Stop the Pain

If you think you know it all, you've seen it all, you've felt it all, then it's time to empty your cup and start over, for it probably means that you've accumulated too much bullshit that's blurring your vision, clouding your feelings and depriving your living.

You don't have to ingest the stress and suffering of slaughtered animals to build muscle, you can be a vegan and build as much muscle as you want, it just takes proper nutrition and hard work.

It is a myth that you must eat meat to develop muscle, you don't have to harm your mind, body and spirit. Meat from slaughter houses have deadly antibiotics, cancerous toxic chemicals, stress from the tortured animals that can wire you for stress, and suffering that is absorbed by your soul and takes from your humanity and sensibility. Eating meat from animals that lived under stress and died in agonizing pain takes from your mental, physical and spiritual health. Attain peace of mind, spiritual health, a heart filled with joy, a stress free life. Make the choice! Watch the documentary "Earthlings" it's free on YouTube, it will help you start eating healthier.

Respect the Soul

The soul is graceful,
free, enlightened,
the soul is pure, energy,
flexible, sensible,
the soul is loving, compassionate, beautiful,
the soul is the artist in you.
Awake to your soulful existence
and experience life without ego,
without guilt, without fear,
without hurt, without pride.
Selflessness is a gift
you give to yourself,
it saves you worry, it cures stress,
to give without expectancy of reward.
I love you
and I don't need you to love me
but simply to accept that I love your spirit in spite of your mental struggle.
I love you and I forgive you
for judging me.

A.M

Take Flight

You don't need to be an angel to have wings,
you don't need wings to fly,
I fly with no wings, I fly without body.
The more you judge yourself and others the more you ground yourself.
You're no different than anyone else.
There's no such thing as young and old souls,
that is like saying that one drop in the ocean is older than another.
You're not better or more precious than any other being.
We all have the same soul quality, we all share the same potential.
I am not an angel because I've chosen to cultivate my artistic,
compassionate, spiritual side, I am just like everyone else,
with the same ability, the same brain, the same soul.
Don't let anyone tell you any different,
you are a pure spirit made of love and light and you can do with it whatever you like.
Your ideas, your perception, your habits, your discipline makes you who you are.
Be strong, be love, be the best you can be!

A.M

Heaven's Plan

Waiting for the day when my desire to succeed in this world
surpasses my desire to go home.
Waiting for the day I'll embrace this existence
and the souls trembling around me.
Will there ever come a day when I won't long for the unknown,
the mysterious, my eternal home.
Animals, humans, tortured, killed,
emotional, physical, spiritual illnesses, unnecessary famine,
greed, preventable diseases, sick egos.
Take me home, these humans don't want a healthy world,
they simply want temporary relief and satisfaction,
unawareness, superficial happiness.
Take me home!
And then my father says,
"Don't you worry, don't you worry, child, see heaven's got a plan for you"

Keep your faith,
there are few but enough of us to change this planet into a compassionate world,
there's enough of us to bring peace and love to the lonely,
the blind, the dark hearts.
Stay positive! Heavens' got a plan for you!

A.M

Be Love Able

In my heartbreak I chose love, compassion, unconditional love, I chose God and faith and purpose, and that comforted my heart and made me a refined soul. It's not about the people who come into our life, it's not about what they do, how they act, it's about how we react, how we treat ourselves everyday. If you choose love you'll grow rich in love, and a rich soul is never lacking love. When we love ourselves and others we don't crave or need anyone, any love, but love is attracted to us from every corner of the world, souls recognize our ability to be love and embrace our spirits with pure love and light. I feel blessed to have had the opportunity to love a fool, it made me even more lovable. I'm stronger, healthier, inspired and intolerant to sadness and negative behaviors or persons. Learn from your struggles, move forward with your head up. Don't hold grudges, leave those who you've hurt, leave those who have hurt you. Move forward, love yourself first and foremost! Be sovereign!

A.M

Follow your Heart

“Talents are best nurtured in solitude, but character is best formed in the stormy billows of the world”

I was born an artist, we all were.
Somewhere while I was developing, growing, I chose to see the world with compassionate love. I've been writing poems since I was six years old, it's the way I express my passion for life, how I describe the beauty I see and experience. I choose to see and cultivate the love in everyone I meet, I try my best not to judge myself and others. I stay away from pessimistic, judgmental personalities, for those who do not love themselves will always bring you down with their self hatred. I am blessed, I am loving, I am Amanda, Beloved Poet, Hardworking Athlete, Caring Friend, Loving Daughter and Compassionate stranger. My present and future is blessed with joy and serenity, I fear nothing and I steer clear of fearing souls, for they not only deprive themselves of love but dim your spirit too. Be yourself, follow your heart!

A.M

Entertain Peace

I'm not here to critique, to judge, to argue and debate.
I'm here to love, to be fearless, to follow my heart and inspire you to follow yours.
I'm not preparing to do anything, I'm doing what I came here to do.
I am loving, I am being loved, and there is nothing to affirm, there is nothing to protest,
there is nothing to prove or protest.
I am here to create, to share beauty, and so are you.
We live in a world where the privileged are the most judgmental,
where those who were given everything criticize and put down the ones born in struggle.
This snobbish behavior creates fear and separation between souls,
this lack of humanity and compassion hurts both the privileged and unprivileged souls,
creating violence and retaliation.
You want to help the world? Quit being scared, stop judging, start loving.
You're not better, you're not worse, we're equal.
The illusion, the ego delusion, the materialism, the need for unnecessary luxury are killing the animals, the forests, the people.
The destructive fearsome ego is destroying the planet,
creating war and catastrophe.
Follow your heart, be love, be fearless,
save the forests, save the people, save earth.
Let the God inside you rule your heart.
Create positive energy, don't repeat the negative actions you see around you,
don't praise destructive behavior,
don't scorn, don't criticize, let the bad energy die, don't give it life.
Focus on the love in your heart, on being the best you can be,
let your divine existence reign.

A.M

Challenged Sovereignty

"Anyone can combine words so that they rhyme,
But you are the reason that we talk at all."

My soul attracts yours,
I like being close to your spirit,
It embraces me and gives me love.

"You make me happy, I enjoy my time with you"

So stimulating, so warm, so soothing, so delicious....
Ahhh...I can taste it, feel it, smell it,
Though you're not here, you're in my senses.

"You make me feel like a man when you kiss me"

Let the poetry begin, spring from my soul, pour out of my heart,
Perspire through memories and fantasies to come.

"I am a tough shell to break"

The spirit is pure light, my soul enters as it pleases,
Without scarring, without hurting, without breaking.
The mind may make you believe you are limited,
You may think you're tough,
But your spirit is pure love and I dance inside it.

"I think you and I were meant for each other,
But in the future"

Our kiss, our lips fit so well,
Napping in your arms,
Waking up in a hot embrace
Making love hard and deep and sweet.

And as he gets dressed to leave he says,
"I'm leaving town, as soon as I get this job,
You can come with me if you want"

And all my responsibilities come to mind,
All my worries, insecurities surface,
And my heart tightens with the thought
That someday soon will be the last time
I'll feel his touch.

"Would you come with me?
Would you move?
You wouldn't, would you?"

My love and beauty is for healing,
I take none on my journey.
I share my soul while traveling,
Shifting through this existence,
Shining my light into the hearts
That allow an opening
For love to enter and inspire.

"A rich man will find you,
He'll take you away from here.
I'm lucky, I'm just a lucky man
Who gets to have you right now"

If my love resonating inside your heart
For the rest of your life is luck,
Then you are lucky.

"I wish I could buy us plane tickets,
Take you away to Paris,
Stay at a luxurious hotel,
Buy you the best dinner,
Show you how much I appreciate your presence"

The bittersweet pleasure and confusion
Of a touch that takes you outside yourself
And into the essence of someone else.

Our insecurity and fear
Makes us look with judgment and disbelief.
We must shut the mind to see with soul,
Bringing art into life
And turning life into art.

I won't say that I miss you,
I don't have the right to ask you to stay,
I can't even say that I love you,
I just know that we fit so well,
So good when we're together.

I'll probably go out of my way
To see you, to hug you,
To kiss you, to taste you,
To dress you in beauty once more.

And no one can blame me for loving,
For being weak with lust,
But I know that I may be punished
For wanting what belongs to another soul.

A.M

Sovereign

The stronger I become
The less tolerance I have for weakness
The more strength I build
The less patience I grant to the weak

As I grow more compassionate
I strongly despise judgment
As I love unbiasedly
I pity those who feel discriminately

As I achieve sovereignty
I become disgusted by fear
As I follow my heart
I can't bare those traveling lost

And my impatience
My intolerance
My disgust
Is there to set me apart
And make sure I don't get off course

A.M

Surrender

I walked you out
I kissed you goodbye
I saw you walking away
How can you still be here
Inside me

I feel a quiet peace
A stillness in my mind
A calmness in my heart
Oblivious to the noise outside
My soul is still
My thoughts are you

My heart begins to beat again
I feel your absence
I'm aware of my loneliness
I guess this is what it feels
To fall
This is what it feels
To have half a heart

You're here
On my sweaty skin
On my smudged makeup
In my messy hair
And I can't get myself
To wash
To clean you off

My face warms to your touch
My skin glows when we kiss
My hair loves the pull of your hands

Your spirit enters my body
When you make love to me
I tremble, I melt in rapture

My flesh, my towels, my bed sheets
Everything smells like you
You're here
You're everywhere
You've touched
Everywhere we made love

You're here
You're in me
In my soul
In my heart
In my thoughts

And
I'm allowing
I'm welcoming
I'm surrendering

I'm loving
I'm loving
I'm loving again

A.M

New Love

You say you like my company
That you smile when you're with me
You look forward to seeing my face
And you really like my kiss
You say I'm a nice girl
And you'll be a good boy with me

I'd be naive to believe
And I know I shouldn't see you
Shouldn't let you in my life
With the baggage that you bring
I'm going against my principles
Curiosity has the best of me

We haven't spent much time alone
But we talk and laugh when we do
You're interested in my thoughts
When I talk you listen endearingly
And you don't rush to touch me
You respect my space and body

We've been on a few dates
I'm learning about your demons
I let you talk most of the time
While I stare into your eyes
You said you wanted to kiss
So I gave you the opportunity

I was suspended in the air
As your hand took ahold of my neck
Running your fingers through my hair
You gripped me softly and pulled me in
Caressing my face
You parted my lips with your thumb

You brought your face to my face
Lifted my arms above my head
Held my face with both hands
And kissed me tenderly, patiently
I leaned my body against yours
And let you swallow me whole

That was our first kiss
One of many that night
Since then I've seen you again
We drove to a beautiful park
The stars were out, the air was chilly
You held me tight and kissed me

I love the smell of your neck
The softness of your hair
Between my fingers
Kissing, caressing your face
Your tender, luscious lips
I can never get enough

Anticipating our clothes coming off
Feeling your warm body against my naked skin
Waiting for the moment your hands will slide up
And down my entire body
Pressing, caressing, holding, savoring
Kissing every inch of me

A.M

Knowing, Desiring, Fantasizing

When we love
The simple knowing, desiring, fantasizing
Is enough
To know love was exchanged
To desire memories gone
To fantasize future encounters
To remember touching hearts

The light of your spirit shining into my life
Your eyes glowing looking into mine
Your naked body opening in a smile
Your firm touch relaxing my tense body
The weight of your stress on my breasts
Pressuring my chest, opening my heart again

Your scent on my skin, your sweat on my pillow
The flavor of your kiss on my lips
Your essence resonating sensitivity
Your echo presence between my legs
Giving me goose bumps still
The tiredness that reminds me
You were here, all day, all night, you are here

This desire that lingers with me
The knowing, desiring, fantasizing
But if I never see you again
I won't be wanting, I won't be needing
For when you were here
I possessed you completely
I gave it all, I took it all

Love, light, illusion
Heart, soul, mind
Body, limbs, legs, arms
Belly, breasts, nipples, neck
Nose, lips, tongue, eyes, ears
Elbows, knees, nails, hairs
Every part, every organ, everything

I gave it all, I let you in
With love and caution
You felt my heart and gave me feeling
My entire being consumed completely
Everything, everything
I opened up, I shared with you
Everything, everything

I gave and I took
Gave love, took spiritual burden
Gave kisses, took mental worries
Gave body, took physical pleasure
Gave touch, took lasting emotion
I gave and I took
Gave what was mine and took what was yours


And if I never see you again
I won't be wanting, I won't be needing
For when you were here
I gave my all, I took it all
I fed my hunger, satisfied my pleasure
I took what I wanted and let you possess me
Completely

And if I never see you again
I'll live satisfied, knowing, desiring, fantasizing
I'll live content with the knowledge
That I resonate inside your body
With the desire of pleasureful memories
With the fantasy that makes me believe
I made love with you


A.M

"I am" Not Yours

Some see souls as shiny objects
Ready to be possessed
They try to buy your spirit
Strive to attain the essence you transmit
They use their resources
To get inside your body
To add you to their belongings

And then they come across my heart
Shining, glowing in the darkness
Emitting light, professing love
And they say, "I must have her,
I need to possess her"

And they fail in their quest
To trap an image
To hold a soul
In their tiny slippery hands
Perspiring cold sweat
And fear and hurt

They fail miserably
While trying to hold
Pure light, pure love
In decomposing bodies
In broken ideas of affection
They fail miserably
While trying to chain me
To reflect me as their own

You see, my love
Is made of Ishtar's soul
It burns with divine presence
Hands and mouths
Could never hold or taste
The miracle that is "I"
Eyes and minds cannot see
The revelation that is "I";
Realized spirit!
Born of Ishtar
Blessed by consciousness
My love blinds the fool

"I" cannot be owned
"I" shall never be possessed
For "I am God"
Manifested in a body
Of beauty and infectious affection

A.M

In Insecurity Lies The Eternal

We are history repeating itself

Now battle scarred we try again

To be the winner in this deadly game

Well, I can only speak for myself

I`m tired, fading like picked flowers

A ghost of war, of a time pride was glorified

And I played your heart like monopoly

Buying your bullshit and selling my soul

To spite you, to make you hurt

And in that I was victorious

For a little while or so

Until you caught on and changed your heart`s address

After you left I fought again, and lost again, and again

The kind hearted men

But also the selfish self destructive martyr

I`ve wasted years trying

Gained wisdom but grew cold with the lessons

I`ve stopped fighting

I watch now, watch their dreams die in the cold war

From a lonely, scared place

Where I claim to be fearless but I`m really afraid

Afraid I can`t let go

Afraid I won`t ever love the way I loved your heart and soul

Afraid of the pain, the bittersweet memories of me and you

Kissing in the park

Holding hands in my car, gazing into your cold blue eyes

These memories come to life

Rage war inside me, the fierce passion, the drunk love

If I listened to logic I`d be married by now

With a daughter and two sons

I`ve picked names for them all

But I`m unsure if they`ll ever be born

I`ve chosen the place I want to settle

But don`t know if I`ll ever make it home

For I refuse to play the game

I`m done fighting and pretending this is working

We are history repeating itself

And I want to stop this deadly cycle, but I can`t

I can`t stop this wheel from turning

These people from cheating their chosen path

Breaking their sworn vows, deserting their loved ones

Divorcing their soul health

And I will stay out of this war game for as long as I can

Even if you`re still playing in it

Losing yourself with random women

And maybe when you`re done fighting

You'll look for me again

Find me, love me, and hold my hand



A.M