felt your love, your heart, your mind, your spirit overflowing with love and filling their hearts with joy? How many smiles have you inspired? If you helped generate one smile today, if you have made one soul feel loved, if you have helped one stranger or loved one, you have succeeded, you have grown in love and helped someone else grow too. Give love everyday.

A.M

Honor your Divinity

We are not living unless we are growing everyday, our spirits were meant to be cultivated, as divine beings we must nourish our soul with love. We are creators, masters of our life, we create our pain, we make our joy, with every thought, every decision, every feeling we claim to feel. Be wise when creating, make positive loving feelings and silence the negative thoughts by not speaking them, not manifesting anger, criticism, contempt, and making it a reality. Everyday is a new beginning, a new chance to be our best. Choose love everyday, express yourself always, set your spirit free, let your blessed soul shine bright, let nothing and no one bring you down, you were born to create and be loved. Honor your divinity, think and act with love.

A.M

Transformation

The only reality I know is that of transformation through pain.
There must be discomfort for change to happen.
Pain is always present, sometimes it's numbed but it's ever present whether you choose to change and grow or stay the same.
Your personal pain might manifest in the form of self judgment, insecurity, jealousy, hatred, greed, self destruction, obsessions, compulsive disorders, illnesses, etc.
When negative thoughts about yourself or others arise think twice and analyze, try to get to the root of it, there might be an underlying reason, you might be experiencing suffering and masking it by criticizing and judging those around you. If everyone invested their complete energy into loving and cultivating their mind, body and soul there wouldn't be room left for judgment and criticism. Love yourself, don't worry about what others are doing, it's not your business and you don't have any control over it.

Love is what we are, what we share when we give of ourselves,
when we feel with our hearts.
Love is you, being still, in the present,
love is what we experience when we appreciate our soul and that of others

We are all artists, we are all able to create. I am a Poet because I have chosen to be. In one form or another most people can do the same, they can turn a negative into a positive if they choose to. We, writers, have figured out how, we have created a style, a pattern of thought, we have experienced so much emotion, we have felt so much, we have drowned ourselves in desire, in want, in love, so so much that we invented a form of expression, an art, a way to illustrate our experience, to share it, to empty it into something other than ourselves, for God knows it's too much to be contained within us.

It took a long time to get here, to find my place, to create a world I'm happy with, a place I'm comfortable in, a space where I can be my entire self in.
I'm feeding from good sources, I'm creating with love, I'm thinking positively, I'm loving myself, cultivating inner beauty and health.
The outer appearance is the manifestation of what's going on inside, you can see poetry in my eyes, on my skin the glow of a divine love perspiring.
I'm the most patient person I know, probably because I ruminate so much, I think twice, three times before I act. I practice remaining still, keeping my thoughts calm, silencing desire, frustration, anxiety.
I'm blessed to be able to exercise my relentless, persevering determined will power to achieve anything and everything.
I have figured out how to use my body, mind and spirit, and so can you. Practicing compassion, patience, forgiveness, creates peace, eliminates stress, generates love.

I let go of my worries and impulsive thoughts of today to create what I want to become.
My past fuels me with strength and knowledge but it also interferes with today, which is why I must feed on the wisdom it taught me and let go of the bad habits I picked up because of it. So in spite of the painful experiences and impulsive habits that come with having a past I choose to move forward overcoming all that I feel is negative, ignoring all non productive desires, leaving behind all the comforting habits and plunging into the future with everything I've got.

Now lets go to work!

A.M

Two days from now

The bittersweet moment
When I watch your body leave
Aware I'll feel your absence
Within thirty minutes of you leaving
Knowing that I'll start to crave you
In about two and a half days
That's when I'll begin to go insane
Wondering where you are
What you're doing
Where you been
"Do you think you could ever be mine?"
I am yours, love.
"You're mine now"
Could you ever be mine, only mine?
"Yes"
And I can't follow with nothing else
I can't make promises
I can't lie and pretend I know
That forever is in store for us
But I hate to watch you leave
It hurts to see you go
I'm dreading two days from now
For my heart will start calling
My body will start asking
My mind will begin to go crazy
Wanting to see you, hear you
Smell you, taste you, feel you
"I hate to leave you"
Then stay!
"Two days from now
I'll meet you wherever you are"

A.M

Sovereign

I can feel it coming
A breeze rustling the leafs
A wind whipping the branches on the trees
I can feel the air swirling at my feet
The men throwing petals on my grave
Seeing me wave goodbye before I walk away

I can feel it in the air
A cold chill enveloping me
They're prophesying a love
A man that has been waiting
And creating
Cultivation his soul wealth
Preparing his heart for me

I can feel it coming
In the faces of the men
In the lips I kissed
I've tasted traces of forever
Of a divine nectar
And each hand that touched me
Was missing a nerve
A fearlessness
A passion
A surrender

And every heart I loved
Could not contain me
Their souls failed to sustain me
Their minds didn't stimulate me
So I reclaimed sovereignty
To create, to inspire, to seek
A beauty that can reflect me
A hand that can hold me
A soul that recharges me
Refills me with the love I give

Sometimes I find this man inside me
I pray to him to strengthen and guide me
And through my struggles he loves me
He grips me by my heart
He takes ahold of my soul and inspires me
And that's when I know I'm sovereign
Complete with god's love inside me
And I realize that all I'm seeking is within me
Ready to teach and motivate me

Thank you, Soul
Thank you, God,
Thank you, Heavens
For waking me early
For blessing me with purpose
A gift, a talent
That pleases and teaches
That loves and reaches
The broken, battered fighters
The seekers of beauty and light
Thank you for the potential
To grow and enlighten

All I need I have
All I seek I am
All I love loves me

A.M

In and out of bliss

The sour taste
Of everything you can't have
The sweet flavor of satisfaction
Without promise of tomorrow

The fear causing desperation
The impulse to leave
With or without you
My soul is moving on

To turn away
To forget
To exclaim, "I don't need you,
I can live without you"

As the years fly by
As I get older
Goodbye gets easier
And colder

Can I live with you
Do you fit my future
With your past ghosts
And feelings and hurt
I suppose no one will
No one but a baby
Comes with no scars

Can I live with who you are
How you think
What you do, what you say
How you operate
Can I survive in your world
The way you love
Am I happy with what you give
I don't know

And the sour taste in my mouth
The bittersweet memories
Of an assassin, a double agent
I wonder if it's really you
That I'm giving my love to
Or a lost wolf
Using my soul as refuge
Are you hiding inside me
Am I paradise to you
Do you vacation in my heart
Am I your escape from "hell"

I binge on impulsive thoughts
I wonder if I should tell you
Makes me sick to forget you
I wonder if you can see
The road is ending

But it must be done
I'm brushing the sour taste
From my heart
Your sweet flavor from my tongue
I don't need it
I can live without it

A.M

Is it Love

Is it love
If you can't shout it
If you can't claim it
Is it love
If you must keep quiet
Savor the moments
And lock the memories
Inside your heart's locker

Is it love
If no one knows
If you're a wanderer
A kindred spirit
A unicorn
Is it love
When you write it
When I create poems about us

Is it love
If you can hear it
Streaming from the heart
When we lay and talk for hours
And I welcome all your stories
For I love to hear your voice

Is it love
If you can touch it
When I feel his nude skin
Grazing my naked body
When my lips are glued to him
And we're enfolded in each other

It is love
When you can absorb it
When his energy enters me
Through the palms of my hands
When I massage his skin
It is love
When you can taste it
When I savor his lips
As a divine meal
And eat love when we kiss

It is love
When you can bathe in it
When he invigorates my soul
Melting into me
Deep inside my spirit
It is love
When you lose your head
When he's moaning away
Loving me so hard
He gets lightheaded

Is it love
When the odds are against us
When there are fighting forces
Is it love
When we're both beloved
Harassed by obsessed lovers
Is it love
When we're both broken
Battered by our past
Drunk from old emotions

It is love
When we contemplate our future
Our tall athletic daughter
With big green eyes
And a beautiful behind
It is love
When we compare our past disasters
And find humor in our tragedies
Is it love
When we don't lust for sex
But make love beneath the sheets

Is it love
When I feel rejuvenated
When your legs are weak and shaking
And you trip over my things
Is it love
When we find it all amusing
Compose songs about our loving
And laugh like we're little kids
Is it love
When you share your past adventures
And let me deep inside your head
Is it love
When you tell me everything
When we find beauty in anything
And you never want to leave

Is it love
When you inspire me to grow
In the spiritual and the practical
I create thinking of you
Is it love
When you're deep inside of me
Dwelling in my future
And I don't want you to leave

It is love

A.M

Stop the Pain

If you think you know it all, you've seen it all, you've felt it all, then it's time to empty your cup and start over, for it probably means that you've accumulated too much bullshit that's blurring your vision, clouding your feelings and depriving your living.

You don't have to ingest the stress and suffering of slaughtered animals to build muscle, you can be a vegan and build as much muscle as you want, it just takes proper nutrition and hard work.

It is a myth that you must eat meat to develop muscle, you don't have to harm your mind, body and spirit. Meat from slaughter houses have deadly antibiotics, cancerous toxic chemicals, stress from the tortured animals that can wire you for stress, and suffering that is absorbed by your soul and takes from your humanity and sensibility. Eating meat from animals that lived under stress and died in agonizing pain takes from your mental, physical and spiritual health. Attain peace of mind, spiritual health, a heart filled with joy, a stress free life. Make the choice! Watch the documentary "Earthlings" it's free on YouTube, it will help you start eating healthier.

Respect the Soul

The soul is graceful,
free, enlightened,
the soul is pure, energy,
flexible, sensible,
the soul is loving, compassionate, beautiful,
the soul is the artist in you.
Awake to your soulful existence
and experience life without ego,
without guilt, without fear,
without hurt, without pride.
Selflessness is a gift
you give to yourself,
it saves you worry, it cures stress,
to give without expectancy of reward.
I love you
and I don't need you to love me
but simply to accept that I love your spirit in spite of your mental struggle.
I love you and I forgive you
for judging me.

A.M

Take Flight

You don't need to be an angel to have wings,
you don't need wings to fly,
I fly with no wings, I fly without body.
The more you judge yourself and others the more you ground yourself.
You're no different than anyone else.
There's no such thing as young and old souls,
that is like saying that one drop in the ocean is older than another.
You're not better or more precious than any other being.
We all have the same soul quality, we all share the same potential.
I am not an angel because I've chosen to cultivate my artistic,
compassionate, spiritual side, I am just like everyone else,
with the same ability, the same brain, the same soul.
Don't let anyone tell you any different,
you are a pure spirit made of love and light and you can do with it whatever you like.
Your ideas, your perception, your habits, your discipline makes you who you are.
Be strong, be love, be the best you can be!

A.M

Heaven's Plan

Waiting for the day when my desire to succeed in this world
surpasses my desire to go home.
Waiting for the day I'll embrace this existence
and the souls trembling around me.
Will there ever come a day when I won't long for the unknown,
the mysterious, my eternal home.
Animals, humans, tortured, killed,
emotional, physical, spiritual illnesses, unnecessary famine,
greed, preventable diseases, sick egos.
Take me home, these humans don't want a healthy world,
they simply want temporary relief and satisfaction,
unawareness, superficial happiness.
Take me home!
And then my father says,
"Don't you worry, don't you worry, child, see heaven's got a plan for you"

Keep your faith,
there are few but enough of us to change this planet into a compassionate world,
there's enough of us to bring peace and love to the lonely,
the blind, the dark hearts.
Stay positive! Heavens' got a plan for you!

A.M

Be Love Able

In my heartbreak I chose love, compassion, unconditional love, I chose God and faith and purpose, and that comforted my heart and made me a refined soul. It's not about the people who come into our life, it's not about what they do, how they act, it's about how we react, how we treat ourselves everyday. If you choose love you'll grow rich in love, and a rich soul is never lacking love. When we love ourselves and others we don't crave or need anyone, any love, but love is attracted to us from every corner of the world, souls recognize our ability to be love and embrace our spirits with pure love and light. I feel blessed to have had the opportunity to love a fool, it made me even more lovable. I'm stronger, healthier, inspired and intolerant to sadness and negative behaviors or persons. Learn from your struggles, move forward with your head up. Don't hold grudges, leave those who you've hurt, leave those who have hurt you. Move forward, love yourself first and foremost! Be sovereign!

A.M

Follow your Heart

“Talents are best nurtured in solitude, but character is best formed in the stormy billows of the world”

I was born an artist, we all were.
Somewhere while I was developing, growing, I chose to see the world with compassionate love. I've been writing poems since I was six years old, it's the way I express my passion for life, how I describe the beauty I see and experience. I choose to see and cultivate the love in everyone I meet, I try my best not to judge myself and others. I stay away from pessimistic, judgmental personalities, for those who do not love themselves will always bring you down with their self hatred. I am blessed, I am loving, I am Amanda, Beloved Poet, Hardworking Athlete, Caring Friend, Loving Daughter and Compassionate stranger. My present and future is blessed with joy and serenity, I fear nothing and I steer clear of fearing souls, for they not only deprive themselves of love but dim your spirit too. Be yourself, follow your heart!

A.M

Entertain Peace

I'm not here to critique, to judge, to argue and debate.
I'm here to love, to be fearless, to follow my heart and inspire you to follow yours.
I'm not preparing to do anything, I'm doing what I came here to do.
I am loving, I am being loved, and there is nothing to affirm, there is nothing to protest,
there is nothing to prove or protest.
I am here to create, to share beauty, and so are you.
We live in a world where the privileged are the most judgmental,
where those who were given everything criticize and put down the ones born in struggle.
This snobbish behavior creates fear and separation between souls,
this lack of humanity and compassion hurts both the privileged and unprivileged souls,
creating violence and retaliation.
You want to help the world? Quit being scared, stop judging, start loving.
You're not better, you're not worse, we're equal.
The illusion, the ego delusion, the materialism, the need for unnecessary luxury are killing the animals, the forests, the people.
The destructive fearsome ego is destroying the planet,
creating war and catastrophe.
Follow your heart, be love, be fearless,
save the forests, save the people, save earth.
Let the God inside you rule your heart.
Create positive energy, don't repeat the negative actions you see around you,
don't praise destructive behavior,
don't scorn, don't criticize, let the bad energy die, don't give it life.
Focus on the love in your heart, on being the best you can be,
let your divine existence reign.

A.M

Challenged Sovereignty

"Anyone can combine words so that they rhyme,
But you are the reason that we talk at all."

My soul attracts yours,
I like being close to your spirit,
It embraces me and gives me love.

"You make me happy, I enjoy my time with you"

So stimulating, so warm, so soothing, so delicious....
Ahhh...I can taste it, feel it, smell it,
Though you're not here, you're in my senses.

"You make me feel like a man when you kiss me"

Let the poetry begin, spring from my soul, pour out of my heart,
Perspire through memories and fantasies to come.

"I am a tough shell to break"

The spirit is pure light, my soul enters as it pleases,
Without scarring, without hurting, without breaking.
The mind may make you believe you are limited,
You may think you're tough,
But your spirit is pure love and I dance inside it.

"I think you and I were meant for each other,
But in the future"

Our kiss, our lips fit so well,
Napping in your arms,
Waking up in a hot embrace
Making love hard and deep and sweet.

And as he gets dressed to leave he says,
"I'm leaving town, as soon as I get this job,
You can come with me if you want"

And all my responsibilities come to mind,
All my worries, insecurities surface,
And my heart tightens with the thought
That someday soon will be the last time
I'll feel his touch.

"Would you come with me?
Would you move?
You wouldn't, would you?"

My love and beauty is for healing,
I take none on my journey.
I share my soul while traveling,
Shifting through this existence,
Shining my light into the hearts
That allow an opening
For love to enter and inspire.

"A rich man will find you,
He'll take you away from here.
I'm lucky, I'm just a lucky man
Who gets to have you right now"

If my love resonating inside your heart
For the rest of your life is luck,
Then you are lucky.

"I wish I could buy us plane tickets,
Take you away to Paris,
Stay at a luxurious hotel,
Buy you the best dinner,
Show you how much I appreciate your presence"

The bittersweet pleasure and confusion
Of a touch that takes you outside yourself
And into the essence of someone else.

Our insecurity and fear
Makes us look with judgment and disbelief.
We must shut the mind to see with soul,
Bringing art into life
And turning life into art.

I won't say that I miss you,
I don't have the right to ask you to stay,
I can't even say that I love you,
I just know that we fit so well,
So good when we're together.

I'll probably go out of my way
To see you, to hug you,
To kiss you, to taste you,
To dress you in beauty once more.

And no one can blame me for loving,
For being weak with lust,
But I know that I may be punished
For wanting what belongs to another soul.

A.M

Sovereign

The stronger I become
The less tolerance I have for weakness
The more strength I build
The less patience I grant to the weak

As I grow more compassionate
I strongly despise judgment
As I love unbiasedly
I pity those who feel discriminately

As I achieve sovereignty
I become disgusted by fear
As I follow my heart
I can't bare those traveling lost

And my impatience
My intolerance
My disgust
Is there to set me apart
And make sure I don't get off course

A.M

Surrender

I walked you out
I kissed you goodbye
I saw you walking away
How can you still be here
Inside me

I feel a quiet peace
A stillness in my mind
A calmness in my heart
Oblivious to the noise outside
My soul is still
My thoughts are you

My heart begins to beat again
I feel your absence
I'm aware of my loneliness
I guess this is what it feels
To fall
This is what it feels
To have half a heart

You're here
On my sweaty skin
On my smudged makeup
In my messy hair
And I can't get myself
To wash
To clean you off

My face warms to your touch
My skin glows when we kiss
My hair loves the pull of your hands

Your spirit enters my body
When you make love to me
I tremble, I melt in rapture

My flesh, my towels, my bed sheets
Everything smells like you
You're here
You're everywhere
You've touched
Everywhere we made love

You're here
You're in me
In my soul
In my heart
In my thoughts

And
I'm allowing
I'm welcoming
I'm surrendering

I'm loving
I'm loving
I'm loving again

A.M

New Love

You say you like my company
That you smile when you're with me
You look forward to seeing my face
And you really like my kiss
You say I'm a nice girl
And you'll be a good boy with me

I'd be naive to believe
And I know I shouldn't see you
Shouldn't let you in my life
With the baggage that you bring
I'm going against my principles
Curiosity has the best of me

We haven't spent much time alone
But we talk and laugh when we do
You're interested in my thoughts
When I talk you listen endearingly
And you don't rush to touch me
You respect my space and body

We've been on a few dates
I'm learning about your demons
I let you talk most of the time
While I stare into your eyes
You said you wanted to kiss
So I gave you the opportunity

I was suspended in the air
As your hand took ahold of my neck
Running your fingers through my hair
You gripped me softly and pulled me in
Caressing my face
You parted my lips with your thumb

You brought your face to my face
Lifted my arms above my head
Held my face with both hands
And kissed me tenderly, patiently
I leaned my body against yours
And let you swallow me whole

That was our first kiss
One of many that night
Since then I've seen you again
We drove to a beautiful park
The stars were out, the air was chilly
You held me tight and kissed me

I love the smell of your neck
The softness of your hair
Between my fingers
Kissing, caressing your face
Your tender, luscious lips
I can never get enough

Anticipating our clothes coming off
Feeling your warm body against my naked skin
Waiting for the moment your hands will slide up
And down my entire body
Pressing, caressing, holding, savoring
Kissing every inch of me

A.M

Knowing, Desiring, Fantasizing

When we love
The simple knowing, desiring, fantasizing
Is enough
To know love was exchanged
To desire memories gone
To fantasize future encounters
To remember touching hearts

The light of your spirit shining into my life
Your eyes glowing looking into mine
Your naked body opening in a smile
Your firm touch relaxing my tense body
The weight of your stress on my breasts
Pressuring my chest, opening my heart again

Your scent on my skin, your sweat on my pillow
The flavor of your kiss on my lips
Your essence resonating sensitivity
Your echo presence between my legs
Giving me goose bumps still
The tiredness that reminds me
You were here, all day, all night, you are here

This desire that lingers with me
The knowing, desiring, fantasizing
But if I never see you again
I won't be wanting, I won't be needing
For when you were here
I possessed you completely
I gave it all, I took it all

Love, light, illusion
Heart, soul, mind
Body, limbs, legs, arms
Belly, breasts, nipples, neck
Nose, lips, tongue, eyes, ears
Elbows, knees, nails, hairs
Every part, every organ, everything

I gave it all, I let you in
With love and caution
You felt my heart and gave me feeling
My entire being consumed completely
Everything, everything
I opened up, I shared with you
Everything, everything

I gave and I took
Gave love, took spiritual burden
Gave kisses, took mental worries
Gave body, took physical pleasure
Gave touch, took lasting emotion
I gave and I took
Gave what was mine and took what was yours


And if I never see you again
I won't be wanting, I won't be needing
For when you were here
I gave my all, I took it all
I fed my hunger, satisfied my pleasure
I took what I wanted and let you possess me
Completely

And if I never see you again
I'll live satisfied, knowing, desiring, fantasizing
I'll live content with the knowledge
That I resonate inside your body
With the desire of pleasureful memories
With the fantasy that makes me believe
I made love with you


A.M

"I am" Not Yours

Some see souls as shiny objects
Ready to be possessed
They try to buy your spirit
Strive to attain the essence you transmit
They use their resources
To get inside your body
To add you to their belongings

And then they come across my heart
Shining, glowing in the darkness
Emitting light, professing love
And they say, "I must have her,
I need to possess her"

And they fail in their quest
To trap an image
To hold a soul
In their tiny slippery hands
Perspiring cold sweat
And fear and hurt

They fail miserably
While trying to hold
Pure light, pure love
In decomposing bodies
In broken ideas of affection
They fail miserably
While trying to chain me
To reflect me as their own

You see, my love
Is made of Ishtar's soul
It burns with divine presence
Hands and mouths
Could never hold or taste
The miracle that is "I"
Eyes and minds cannot see
The revelation that is "I";
Realized spirit!
Born of Ishtar
Blessed by consciousness
My love blinds the fool

"I" cannot be owned
"I" shall never be possessed
For "I am God"
Manifested in a body
Of beauty and infectious affection

A.M