All I know is Now

My desire is cold,
calculated fantasies,
restrained spontaneity,
grounded freedom.
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My heart is open,
unbiased,
shared freely
with all who need it.
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My body is guarded,
in conscious isolation,
aware of the dangers
of openness.
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My soul is free,
wondering through your dreams,
pleasing your desires,
open to your fantasies,
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roaming in your body,
waking your hidden longings,
inciting emotion,
freeing your feelings.
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All I know is now...
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if my soul should rise and fall
I'll never know,
if I should succeed or fail in my attempts
I'll never know,
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I cannot tell the difference
between winning and losing,
between high and low,
Between success and failure.
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For I live in the clouds,
I thrive in the now,
I live for today,
I give it away,
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I spend it all now,
no feelings get saved,
no frustration remains,
I give it away,
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I express my desires,
I pray for nourishment,
I take what I need,
I sustain my hunger,
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For soul food,
For love,
For wisdom,
For purpose.
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Why be one idea
when we can be two worlds
in one universe?
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Why accept and conform
When we can inspire growth
Through doubt and difference?
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Your opposing qualities
draw me closer,
to grow from your flaws,
to learn from your vices,
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to become stronger
in the light of your qualities,
To love you for love,
To accept you for you.
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To rise or to fall,
to love or to fight,
to break or to marry,
these ideas don't concern me.
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All I know is now...

A.M