A Beautiful Mind

As I began to love myself I found that anguish and emotional suffering are only warning signs that I was living against my own truth. Today, I know, this is AUTHENTICITY.

As I began to love myself I understood how much it can offend somebody as I try to force my desires on this person, even though I knew the time was not right and the person was not ready for it, and even though this person was me. Today I call it RESPECT.

As I began to love myself I stopped craving for a different life, and I could see that everything that surrounded me was inviting me to grow. Today I call it MATURITY.

As I began to love myself I understood that at any circumstance, I am in the right place at the right time, and everything happens at the exactly right moment, so I could be calm. Today I call it SELF-CONFIDENCE.

As I began to love myself I quit steeling my own time, and I stopped designing huge projects for the future. Today, I only do what brings me joy and happiness, things I love to do and that make my heart cheer, and I do them in my own way and in my own rhythm. Today I call it SIMPLICITY.

As I began to love myself I freed myself of anything that is no good for my health – food, people, things, situations, and everything the drew me down and away from myself. At first I called this attitude a healthy egoism.Today I know it is LOVE OF ONESELF.

As I began to love myself I quit trying to always be right, and ever since I was wrong less of the time. Today I discovered that is MODESTY.

As I began to love myself I refused to go on living in the past and worry about the future. Now, I only live for the moment, where EVERYTHING is happening. Today I live each day, day by day, and I call it FULFILLMENT.

As I began to love myself I recognized that my mind can disturb me and it can make me sick. But As I connected it to my heart, my mind became a valuable ally. Today I call this connection WISDOM OF THE HEART.

We no longer need to fear arguments, confrontations or any kind of problems with ourselves or others. Even stars collide, and out of their crashing new worlds are born. Today I know THAT IS LIFE!

Charlie Chaplin

Complexities

The complexities of each soul hidden inside a chest of pain, ready to be unveiled by minds ready to endure the suffering that comes with awareness and truth, concealed within your heart the purest love, invisible to the eye but deeply felt by the touch that is able to share the same love.

A.M

Be Love, Give Love

How many have smiled because of you today? How many faces have you kissed, how many bodies have you embraced, how many minds have you inspired, how many lives have you improved, how many souls are grateful for you? How many eyes look upon you for strength, how many look to you for inspiration, motivation? How many hearts have you touched? How many have told you they've felt your love, your heart, your mind, your spirit overflowing with love and filling their hearts with joy? How many smiles have you inspired? If you helped generate one smile today, if you have made one soul feel loved, if you have helped one stranger or loved one, you have succeeded, you have grown in love and helped someone else grow too. Give love everyday.

A.M

Honor your Divinity

We are not living unless we are growing everyday, our spirits were meant to be cultivated, as divine beings we must nourish our soul with love. We are creators, masters of our life, we create our pain, we make our joy, with every thought, every decision, every feeling we claim to feel. Be wise when creating, make positive loving feelings and silence the negative thoughts by not speaking them, not manifesting anger, criticism, contempt, and making it a reality. Everyday is a new beginning, a new chance to be our best. Choose love everyday, express yourself always, set your spirit free, let your blessed soul shine bright, let nothing and no one bring you down, you were born to create and be loved. Honor your divinity, think and act with love.

A.M

Transformation

The only reality I know is that of transformation through pain.
There must be discomfort for change to happen.
Pain is always present, sometimes it's numbed but it's ever present whether you choose to change and grow or stay the same.
Your personal pain might manifest in the form of self judgment, insecurity, jealousy, hatred, greed, self destruction, obsessions, compulsive disorders, illnesses, etc.
When negative thoughts about yourself or others arise think twice and analyze, try to get to the root of it, there might be an underlying reason, you might be experiencing suffering and masking it by criticizing and judging those around you. If everyone invested their complete energy into loving and cultivating their mind, body and soul there wouldn't be room left for judgment and criticism. Love yourself, don't worry about what others are doing, it's not your business and you don't have any control over it.

Love is what we are, what we share when we give of ourselves,
when we feel with our hearts.
Love is you, being still, in the present,
love is what we experience when we appreciate our soul and that of others

We are all artists, we are all able to create. I am a Poet because I have chosen to be. In one form or another most people can do the same, they can turn a negative into a positive if they choose to. We, writers, have figured out how, we have created a style, a pattern of thought, we have experienced so much emotion, we have felt so much, we have drowned ourselves in desire, in want, in love, so so much that we invented a form of expression, an art, a way to illustrate our experience, to share it, to empty it into something other than ourselves, for God knows it's too much to be contained within us.

It took a long time to get here, to find my place, to create a world I'm happy with, a place I'm comfortable in, a space where I can be my entire self in.
I'm feeding from good sources, I'm creating with love, I'm thinking positively, I'm loving myself, cultivating inner beauty and health.
The outer appearance is the manifestation of what's going on inside, you can see poetry in my eyes, on my skin the glow of a divine love perspiring.
I'm the most patient person I know, probably because I ruminate so much, I think twice, three times before I act. I practice remaining still, keeping my thoughts calm, silencing desire, frustration, anxiety.
I'm blessed to be able to exercise my relentless, persevering determined will power to achieve anything and everything.
I have figured out how to use my body, mind and spirit, and so can you. Practicing compassion, patience, forgiveness, creates peace, eliminates stress, generates love.

I let go of my worries and impulsive thoughts of today to create what I want to become.
My past fuels me with strength and knowledge but it also interferes with today, which is why I must feed on the wisdom it taught me and let go of the bad habits I picked up because of it. So in spite of the painful experiences and impulsive habits that come with having a past I choose to move forward overcoming all that I feel is negative, ignoring all non productive desires, leaving behind all the comforting habits and plunging into the future with everything I've got.

Now lets go to work!

A.M

Two days from now

The bittersweet moment
When I watch your body leave
Aware I'll feel your absence
Within thirty minutes of you leaving
Knowing that I'll start to crave you
In about two and a half days
That's when I'll begin to go insane
Wondering where you are
What you're doing
Where you been
"Do you think you could ever be mine?"
I am yours, love.
"You're mine now"
Could you ever be mine, only mine?
"Yes"
And I can't follow with nothing else
I can't make promises
I can't lie and pretend I know
That forever is in store for us
But I hate to watch you leave
It hurts to see you go
I'm dreading two days from now
For my heart will start calling
My body will start asking
My mind will begin to go crazy
Wanting to see you, hear you
Smell you, taste you, feel you
"I hate to leave you"
Then stay!
"Two days from now
I'll meet you wherever you are"

A.M

Sovereign

I can feel it coming
A breeze rustling the leafs
A wind whipping the branches on the trees
I can feel the air swirling at my feet
The men throwing petals on my grave
Seeing me wave goodbye before I walk away

I can feel it in the air
A cold chill enveloping me
They're prophesying a love
A man that has been waiting
And creating
Cultivation his soul wealth
Preparing his heart for me

I can feel it coming
In the faces of the men
In the lips I kissed
I've tasted traces of forever
Of a divine nectar
And each hand that touched me
Was missing a nerve
A fearlessness
A passion
A surrender

And every heart I loved
Could not contain me
Their souls failed to sustain me
Their minds didn't stimulate me
So I reclaimed sovereignty
To create, to inspire, to seek
A beauty that can reflect me
A hand that can hold me
A soul that recharges me
Refills me with the love I give

Sometimes I find this man inside me
I pray to him to strengthen and guide me
And through my struggles he loves me
He grips me by my heart
He takes ahold of my soul and inspires me
And that's when I know I'm sovereign
Complete with god's love inside me
And I realize that all I'm seeking is within me
Ready to teach and motivate me

Thank you, Soul
Thank you, God,
Thank you, Heavens
For waking me early
For blessing me with purpose
A gift, a talent
That pleases and teaches
That loves and reaches
The broken, battered fighters
The seekers of beauty and light
Thank you for the potential
To grow and enlighten

All I need I have
All I seek I am
All I love loves me

A.M

In and out of bliss

The sour taste
Of everything you can't have
The sweet flavor of satisfaction
Without promise of tomorrow

The fear causing desperation
The impulse to leave
With or without you
My soul is moving on

To turn away
To forget
To exclaim, "I don't need you,
I can live without you"

As the years fly by
As I get older
Goodbye gets easier
And colder

Can I live with you
Do you fit my future
With your past ghosts
And feelings and hurt
I suppose no one will
No one but a baby
Comes with no scars

Can I live with who you are
How you think
What you do, what you say
How you operate
Can I survive in your world
The way you love
Am I happy with what you give
I don't know

And the sour taste in my mouth
The bittersweet memories
Of an assassin, a double agent
I wonder if it's really you
That I'm giving my love to
Or a lost wolf
Using my soul as refuge
Are you hiding inside me
Am I paradise to you
Do you vacation in my heart
Am I your escape from "hell"

I binge on impulsive thoughts
I wonder if I should tell you
Makes me sick to forget you
I wonder if you can see
The road is ending

But it must be done
I'm brushing the sour taste
From my heart
Your sweet flavor from my tongue
I don't need it
I can live without it

A.M

Is it Love

Is it love
If you can't shout it
If you can't claim it
Is it love
If you must keep quiet
Savor the moments
And lock the memories
Inside your heart's locker

Is it love
If no one knows
If you're a wanderer
A kindred spirit
A unicorn
Is it love
When you write it
When I create poems about us

Is it love
If you can hear it
Streaming from the heart
When we lay and talk for hours
And I welcome all your stories
For I love to hear your voice

Is it love
If you can touch it
When I feel his nude skin
Grazing my naked body
When my lips are glued to him
And we're enfolded in each other

It is love
When you can absorb it
When his energy enters me
Through the palms of my hands
When I massage his skin
It is love
When you can taste it
When I savor his lips
As a divine meal
And eat love when we kiss

It is love
When you can bathe in it
When he invigorates my soul
Melting into me
Deep inside my spirit
It is love
When you lose your head
When he's moaning away
Loving me so hard
He gets lightheaded

Is it love
When the odds are against us
When there are fighting forces
Is it love
When we're both beloved
Harassed by obsessed lovers
Is it love
When we're both broken
Battered by our past
Drunk from old emotions

It is love
When we contemplate our future
Our tall athletic daughter
With big green eyes
And a beautiful behind
It is love
When we compare our past disasters
And find humor in our tragedies
Is it love
When we don't lust for sex
But make love beneath the sheets

Is it love
When I feel rejuvenated
When your legs are weak and shaking
And you trip over my things
Is it love
When we find it all amusing
Compose songs about our loving
And laugh like we're little kids
Is it love
When you share your past adventures
And let me deep inside your head
Is it love
When you tell me everything
When we find beauty in anything
And you never want to leave

Is it love
When you inspire me to grow
In the spiritual and the practical
I create thinking of you
Is it love
When you're deep inside of me
Dwelling in my future
And I don't want you to leave

It is love

A.M